2016-10-06 at 12:44 PM UTC
Imagine if a country put Marx on their highest denomination bill. I tried googling to see if this has ever occurred, but the search results are too muddied.
2016-10-07 at 2:03 AM UTC
Malice, why the fuck would you skip showering or doing dishes for a MONTH if you literally sit around your house all day and do nothing but read shit on the internet? Being clean and orderly does a lot to help your depression.
You always seemed fairly functional and intelligent despite your autistic side, now you're hoarding bags of garbage in your kitchen and willingly living in a bug, maggot infested house just to avoid a potential five minutes of human interaction. Dont you feel fucking gross not showering? Even if you aren't active and dont sweat much you still accumulate filth over time.
Do you have to move the fucking maggots to the side when you rinse your balls in their sink with a pitcher? I bet if you didn't have a bidet you wouldn't wipe when you shit due to the effort involved.
No wonder you talk down to everyone here; its the only coping mechanism your brain can come up with in an effort to numb the pain of your own rapidly deteriorating life.
Kill yourself or get some real help. You would tell me the same rotten thing.
2016-10-07 at 8:10 AM UTC
That's how he shows he cares. ^_^
Honestly, I readily grasped that and now it provided a mood boost.
BTW, did you ever have ECT done?
PoC, my depression is considerably better than it was before, but regardless, my ability to function has progressively deteriorated over the years. I was never exaggerating about my life like most people likely do, particularly online. This...does things to you, worst than nearly anything else you can realistically face, other than prolonged abuse. Also developed agoraphobia. I always disliked the outside world, but now it's on a much stronger level.
Woke up today just feeling afraid of what it means to be human, which is a terrifying thing. The most incredible feeling of alienation, I feel like I've irreversibly changed so that I'll never be capable of not being alone, seen existence in a light that cannot be unseen.
It brings to mind a theme in a Talmudic tale in which four rabbis are brought into the presence of God. One becomes a heretic, one goes mad, one falls dead and one returns home with his faith affirmed.
We all exist in the same objective reality, but are interpreting it differently. Physiological differences which alter our sensory input, neurological and endocrine bearing the bulk of our predispositions, mental habits and profile (relative strengths). Pure logic and reason is the true tongue of existence, being able to transcend boundaries even unto machine and hold eternal life. Eventually a nanobot mediated neo-cortex-cloud interface augmented by pharmacological variation will allow Lanny to tap directly into the machine, and what comes next will be...well, we've all read our sci-fi. What lies beyond AGI? True freedom.
2016-10-07 at 8:22 AM UTC
Also, I wanted some real help, some sort of intensive inpatient program, but there isn't really anything available and psychologists and psychiatrists are useless/worthless, I'm never bothering with them again.
If we had something like Hikikomori University in Japan, I would attend it. If I ever go out I hope I take out my hatred on society and become the greatest individual mass murderer of all time.
2016-10-07 at 2:47 PM UTC
"Man who tries to climb tallest mountain will never be as high as I am". - Confucius
Original content. Cannabis jokes are so numerous it must rare indeed to come across an analogy for how high you are as fine as this. *crosses arms, closes eyes, and nods* hmm
2016-10-07 at 3:35 PM UTC
Who else is waiting for the day that they wake up in the morning and Malice has gone on a mass killing spree
2016-10-07 at 4:21 PM UTC
Ah, I could see myself in a very large crowded mall during the holiday season, full Christmas theme, parents and their children, couples, shopping together, then this song comes on and I open fire with a rifle modified to be fully automatic and an enormous modified drum making it as close as feasible to the mounted/stationary machineguns used in war. red dot sight being standard for ensuring fast, simple, and accurate aim at those distances, the largest grin on my face, literally waltzing to the tune as I extinguish a countless number of lives, and at the end ANNM, similar to ANFO and the substance McVeigh used in the OKC bombing, + shrapnel based explosives detonate in conjunction with a lingering aerosolized or gaseous substance near the entrance to take care of the panicked crowd who attempts to escape and will not avoid it, especially if masked by smoke, the technique being referred to as "lambs to the slaughter".
2016-10-07 at 4:39 PM UTC
Malice, you'd be too fucking anxious to make the walk/public transport to your target area for it to even happen. You would have a panic attack from having to see another human life form through the scope of the weapon.
How the fuck you gonna get a drum mag automatic weapon to the mall in the first place when you cant drive and dont have any friends to give you a ride?
2016-10-07 at 8:59 PM UTC
Oh hey, fleet week, the time of year when everyone in the bay area rushes to my favorite part of the city to shit it up and dipshits in airplanes burn a bunch of fossil fuel to accomplish nothing.
My first reaction was "fuck these faggots, slowing down transit and making all this fucking noise while I try to work" but then I realized there are humans enjoying themselves I guess, I'm sure one or more desk jocks took the day off to spend some time with their kids or something. It may be stupid and thoroughly unpleasant to me but it's probably a highlight for someone else and there's some kind of vicarious satisfaction to be found in that. Maybe it isn't so bad.
2016-10-07 at 9:21 PM UTC
Lol @ turning shore leave into an event.
2016-10-07 at 11:32 PM UTC
wat city r u on i woll celebrate ur toste bday with u
2016-10-07 at 11:48 PM UTC
Peterborough lad, home of the Muslims
2016-10-08 at 12:32 AM UTC
bring a q odf kush an i bring a 4 strip nd a half gram of ice grade to split
