When I got diagnosed with aspergers, I had to see a psychologist who specialised in asd. My mum would come along and just complain about me the whole hour. That was meant to be my therapy time and she took it up, she wasn't meant to be there.
I'm building a case against her, only reason I'm seeing a counsellor. If she tries to interfere with my life again she will be going down.
She also left me for dead, accused me of ruining her life etc.
My mum once told my sister she was dim for having bought a pram, right after she'd had a miscarriage. She also tried to get me sectioned right after my dad died because I was angry. I might write a short story inspired by her.
I wonder what kind of mother VC Andrews had.
Have you seen VC Andrews Ruby? My nerves were a wreck the whole way through.
I want Max Irons to be my daddy
Okay went over my finances, making a bacon sandwich now then will probably get tucked in, get the AI to tell me a bedtime story and listen to hypnosis to stop worrying.
I'm really sick of eating rare steak for the iron.
I just checked and I'm not bleeding. I'll know tomorrow if I'm okay.
Today I finished a course, cooked rare steak, went out to get cigs and groceries, cleaned, had a bath, listened to hypnosis, watched anime, did some research, did a section of a depression program and hung out in an online kawaii cafe. The aim was to do a German lesson, go over finances and study a chapter on something else but I'm feeling overwhelmed. I feel like this every day.
2023-03-05 at 11:29 PM UTC
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Empathy: Do you have it?
My EQ score is 15/80. Mik's was 9. Something I've learned is empathy isn't necessary for a relationship. I don't want it from anyone. I can care about people more than myself though. It just means I can't feel what other people are feeling and I'm not sure if anyone really does, how can you really understand what someone is going through? I am capable of feeling guilt but don't because I know it would destroy me. I think the lack of empathy is a gift because I managed to stay composed when my dad was dying. People take advantage of me and it would be a lot worse if I had empathy. I wouldn't kill someone but I know if I did I'd feel nothing after.
Idk what to do about the bleeding, I won't last another two weeks. I don't want to see a doctor because they'll probably want to do an intimate search and take my blood to test for anaemia.
