2023-04-14 at 5:05 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Honest this happens everywhere, first everyone loves me but I stick to my principles nd don't people please so enemies fast nd it's pathetic. 60% of the population are apaths.
2023-04-14 at 5:02 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
I'm disappointed tbh bcus I thought this was an autistic community, but a whole lot of you are gullible bandwagon types.
2023-04-14 at 4:58 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Usually I leave communities when it gets like this but I'm prob safer here where it won't go viral.
2023-04-14 at 4:57 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Idk why ppl get so obsessed w me like get a personality of your own
Thinking about how easy my life is when I don't even notice I have difficulties until say I'm in chaos London or minding a child. I have never had a meltdown in N.I but did in London. Just shows how peaceful my life is.
Minding my nephew has made me realise I can never raise a child and that makes me sad. I would never be abusive, I remember being a child so I know what things can sting them, I would never hit one. But I've noticed recently that I have little patience and get stressed too easily because of my autism. If I have a child someone else will have to raise it. I also can't talk down to children, I speak to them the same as adults but without inappropriate topics, so I can't be what they need. Ig they do need someone to be on their side and that's me but I can't be a proper parent.
Ppl would fr think I was stalking them just bcus I can quote things they said years ago.
Since I was 20 I've always felt like I've lost myself, not the same person. You could say I died, after 18 you get dumber every year. I hope it's just hypochondria. I noticed recently I can still remember things people said from years ago, but not history or physics facts I should know inside out.
Rain sounds so good. I'm a bit worried about that sleep apnea thing causing cognitive decline, bcus I do have slight nasal valve collapse in one nostril after a nose surgery, I feel like I never take deep breaths and people have noticed that I don't breathe much. I'd be cuddling Cam and he'd think I was dead.
2023-04-14 at 4:22 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Just sad we never could be friends, he never talked about his interests w me, prob bcus of sexism.
2023-04-14 at 4:06 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Still loving words can heal so even though I knew it wasn't real I was fine with it, and I liked him bcus of his knowledge and common interests.
2023-04-14 at 4:02 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Nd his lil attempt to manipulate me meant nothing more than an autistic moment nd I know what love-bombing looks like bcus of my BPD ex gf.
2023-04-14 at 4 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
Fact is I came back from Holland on the 28th, Sophie was still around on the 4th Nov so it wasn't me. Don't start a conspiracy.
Born of revenge, raised on cement, chaos created government
2023-04-14 at 3:30 PM UTC
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Sophie: Where are you?
BTW that's a KMFDM snapback c: