I remember him saying she would point out little girls in the street. That isn't normal for women to do unless they're also a pedo.
All the male attention is making me think it would be good for me to move there. No one really hits on me at home though it's true I rarely go outside and don't wear makeup to the shop. Still I think it could be good for me to move somewhere where my pretty privilege is more pronounced, and people expect me to be how I am because they assume it's normal for where I'm from, they don't assume it's autism.
I just went to see if the grass is greener, get to know the place better, and to eat mind-reparing truffles. If I was in a more sociable mood I would have had a lot more fun but I was too overwhelmed and sleep-deprived. It was a change from being at home which is all I wanted, and I will be going back soon. It was a short trip because the last time I left for a few nights Akira ran away.
So the plan is to have a study session today in the library. I'm going to go for a walk before that and to McDonald's. This is what I want to do.
When Mik asked me to marry him for the tax benefits I thought he was just being his cold self, then I saw a post on Reddit and apparently that's normal for Germans.
It makes me think of partners in crime which is what a married couple should be. They should make decisions together.
Myers said he'd meet me today. Idk how much fun I'll be bcus the plan is to go to the library. It's raining and I've already been to the museums.
I hope I find that cat again tomorrow, I don't feel like socialising with people.
There was a street fight at 6am that woke me up and now I'm imagining music but it's really just the city noise and my brain has turned it into an annoying rhythm like always.
I'll die tomorrow if I don't get 10 hours sleep. This is BS being sleep-deprived every day.
Tomorrow the plan is to go to McDonald's, the nice library and if I'm feeling adventurous I'll look for the woods. When I get home I'll have a real vacation, as in one for my mind, another silent retreat, time in nature and life admin.
I'd probably have had a meltdown by now if it wasn't for my Loop earplugs. I feel like Kafka Tamura when he runs away to go live in a library.
Myers didn't get back to me. If he calls round he can have my grey sweatshirt. I'm getting rid of stuff.
I think I'm gonna leave Europe for my next vacation, it always feels like the same.
Some Welsh men asked me if I wanted to go for a drink w them, I said no. Idk why I feel so off and not like talking to anyone.
