Srs if I didn't remember my dreams I could have feelings for Daniel rn.
After all this time my subconscious was the enemy.
Now I know I'm gonna get bombarded w more lies tonight and soon I won't know who Sophie is.
Isn't that the scariest fucking thing my brain tries to make me feel better when I'm asleep and reprogram by giving me cute dreams about Daniel. If I didn't remember my dreams I'd probably think my feelings for him were real. How much of my reality is a fucking lie. Remember your dreams people it's the only way to know what's going on.
Scared of the dreams I'll have tonight because ik they'll lie to me and make me feel less. No coincidence I've been completely fine today, I been having dreams telling me lies about Sophie. Will I even be me tomorrow? Freaked me out I was dreaming bout Daniel like how is that consent if I develop feelings for him as a defence mechanism and wouldn't even be aware of it if I didn't remember my dreams?
Craving hash now bcus it made a cream bun feel like an explosion, all the furniture colours come alive, focusing on every part of a song at the same time.
2023-04-16 at 12:24 AM UTC
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I could be biased bcus of my BPD ex gf. Maybe Sophie isn't that cruel.
2023-04-16 at 12:18 AM UTC
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I think hunting down the mob is a good idea. Quote floating round my head is it's easier to become a legend when people don't know how human you are. I don't think Sophie would want us to know him as anything else than we know him as here. But the mob may be easier to track down and they may have killed him. It's either that or he OD'd. Or he is acc avoiding me and doesn't give a fuck about anyone else here which seems too cruel but isn't off the table given he's BPD.
Haxxor you know it's real pathetic using Mik's pic. Ik you wanna be him but you can't be. Lol. You're really complimenting him.
There it is the speeding car feeling
Jus weird how much tech I've forgotten nd sites that were important to me. My bookmarks bar has been the same since 2016.
2023-04-15 at 11:47 PM UTC
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I'm acc being hypnotised to forget him but will remember him one day.
2023-04-15 at 11:46 PM UTC
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Other option is we make a website in his memory. Somewhere the spastics have no say.
2023-04-15 at 11:45 PM UTC
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If you all keep making this thread about everthing else I will make other Sophie threads. You're being real disrepectful some people here actually miss him.
