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2020-10-30 at 8:12 PM UTC in Should Grylls user title be changed to "Cum Looking Faggot" ?i slept with him in chicago eight years ago and my mother did later that same night, we had no idea
we talk about it at every family dinner
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2020-10-24 at 3:26 PM UTC in What do you keep your thermostat set on?For some reason my smart thermostat has a random function that fluctuates between anything and whatever, so I’ve chosen that for my day-to-day, but I like it around 62º when company is over to keep them from staying long.
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2020-10-28 at 5:42 PM UTC in what is wrong with me
Originally posted by aldra feel completely detached in any meaningful way to the outside world but I'm not so autistic that I can't function. people generally seem to find me friendly and eloquent enough but without ever making an attempt to really connect.
you should be concerned that we walk through the same neighborhood. better hope for your sake that we’re going to different places.I don't feel that I have a place socially, nor do I feel that human society has a worthwhile future (one that I would be happy to work toward - I know some people like things the way they are, or are happy farming yams and carrying water jugs several kilometers a day).
when you imagine this ‘place’ you should have in society, are there plates & silverware set there for you? more likely, you got stopped at the door. people are left out—it’s not an accident; scars on your consciousness, for the world tried to kill you younger. what you’ve done since is off-script & she’s still trying.I often consider opting out not because life is too hard or painful, but because there's very little I care about and grinding through another 50 years or so just seems pointless because unless I do something very, very bad, I'll leave nothing behind. The only reason I haven't already is probably just because I don't want to hurt the few other people I care about. And my cats.
good, a support system & a nonverbal suicide contract that makes you accountable to them. this is something you can bring up first to show a therapist you mean business if you decide to try therapy, which i highly recommend.I don't want to talk to those people I care about because I'm afraid trying to explain the things that led me to this state of mind could have an extremely negative on their own 'mental health’.
so you don’t just shut out strangers, but you also deprive the people who love you of knowing what you carry; that it’s so bad, it makes you want to die, & you don’t want their help.
you know they have a hole in their lives where your trust belongs? wouldn’t you rather they feel like they have a place in your world?
if you do want to improve things, you must talk to them & they must feel the distress of learning this. it will harm them & you & it will deepen the relationship. if you do want to improve things, this is a necessary risk. you’re vulnerable; act like it.
i realize that’s deeply worrisome & i encourage you to do gradually more things that are worrisome & less to neutralize the worry.I’ll answer whatever questions you have that won't lead to people being able to reach out offline (ie swatting, telling my boss or mother my favourite word is 'nigger' etc.). Or just troll I guess, I don't really care. I haven't been in great shape mentally for the last few weeks, and eating strips of etizolam seems to have made things worse rather than better (surprise)
i’m also in a dark period, can’t afford to make others worse when i need to get better.
in my experience, fun benzos can escalate an already worsening mental health situation, if used in excess.
once this is happening, it keeps happening until it doesn't.
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2020-10-26 at 10:20 PM UTC in You cannot hyde from mefuck that's actually compelling
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2020-10-28 at 4:58 PM UTC in bully the above poster, keep getting worse
Originally posted by infinityshock make a thread 'rape all the posters' and you have a deal, you sniveling nigger cock jockey
this might be ungraciously reductionist but i'd say what activities remain in your life might be characterized as waiting while i rapidly age for someone with better things to do to blackout for my chance to spam cocks & their insinuation all over a private website he hosts for miscreants who've largely grown out of cock spam
you've repurposed your vocabulary to reflect this focus & you've radically narrowed your content for the worse. i suspect you intend to do more of the same & to be more serious, i know you know it's deeply saddening for you & the people who read your posts to learn that this choice is something you've always had as a possibility
any glimmer of pride you feel in that simple gut for what you've put into this is tied to a coefficient with its value doubled in shame & the worst part is probably that you're a gifted person from a better place than you'll never see again & how you distract yourself is by becoming a mild nuisance to a community of mild nuisance
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2020-10-27 at 4:48 PM UTC in bully the above poster, keep getting worseyour small-talk openers consist of displaying a dream that you’ll only ever follow vicariously because you’re incapable of the act. impotence is a polite euphemism for what you suffer, and you're relegated to witnessing foreign ejaculate go wherever it pleases on faces that could belong to you
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2020-10-26 at 9:30 PM UTC in Who Finny really is. I got his Doxenough information that i was able to locate & murder him & make it look like his own doing, expect a bus thread soon
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2020-10-26 at 7:53 PM UTC in Is Grylls the worst poster on this site?nominating best & worst posters suggests we organize ourselves according to some kind of ethic
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2020-10-26 at 9:43 PM UTC in Joe biden is confused who he's running againstfuck off they can hardly fucking walk
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2020-10-26 at 9:54 PM UTC in I feel more depressed than usualdecide what the faces of a die mean & then roll it anytime you feel sorry for yourself, you have to follow the result
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2019-01-11 at 2:22 AM UTC in Describe your first exposure to pornography.I was eight or maybe nine and I still regarded bodily functions as principally comedic rather than as unfortunate biological necessities, and I briefly explored them through a series of prevailing search engines whose narrow scope indexed barely then-censored features of a maturing web landscape. The arrival of Google, in particular, was revolutionary in my transitioning from the vulgar anal stage into a very uncertain phallic future.
Shortly after discovering Google, I performed an image search of the word "shit" and was excited by a number of hits which defied the limits of my understanding of numbers. Among them was a captured still of a naked woman (whose body composition was typical of a porn star, something foreign to me at the time), kneeling on a tile floor in a bathroom, with a large, black, erect penis emerging from either side of the frame cradled in each hand directly next to her anticipating mouth. Finding this presented me with a defining libidinal conflict. I didn't understand what was happening because I'd never encountered bodies arranged this way, which is probably why it intrigued me.
When I did manage to find the source video and watch it, I was at once seized upon by the startling fact of fellatio. It had no reproductive purpose, but it was apparently desirable. I didn't understand why a woman would want to do it (though we all learn eventually that they really don't) but the one in the video seemed delighted by the privilege of two negro men flooding her hair and eyes with ejaculate. More perplexing still was the arousal: I knew implicitly that the response followed the stimuli, but I couldn't fathom how or why. I had to get to the truth of the matter.
Following this event, I spent several years consuming pornography of every available sort, intent on finding new pleasures to fixate upon, before learning how to masturbate from a boy at school at an appropriate crossroad. I've since come to identify the lower halves of these black men and the eager white woman between them as erotic teachers because they were the first people outside of my family who instructed me on the subject of my emerging sexuality, something which quickly became a project of secret worship at the altar of my virtual body.
For better or for worse, my sexual development was from its first self-aware moment sharply divergent from that of my forefathers. I suspect my experience has become very typical, although my path since hasn't been.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-10-22 at 5:29 PM UTC in What criteria do you use to determine if a news source is legitimate and unbiased?I don’t trust my sources. Journalists don’t implicitly trust their sources. Why are we in the habit of presuming trust as representing veridicality in the individual’s relationship with media agents and their collective stakes?
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2020-10-17 at 12:02 AM UTC in What day job should I get?Move something from one place to another, literally or figuratively. Do this with lots of things for a while and try getting into management.
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2018-10-26 at 4:08 PM UTC in Halloween costume ideasI had a lot of ideas I thought were really cool for a party I'm going to, but if I'm being honest they're all terrible and what's probably going to happen is I'll dress up as a priest and jokingly marry people who are too drunk but then convince them to fill out a real marriage certificate. I'm ordained through the Universal Life Church online and licensed in my state for this, so it will be legally binding.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-10-08 at 9:41 PM UTC in The Exorcism of Fralala
Originally posted by frala That sounds complicated. Can you elaborate?
He's having a really good day, seems to be paying attention to your body: find an evening activity scheduled late that you could see yourself making time to repeat. Do this in a lot of ways with a lot of different things until he's convinced something is wrong.
I promise, he'll mention it, and that's when you need to be angry. Let him know his presumptions and insolence can't go on; that regret is how he must relate to himself now. You want him apologizing, recommending his own cruelest punishment before you're done reading the charges aloud every night.
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2020-10-08 at 5:05 PM UTC in The Exorcism of FralalaThis won’t go away. You have to start playing sex games. I don’t mean sexual recreation, I mean dysregulating your sex life in a way that causes him to obsess over a resource he has yet to identify. This will completely change the atmosphere of your home, which will hopefully confuse the ghost enough that it leaves you to haunt someone else.
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2020-10-04 at 11:48 PM UTC in Niggasin.space confession booth sponsored by church of trianglismI was involved in Y2K, and I have regrets. I was the deciding vote to abandon the millennium project. I should’ve gone with my original choice.
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2020-09-18 at 4:37 PM UTC in .gay domains
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2020-09-26 at 1:35 PM UTC in Do you let political views....I prefer friends with whom I can disagree on everything.
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2020-09-18 at 4:31 PM UTC in Just smoked some meth and DMT with this cutie and I want her to come backOP, I have come to believe that you should implicitly distrust women who approach you in your home.
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