has anyone watched the rings of power? should i start watching it or look for something else? i need answers in the next 5 mins
just noticed ive been holding my phone to my ear for some time and not on call. trying to make sense of things.
Drunk. I'm thinking of meeting someone off Fetlife in Utrecht because why not? If you don't hear from me in a month that's where to start looking. I feel like I used to look beautiful but now it's a scary sort of beauty, something Junji Ito, there's nothing wrong but you can't look away, the combination of mismatched dermal fillers, braces, septum piercing, glassy eyes and you can't tell what age. I'll probably nap for a few hours then try to restart the day again.
Ok it's nearly 2pm, drunk already, I just wanted to calm down didn't expect the speeding car feeling so soon. Anyway Ig I'm not going out for exercise today. I have an insane amount of work to do so then I'm not stuck on my laptop everyday in the Netherlands, the more I do now the less I'll have to do next week sighs. My hair feels stronger so that's something. Ig I should think about breakfast soon... It's taken me about four days to watch Blonde on Netflix, got ten mins left, because it's so traumatic. I dislike that it's a horror movie, it should have been a despair movie.
Bradley does need government support to stay in a mental hospital for the rest of his life.
Flying from Dublin to the Netherlands I don't have to do any covid tests etc but if I were to fly from Belfast I would. It doesn't make sense because anyone in the UK can fly from Dublin there's no border.
I'm glad I never got attention from my mum because she smothers you, pushes you too hard to succeed, tries to control you, has your life all planned out. I'm glad she gave up on me.
I've booked one city for a week but don't know where I want to go after that, I want to have a booking somewhere but also freedom and I don't know where is nice to visit. I'm not sure what I want to do either except maybe have my first threesome, visit Victor, a forest, some museums and the gun place.
All I need is a drug lord daddy
Chest feels tight, maybe broken heart syndrome because of Mik
You're living in poverty and the only way out of that is to get a job, but you're better off dead.
I've been studying to take my mind of things, meant to be taking a break now sipping wine but I'm not really taking a break. I'm doing something on the side so I can work remotely and it is something I'm good at but I'm not sure if I want to do it.
Other things on my mind are my brown roots are showing now and I'm scared to get it dyed because my hair is thinning like crazy. I've used up half the Kaminomoto bottle already and only got it the other day.
Wondering how I'm going to cope without Mik, I blocked him and deleted Discord so it's really over. Halloween plans, if I should go to London for it. What I should do tomorrow, go out somewhere and get exercise. Going back to another community, only thing is I get fatigued easily now and use my screen time for studying mostly.
Today felt like I was in Dark Souls or something. The people and air pressure, it's rare when the weather feels okay to me. Normally getting your eyebrows/lashes done takes 15 mins tops but I was in there an hour, she's like a guardian angel, wrapped a blanket round me and told me to go to sleep. Then this little pagan shop for healing crystals. Now I'm a different person from who I was typing the first line because this took so long to type and I've been sipping wine.
