I found a navy quilted bomber jacket I forgot I had so that's one down.
2023-11-24 at 4:35 PM UTC
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Where to run
If only there was a far-right party that cares about women.
I think Akira is causing me lung problems. She's not on my chest, just my legs but I've noticed it's hard to breathe when she is and it's really hard to move my left hand rn. I've never had mobility problems to this extent before and it happened suddenly. My violin days are over. I watched The Kardashians for the first time today. Idk ig I'm taking a break.
2023-11-24 at 4:02 PM UTC
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Where to run
I can't be safe under a rock in the countryside forever.
2023-11-24 at 3:58 PM UTC
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Where to run
I'm planning to move to a different country within the next five years because the UK is getting scary. I am having motor control problems typing this. I wouldn't live in Britain at this point and their policies don't usually get to us until a few years later. Gender equality is the priority for where to move. I won't actually visit Auschwitz because of the anti-abortion laws in Poland. Netherlands is now struck off the list. The backup was Sweden but I'm not sure if it's still safe for women there.
I don't get why ugly duckling politicians don't do something about their appears, they have the money. Maybe the tories really aren't human.
I need some winter coats and am stuck being a perfectionist. There's thousands to view. So I need:
Something grey or black for when I go to the shop looking like death making no effort.
Something elegant, maybe fur trim.
Something innocent and woolen, fitted. This is because the vintage look I'm after above will make me look older.
Something for going out at night. I'm not sure if it should be a fur thing or a trench coat.
2023-11-23 at 2:18 PM UTC
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Cyclizine
I got it for motion sickness. I throw up most times I go to the city but it may be information overload or OCD. The city is dirty and I notice small things.
2023-11-23 at 1:39 PM UTC
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Cyclizine
I've been prescribed this, 42 50mg tabs and am seeing something about hallucinations being an effect. I don't know anything about this drug so if anyone has advice lemme know. I just took the first one.
In a city orphanage. All the children were wearing grey. The building was art deco but plain now, we went up to the library, I wanted to get photos of it. The beige blinds opened to look out on a public park. I suddenly had breathing problems and had to leave, outside I noticed the orphanage was concealed by trees. I went to sit down in the park but found I'd walked a long way, there was a cricket match on, sat down next to an old friend. Skip to white building, terrorist group, someone trusted the wrong person and my beloved had his legs blown off but I still loved him. Skip to the decaying 1940s cottage. I was looking for my dad there. I had taken someone with me, told them about the lane.
There's this necklace I want but I kind of know I won't wear it. I've bought expensive jediellery before that I wanted for months and never wore it. jediellery is uncomfortable for me.
2023-11-20 at 7:06 PM UTC
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Codeine is shit
It always makes me throw up, I don't feel good from it.
I'm getting dermal fillers next week but it isn't to correct anything specific it's to reshape my face. I'm just gonna tell them to inject it where they think I need it.
My mum said I shouldn't have a baby because I'm like a serial killer and I believed her, but now I'm wondering because I've been so motherly toward Akira. I've had her almost 2 months and haven't cracked up once, even when she peed on the carpet.
I think Akira is making me more productive. She wakes me up around 4am so I ended up getting most things done by 10am. She's glued to me all the time, won't sleep in her own room anymore, so when I'm at my desk and she's on my lap I stay there longer so as not to upset her.
Ln I had a bad dream that Jade molested me. She's meant to move to Spain next month so maybe I'm worried she'll try to reach out before then? I still have an icky feeling about it. Just now at the shop buying my usual the incel tried talking to me again. I got a new phone number so idk if he was trying to text me or what the meaning of it is. Idk how I manage to draw people into my life when I make 0 effort and am a robot inside.
2023-11-17 at 3:50 PM UTC
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Freestyle thread
Tim Burton wrote this book of twisted short stories and I think I could do that too, he isn't a real writer. I just remember in hs the emo girl in my class read one of them and said I had to get it published. If one emo reacts like that there has to be others.
