Should I just go over right now?
That's what I'll do, make her come to my door
Bcus if his mum doesn't take me seriously then maybe she will worry that I'll swear at her child or something
I feel like I should approach him first
This chubby brat on an electric go-cart saw me coming and stopped right in front of my driveway where I was about to walk, so I had to walk around him then he started the go-cart again. Should I complain to his mother?
"The time which we have at our disposal every day is elastic; the passions that we feel expand it, those that we inspire contract it; and habit fills up what remains." ― Marcel Proust
It feels like my brain has two modes now. The one where I suppress things and the other one which doesn't exist for long. I feel okay today, ig I always feel cute when I'm starving and there's the control and sense of achievement. I am on the fence about going to another country to meet someone of FL, or going to England to kill myself. Right now I'm just catching up on Python and learning a language in case I do decide to go to events abroad. This weekend I'll hang out with Jade. Rn I'm colouring in but it's really to learn new words of the things I colour.
I've been smoking purple silk cut since I was 16. I quit for two years but now I've found I'm more addicted to it than ever. I will chain smoke a pack a day and can't do that daily or I'll go broke, they're £16.50 now. Anyway purple is the light option so I'm thinking of trying the heavier ones, maybe I will stop chain-smoking them then?
I still don't feel like doing anything. There's stuff I have to do but I just stay in bed, starve myself and wait for the day to end.
Maybe they chose to marry their own souls to feel whole and Jesus is just a symbol of that.
I've always thought nuns were fucked up and still do but I think I understand now why they choose to marry Jesus instead of men. They must really delude themselves to think he's real and he can be perfect that way. I get why they wouldn't want to be with men.
I unfriended Mik today, just on impulse when I woke up. I accidentally reported him too but it means I'll be the one that probably gets banned.
To buy bongs instead of a dolls house for my dressing table
Conflicted because a persona wants to redecorate.
He worked in Spar or something and got me cigarettes from it after it closed when I lost mine in a taxi. That was some effort because he didn't have a car.
There was one guy I went on a date with and he was reluctant to let me sleep over because he had work in the morning, but that's what happened anyway because I was drunk. It was our first time sleeping in the same bed and nothing even happened. I think I did wake him in the middle of the night we were just talking, I couldn't sleep.
