I was thinking of hitting her head with a rock and leaving her in the ocean, and it feels like it's the person I was 10 years ago. Having people from the past around is meant to remind you of who you are.
Ig I feel scared because it isn't over and she said she was diagnosed with BPD
I really believe it was guardian angel intervention that my sister wanted to come along because it showed that Jade wanted us to be alone and my cancelling on her tonight just showed how creepy she's being about it.
I will actually slap her if I ever see her.
It makes me sick none of the family did anything, just sat by watching child abuse.
I heard some disgusting things about my cousin. She's only having children to get government money and told my sister that she'd planned her new baby to be born at this time because her other daughter is turning 18. She sends her kids to a creche from 8am-6pm every day and then they stay with their dad at the weekend. Her daughter moved out when she was 17 to live with her boyfriend because she had to take the kids to school everyday or something and would be late to her own classes as a result, she didn't show up to do her exams and has mental issues now. She lies about having a miscarriage every few months to keep her boyfriend, she doesn't want to go back to her mum. Social services were called about 50 times but they said they couldn't do anything as long as there was food in the fridge, which the mother didn't cook for them it was for herself. I wish my sister would have slapped her. She doesn't want anything to do with the kids and only keeps having them for government money.
I feel like I'm in a horror movie
Idk why I feel scared. I'm just sitting here freaked out.
No this is the third time she's tried to get me to go to the beach in the middle of the night
And it's clear she wants us to be alone.
That's what's freaking me out she wanted to go out in the middle of nowhere middle of the night where there is danger pitch black tide coming in and to get me drunk and stoned and is showing signs she still likes me. But last week she tried to get me to that place in the middle of nowhere as well.
I just have a bad feeling, it's clear Jade wanted us to be alone and I feel like she's suffocating me and I am in danger.
