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2017-08-01 at 1:16 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Nants ingonyama bagithi baba (there comes a lion)
Sithi uhhmm ingonyama (oh yes, it's a lion)
Nants ingonyama bagithi baba (there comes a lion)
Sithi uhhmm ingonyama (oh yes, it's a lion)
Ingonyama
Siyo nqoba (we're going to conquer)
Ingonyama
Ingonyama nengw' enamabaal (it's a lion and a tiger)
[repeats 5]
Ingonyama nengw' enamabala (se-to-kwa!)
Ingonyama nengw' enamabala (asana)
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2017-08-01 at 2:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack I'm going to get ECT, fuck this bullshit. I'm barely functional at this point.
Fuck yeah you should.
I asked you before, but I don't recall if you answered. You stated you were approved for it quite a while ago, why didn't you ever get it?
ECT is a great choice. Hold out, there are some extreme promising drugs and treatments that may be out within a few years. Oh, yeah, I completely understand what it's like to be at the brink of suicide, near the maximum level of depression for years with severe issues that have been building up over a lifetime. Being told to hold out for years is like being told to put up with torture most waking hours for years. Then there's how it warps your mind, you don't even see a reason to live, want to, and can come up with countless reasons for why it's hopeless and meaningless/pointless anyway.
Transcranial magnetic stimulation may/will probably be covered by most insurance, eventually.
Did you ever buy NSI-189? The freebase version is great and works fast. It was powerful enough on its own to prevent the severe SAD I regularly experienced, which was horrific because I was already near the max level of depression at my baseline to begin with, so it caused a double dip effect where I completely lost all energy and drive and pretty just hibernated for 4+ months depressed as fuck. It's what caused me to stop lifting weights multiple times. NSI is especially powerful if you combine it with jogging or HIIT, just 20 minutes of good effort works great. Suck it up and do it, you'll see what I'm talking about. You can't miss the after effect. The exercise on its own already provides a substantial boost to mood and cognition, but of course you won't (I don't mean this as an insult, I mean I completely understand because I sure as hell didn't either, just being trapped in bed all day.) do it when at that level of depression. The thing is, it rapidly alleviates it so fast, begins to alter you so keep craving the effect, it can become almost addictive, makes it immeasurably easier to make it into a habit and keep improving. -
2017-08-01 at 2:36 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 2:56 AM UTCEdit: Fuck off Captain Falcon, I'm not putting this and spoilers and no one gives a shit about your idiotic TL;DR posts, as well as your worthless opinions. Stop belittling me when I genuinely have noble intentions, this has nothing to do with ego glorification, attempting to portray an unrealistically positive image of myself to impress others.
What the hell? This is all that's required for a neuroscience degree? I had the impression that it would be among the most difficult majors: http://www.neuroscience.pitt.edu/programs/undergraduate/degree-requirements.php
By this point I've literally spent 1,000+ hours reading about neuroscience, pouring over countless papers. That's not even an exaggeration, 1000/780 (2 years) = a mere 1.3 hours per day. That's nothing to me with the way I autistically hyper-obsess. There's also the aspect of my highly abnormal reading speed and memory.
The brain is a system, arguably the most complex we've found. Hyper-systemizing is a well established aspect of Asperger's and I'm at the extreme right tail end of a group that's already at the extreme right tail end of the general population to begin with. It's impossible to provide a concise explanation of how my mind functions and why, the process that has been occurring over a lifetime, particularly the last 15 years, to reach this point. I came to understand the fundamentals of life, the interconnection of countless subjects, information, how things stem from each other, and now I can see the countless underlying patterns that permeate everything I value.
There are countless mysteries, problems to solve. Considerably different from philosophy, in a manner, we haven't come close to a full understanding, to the point where it becomes excruciatingly difficult to develop new advancements, novel theories and findings. There are constantly new possibilities that can be uncovered, so many immensely valuable problems to solve.
Along with that, of course prospects for a career, income, would be far more promising. Despite my unbelievably low needs and expenditures, I do need money. I'll readily admit I'm somewhat terrible with money, in the following sense, because I value it so little relative to others and neglect it to pursue my extremely obsessive interests. I simply have, have had, so much more time than the average person to pursue multiple fields. Money does have immense value and potential, of course. At the very least I could pile it into a low fee index fund and easily manage to rapidly reach the point where I've attained lifelong financial independence, extremely early semi-retirement, where I'll never have to work again solely or primarily for the money.
What I'm planning to do is to put serious effort into writing my magnum opus on a general theory/explanation of the neurology of autism over the next two years, or however long it takes to fully refine, and see where it gets me.
I know for certain it's going to end up being ridiculously long. This is going to take an immense amount of effort and time to properly write. At the very least my memory allows me to remember every single reference/paper I'll need, my exceptional talent for working with information, finding exactly what I need, the highest quality sources, and analyzing it. I'm just going to have to consistently devote some of my free time to fleshing it out bit by bit.
Fuck some 2-FMA would be fucking fantastic for this. Lanny, please! If you ever decide to get more, locate a good source, buy extra and split it with me so I can get it at a lower cost! I'm sorry for everything I did, my response to anything negative, when my feelings get hurt or pride injured, can just be completely out of control and it's only damaged myself by making me suffer, become absolutely miserable, and completely isolate myself for so long. I can come to a convenient location for you, of course we don't even have to meet, you can just tape it to the underside of something, find a simple stash spot to leave it in outside. Of course I would never have actually gone through with any threats, I never have and I'm all talk, just like nearly all people on the internet, especially hardcore extremely isolated autists with profound anxiety problems, genuine agoraphobia and anthropophobia, the inability to follow through with anything that requires serious effort or risk! You know how pathetic I am. This is important, you said you were rooting for me, right? And this isn't even a selfish desire at all, in the conventional sense, it's about the pursuit of knowledge and if I actually manage to contribute something to the field of science, some time far in the future, realistically, stemming from my extreme specialization, understanding of (I am a bonafide aspie and my understanding of myself, my own life, what led to everything, has provided me with immensely valuable insights.), autism, think of how incredible that would be, how much suffering could be eased, even potentially paving the way for insights into extraordinary human ability and general intelligence!
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2017-08-01 at 2:58 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 3:14 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 3:14 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 3:16 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 3:36 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Edit: Fuck off Captain Falcon, I'm not putting this and spoilers and no one gives a shit about your idiotic TL;DR posts, as well as your worthless opinions. Stop belittling me when I genuinely have noble intentions, this has nothing to do with ego glorification, attempting to portray an unrealistically positive image of myself to impress others.
What the hell? This is all that's required for a neuroscience degree? I had the impression that it would be among the most difficult majors: http://www.neuroscience.pitt.edu/programs/undergraduate/degree-requirements.php
By this point I've literally spent 1,000+ hours reading about neuroscience, pouring over countless papers. That's not even an exaggeration, 1000/780 (2 years) = a mere 1.3 hours per day. That's nothing to me with the way I autistically hyper-obsess. There's also the aspect of my highly abnormal reading speed and memory.
The brain is a system, arguably the most complex we've found. Hyper-systemizing is a well established aspect of Asperger's and I'm at the extreme right tail end of a group that's already at the extreme right tail end of the general population to begin with. It's impossible to provide a concise explanation of how my mind functions and why, the process that has been occurring over a lifetime, particularly the last 15 years, to reach this point. I came to understand the fundamentals of life, the interconnection of countless subjects, information, how things stem from each other, and now I can see the countless underlying patterns that permeate everything I value.
There are countless mysteries, problems to solve. Considerably different from philosophy, in a manner, we haven't come close to a full understanding, to the point where it becomes excruciatingly difficult to develop new advancements, novel theories and findings. There are constantly new possibilities that can be uncovered, so many immensely valuable problems to solve.
Along with that, of course prospects for a career, income, would be far more promising. Despite my unbelievably low needs and expenditures, I do need money. I'll readily admit I'm somewhat terrible with money, in the following sense, because I value it so little relative to others and neglect it to pursue my extremely obsessive interests. I simply have, have had, so much more time than the average person to pursue multiple fields. Money does have immense value and potential, of course. At the very least I could pile it into a low fee index fund and easily manage to rapidly reach the point where I've attained lifelong financial independence, extremely early semi-retirement, where I'll never have to work again solely or primarily for the money.
What I'm planning to do is to put serious effort into writing my magnum opus on a general theory/explanation of the neurology of autism over the next two years, or however long it takes to fully refine, and see where it gets me.
I know for certain it's going to end up being ridiculously long. This is going to take an immense amount of effort and time to properly write. At the very least my memory allows me to remember every single reference/paper I'll need, my exceptional talent for working with information, finding exactly what I need, the highest quality sources, and analyzing it. I'm just going to have to consistently devote some of my free time to fleshing it out bit by bit.
Fuck some 2-FMA would be fucking fantastic for this. Lanny, please! If you ever decide to get more, locate a good source, buy extra and split it with me so I can get it at a lower cost! I'm sorry for everything I did, my response to anything negative, when my feelings get hurt or pride injured, can just be completely out of control and it's only damaged myself by making me suffer, become absolutely miserable, and completely isolate myself for so long. I can come to a convenient location for you, of course we don't even have to meet, you can just tape it to the underside of something, find a simple stash spot to leave it in outside. Of course I would never have actually gone through with any threats, I never have and I'm all talk, just like nearly all people on the internet, especially hardcore extremely isolated autists with profound anxiety problems, genuine agoraphobia and anthropophobia, the inability to follow through with anything that requires serious effort or risk! You know how pathetic I am. This is important, you said you were rooting for me, right? And this isn't even a selfish desire at all, in the conventional sense, it's about the pursuit of knowledge and if I actually manage to contribute something to the field of science, some time far in the future, realistically, stemming from my extreme specialization, understanding of (I am a bonafide aspie and my understanding of myself, my own life, what led to everything, has provided me with immensely valuable insights.), autism, think of how incredible that would be, how much suffering could be eased, even potentially paving the way for insights into extraordinary human ability and general intelligence!
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-08-01T02:58:57.681199+00:00
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2017-08-01 at 3:39 AM UTCMalice, if you can get a legit degree in neuroscience, I will literally reimburse you for your entire college education.
This is not a joke.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-01 at 3:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ What's with reddit anyway? I remember when I first joined zoklet I had a good handful of people tell me 'dude you'd love reddit, you'd fit right in you should tottally get into it.' I never did. Should I have? Would I have fit in???????????? Fucking REDDIT. PFfft. Too much traffic if you ask me. I aint into that shit familia. Trying to talk to 3000 people at once isn't my thing.
TFW you expose yourself as a closet Hispanic -
2017-08-01 at 3:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER How do I make a forlorn/angry/betrayed watery eye emoji? Which one is that one?
https://niggasin.space/smiley-refrence
This is the closest one, it kind of looks like what you're on track to look like anyway:
Look, I even made some friends. I've been gaining their trust since earlier this year when I first spotted them. Ash seems to be a stray/neighborhood cat, likely had a home earlier in her life, and she also has her ear clipped, which is a sign that a stray/feral cat has been spayed or neutered. Bella seems to be semi-feal based on her temperament, not nearly as socialized, although she likely had a home at one point, but has been homeless too long and won't let me touch/pet her. Little Guy is her daughter and was never socialized during the critical period, so she's even more adverse to people, fully feral, although I've gained her trust enough that she feels comfortable coming inside to eat and me being within 5 feet of her, even closer if she's calm and I use the proper technique to not frighten her.
Ash today, in the kitchen cupboard above the counter. She likes to spend most of her time in here, even multiple days, now:
Pretty momma Bella. Look at those blue eyes, that fur, and the variegated fluffy tail (Looks super fluffy when she's standing up and it's pointed upward):
Little Guy (Thought it was a boy for a while because of course I couldn't check and she had an aggressive looking face, seemed very tough, and did act the part as well.):
It feels really nice to finally have some company. Cats are by far the animals I feel the most affinity toward, particularly strays and ferals. They're like me in many ways. They come by daily and tend to hang around out in front.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-01 at 4:21 AM UTCI take exception to that. The rest of my body may be blubbery, but I have a hell of a jawline. The cat that was feral a couple years ago now lives in my house and is a complete asshole at 5am every morning.
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2017-08-01 at 4:45 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 4:47 AM UTC
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2017-08-01 at 4:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra *how difficult do you think it would be for malice to get a degree that isn't online
Well, he's clearly obsessed. I don't really know enough about neuroscience and don't really read his long posts about it most the time but I don't doubt that if he tried he could do it. Unless he's just blatantly wrong and arrogant about it. But I've seen people who aren't really very intelligent at all get degrees just from being slightly self disciplined. I wouldn't be surprised either way. -
2017-08-01 at 4:50 AM UTClol im retarded
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2017-08-01 at 4:52 AM UTChaha yeah, I agree with you, in terms of background knowledge he'd probably do fairly well...
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2017-08-01 at 4:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by greenplastic how difficult do you think it is to get a degree breh
Not that difficult. But I can guarantee Malice won't be able to do it.
Originally posted by greenplastic Well, he's clearly obsessed. I don't really know enough about neuroscience and don't really read his long posts about it most the time but I don't doubt that if he tried he could do it. Unless he's just blatantly wrong and arrogant about it. But I've seen people who aren't really very intelligent at all get degrees just from being slightly self disciplined. I wouldn't be surprised either way.
https://psychcentral.com/encyclopedia/delusion-of-grandeur/
Malice is not "genius" obsessed. Malice is "I'm a genius" obsessed. -
2017-08-01 at 4:54 AM UTC
