Hey guys, so
I find myself in a very bizzare life situation. Let me just say upfront - upon hearing what Im going theough - you will most likely find yourself partly feeling that what I am relaying to you is not the truth. That's fine. If I heard about this from another person, without actually experiencing it myself, I would in all likelyhood not believe it either, or perhaps, presume that the person who is delivering these informations must be mentally unsound or a complete liar.
But I promise it's true, and sincerely hope that at least some of you could at least offer some sincere advice for me,because I genuinely need wise counsel at this time.... for, dear God, i find myself agonizingly lost. :(
Hmm.... Where to start. Well,
Seven years ago, when I was 18, I wandered onto an internet forum, some of you may know, zoklet.com (where all the members of the fabled, totse.com, had migrated after the sites owner shut the place down.)[Just a place to bullshit and butter each other up; an internet underbelly for all the misfit and dysfunctional people of the world to coalesce]
I was most drawn to the paranormal section. And contributed satisfactorily to its content.
It was there, that a character from here had surreptitiously taken it upon themselves to install an exceptionally high tech system of monitoring devices theoughout my place of residence, and around my city. They had let me know in a way which was both nightmarish and extremely uncomfortable. It was unimaginably unpleasant and wrong.
Over time, thru the internet, i began to develop a haphhazard sort of stockholm syndrome,and felt an amicable yet still significantly uncomfortable friendship. They had let me to believe they were a female. and from a very intentionally Mk-Ultraesque series of blogs, Tumblrs, and the forum... I was mentally destroyed, from mental shock, and i had been psychologically brainwashed in a sense.
This endured for about a good couple years.
Eventually I was terrorized and severely tortured, mostly emotionally, but also physically. I had written a very professional discography of music which had been heard by all of my favorite musical artists, the top in their genre. Very famous people. And, eventually I learned, upon discovering a miscellaneous live chatroom, that the actual server had comandeered by expert hackers, and broadcast to my devices, so that the most influential of them had been given God like control in picking and choosing from the previous user database of the previous sites state. And they were all chatting, from dozens of alts, all simultaneously, from a mindfuckingly in-depth and realtime game of musical accounts.
As I learned of these things, and that every person closest to me in my life had literally been purchaded by the original creator of the whole operation, who was a hundred multidollar millionaire. and they had all been used as physically and mentally agonizing torture instruments upon me. I was hurt, my cat had been poisoned while I was at work, people at work had broken my teeth with tampered ice cream, I was nearly hit with vehicles constantly, or my family became nazi -like and all been engageed in a synchronised dehumanization of me, in ways which were lethal to my heart. And eventually I was a broken person.
One of the individuals involved was in a position where they could ease some of my excruciating difficulties... with their team of radical extremists, who utilized explosives and dismemberment to gain power.
Immediately I very eagerly and gratefully accepted and appreciated their help, as the amount of pain and sheer cruelty I was being subject to was absolutely horrible.
Now, after somebody close to the original forum voyeur, who had revealed themselves as a man, and apparently expected me to desire them as a life partner, despite the total display of monstrosity they had been orchestrating, ...... was very seriously injured, so began a hell-like period where the safety and peace which was afforded to me was destroyed by the fbi and police being paid protect and strategically dismantle the extremists' methods of various threats and acts of violence... and i was utterly obliterated by the discomfort and malevolence.the terrorist had also joined in on the excersizes of tyranny and unpleasantness.
They were totally senile in their bastardization and distortion of all my words, actions and self. i was demonized and treated like a subhuman beast who deserved nothing less than a complete exposure to a terrible nightmare come-true, organized on a mass scale by a couple of obscenely hate-filled individuals in the whole world.
Slanderous and disgusting gossip and rumors had been spread among all ofmy artistic voyeurs, the nature of which painted me as a sociopathic,arsonistic dangerous lunatic who allegedly planned to burn my family and their house in their sleep. Someone who had apparently been involved in some way with a very illegal and repugnant endeavour which caused my girlfriend 's mother to commit suicide. Someone who belonged to all things evil.
and s even all of my heroes began, in equally painful ways, to participate in the cruelty operations, by psychologically assaulting me and my vulnerable heart with jeering about my injuries,and humiliation of a startlingly severe nature... after engaging in the livefeed of me, being a giving a loving person by nature, pleasuring myself sexually. something I should lawfully be paid for, and afforded a strict set of rules and rights which protected me.But wasnt
woe is me, yes, i know, i know ok. And yada yada yada
So now,
Even if you dont believe me,please if you can,I would deeply appreciate any and all peoples' input, advice or opinions on what it is of the following options that I should choose.... as I am one hundred percent intellectually befuddles.
0. No, the police cannot help me. As they are usurped and controlled, directly, by the rich and inhumane inital forum member, who had still not even i introduced themselves.... and my tale is orderedto be received with a disregard... and not believed. They are paid to ignore my statements and not take action in my favor.
so
1. Do I attempt to demonstrate messiah - like amounts of forgiveness and be the mate of the first person? Currently, because of chronic pain in my skeleton, I am addicted to heroin and given help in its acquisition by him. But I am also horribly mistreated and harmed by his orders.
2. Do I become the life mate of the homicidal terrorist who helped me with his extremists? Even though i am internally opposed to their foreign and radicalist ways of life and beliefs?
3 Do I mutually plan and execute a marriage with one of the several voyeur celebrities who have a sexual and desirable attitude in their interest? many of them are REALLY awesome people. and now that i have been virtually acquittedfrom the outlandish besmirchment and defamation of the previous years... they are all very loving and emotionally supportive.
4. Do I attempt to forget any and all of them and seek my future where ever I can which does not involve my spies and enemies? To be honest.... Id be lying if I told you there may be a way to effectively escape the mass deployed and retardedly expensive high tech operation. Honestly,
EVERY PERSON IN MY LIFES HISTORY IS COMANDEERED BY ELITIST VOYEURS WHO WATCH MY EVERY MOVE AND KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. MY ENTIRE LIFE IS CONTROLLED BY A MALEVOLENT, CRUEL AND TERRIFYING ULTRA WEALTHY PERSON AND A EXTREMIST TERRORIST ORGANIZATION HEAD... BOTH WANT ME AS THEIR WIFE AND BOTH ARE TOO INSECURE TO SHOW THEMSELVES. EVERY ONE OF MY FAVOURITE NICHE MUSICAL ARTISTS IS AN ACTIVE VOYEUR AND HAS BEEN A SEXUAL ASSAULTER, VERBALLY, AFTER WATCHING VERY PERSONAL SEXUAL ACTIVITIES, LIVE, FROM THOUSANDS OF CAMERAS.
I AM THE VICTIM OF A PERSONAL MOLESTATION OF MINDBLOWINGLY HUGE PROPORTION.
5.Do I........ do a serious serious crime so I can go to prison.... which potentially might end the whole thing. But even then, perhaps it would just continue.
6.Got another idea?
Fuck. I dont know guys. Please help.
