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2017-07-18 at 11:48 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-18 at 11:59 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I wish. I wanna do that with PoC sometime soon, hopefully.
MDMA therapy with you is probably the most positive thing PoC could experience. It's a life changing event for many people if done properly, with the right person or people.
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 in five days you will be posting about how depressed you are just like malice goes through his manic cycles
youre talking about a guy who brags about destroying people. Treating people like shit overpowers "good souls" I mean hitler loved dogs
Hitler is actually one of my role models. Even if you disagree with him, you can't deny he was one of the greatest men in history. I've also come across some fascinating information about what he was like in his earlier life, the social aspect of his being.
Also, I don't really go through manic cycles. I've never been close to being manic. I'm either mildly depressed or severely depressed. If I do have cycles, which seems to be the case, they're cycles where my depression worsens and I lose the ability to function, even skipping eating for up to 3 days (Actually my third day fasting now, although the cycle ended yesterday. Purposefully done.) and showers for longer than that.
I'm completely serious, what you perceive as manic is simply somewhat above baseline, I'm really not particularly happy or energetic. Hmm, well, actually, looking at the symptoms I'm not particularly elated and I never experience euphoria and my physical energy is still low, although there's certainly a rise in cognitive energy.
The lack of euphoria and physical energy could be explained by the severity and length of my depression, how extreme(ly unnatural) and unhealthy my lifestyle is (Complete lack of social relationships or interaction.), along with some aspects of aspergers, the very low emotionality and possibly physical energy levels, the problems caused by low muscle tone such as endurance and fatigue.
So, utilizing a 1-10 point system to illustrate this, if I'm naturally at a 1 on certain symptoms of mania, primarily mood and physical energy, and mania raises it by 5, I'm only at a 6 whereas a normal person, whose baseline is at 5, is pushed to the maximum level where the symptoms are undeniable.
I actually recall reading recently that among teens (possibly at age 17) those classified as gifted (Me.) were found to have somewhere around a 4x risk of having or developing bipolar disorder relative to the general population. It may also be greatly overrepresented, have a high comorbidity, among those with ASD.
I never thought of this before! I may actually be mildly bipolar. This would perfectly explain the cycles I've repeatedly gone through. Well, shit, that's just another major thing that may be wrong with me. At least it's only mild and I already know how to treat it due my knowledge of psychiatric disorders, neurology, and pharmacology.
There's actually a strong correlation between high intellectual or artistic achievement and bipolar disorder. Of course it's during the manic phases that positive development, production, occurs.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-19 at 12:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I watched, literally, like Gilgamesh, my friend, my child, my soulmate rot in front of me for 3 days before we could bury him.
*blah blah blah, snipped to eliminate page stretch*
So boo hoo, you've lost some pets. That sucks, sure, (I've loved my doggos) but it doesn't make you a fucking holocaust survivor. At the end of the day, THEY'RE ANIMALS. Learn to handle letting them go.
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2017-07-19 at 12:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I literally watched Gilgamesh, my friend, my husband, my soulmate rot in front of me for 3 days before we were allowed to bury him. I've held innocent children in my arms as they passed away suddenly, and sometimes not so suddenly… From the time I was 4 years old, my family took in a girl who was having seizures. I learned to hold her and protect her head, to protect her when an episode came because no one else would. I'd wrap myself around her and lay on the ground with her until she came out of it. That was all I could do since we couldn't afford any medication.
I've had the sorrow of going out to spend time with my father, haunted by the "Know" that the soldiers were coming for him, but not understanding why. The horror I experienced when I found out I was right… I didn't even get there in time to say goodbye; the whole thing was surreal. Just a few hours after starting out I arived to find his body still warm in the sun, but stiffening up, dead.
I've come home to a dear friend ripped to pieces by coyotes making their way to the border. They were the most ruthless of all and took everything that we had. I've had to do mercy killings for those I've loved because of them, I've had to pull that trigger, once even slitting a throat.
I haven't been through war, but I sure have experienced something close to it as far as watching those around me I love die, having to kill them out of love and mercy, having to watch their carcasses mock me… Probably why I do have PTSD, and a lot of fucked up shit in my head.
I've witnessed a lot of awful things in my life, but I've also witnessed a lot of beautiful things too…
Hah, it was a wonderful thing to talk and spend that last night under a full moon with Gil. It gives me comfort to know one day I'll find him again… and while he's far, we're all connected in life, which bridges the gap, making us a lot closer… making us still be able to give and receive love to one another… I feel him sometimes, as I do others I've loved. The other night I was hallucinating heard my brother who was executed on my birthday this year… I heard his laugh… I smelled him fill the room…. I accept that I'm probably just crazy, but sometimes I really can feel a spirit of someone I love coming to comfort me when shit is bad…
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2017-07-19 at 12:41 AM UTCI've been reading and occasionally posting for 9 hours straight now. Why do I do this to myself? I genuinely inadvertently skipped the nap I had planned.
I am the God of information. My domain is books and the internet, the data stream.
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 malice is god
Discount, we are all nerds/intellectuals (or at least we wish we were...), have you ever thought about adopting me into your family as a sort of amalgam of a son, younger brother, and aspie sex toy/partner?
It wouldn't have the highly distasteful qualities of infantilism or whatever it's referred to for later ages, and the power imbalance, the lack of reciprocation/mutual benefit.
Yet, due to literally being autistic I am amazingly socially and emotionally retarded, have an unimaginable lack of actual experience. Had an incredibly asymmetrical development. Why would this be a positive aspect? Because it would allow you have the highly fulfilling and enjoyable role akin to a father figure. Think of it. It would be like the teenage phase, where they can actually understand you to a far higher degree and understand more about the world, about life, have developed better aspects of themselves, yet without the negative aspects teenagers generally possess. I would be learning about much of life, experiencing much of the world, the world of people, relationships, for the first time in my life. You already have two daughters and are done with having children, this will give you the experience of a son you will never otherwise have. Do you want to live your life never having known that? Regretting it during your final moments. Picture yourself, surrounded by family, and as you begin to fade a spectre of myself appears alongside the others, with the expression of a boy who wishes he had met the father he had never had. And as a single tear falls across your face from your left eye you realize, "He was the son I never had, I could have had..." Don't let your final moment be filled with regret.
And of course your wife could teach me...whatever mothers do to teenage boys. The world of women is quite strange and foreboding, unknown to me. Ah! *pounds closed fist of right hand on upward facing open palm of left* About love, women, relationships! Yes, of course you are aware of my absolute lack of experience with the other gender, never so much as having held hands, due to...very unusual ideas about life. I have stated I am willing to give it a chance, to see if there is something worthwhile in the experience.
The son aspect would not be disingenuous due to me being an aspie and being absolutely horrible at taking care of myself. I really do need someone to look after me, particularly during what may be depressive cycles. Throughout time many a great man has been enabled by a great woman behind him, supported by her through his arduous life.
And of course there are the endearing highly idiosyncratic and unique aspie qualities. Simply behold! Whether for good or bad can anyone deny I am not a once in a lifetime character? There are countless aspects of this, from the unexpected childlike qualities, the affinity and love for animals, to the wide variety of quirks and oddities you will notice. I am like a different species. Imagine the novelty. Are you not bored of having experienced nothing but standard human beings all your life? Do not allow the stereotypes and stigmas to prejudice your views, those of us possessing high IQs may be aliens on your planet, but we can also be the most bizarre, memorable, unique, and enthralling people you will ever meet.
And of course you would have the experience of a genuine virgin, yet not naive, lacking the negative aspects, who you can teach everything about love to. Mold into your perfect sexual being. I assure you I am capable of the highest quality performance
Afterward we could all sit around and discuss intellectual matters, the things that are truly important to use, and be fully open, without shame or judgement. Nothing is off limits. Your heart and minds will have the satisfaction that is not met by ordinary people and relationships. Then we could view anime, or whatever it is your hobbies and interests are.
I am 100% serious about this. I honestly want you to have your wife read this post, then you can tell me her thoughts on the matter. Of course it will require her approval as well. -
2017-07-19 at 12:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I've been reading and occasionally posting for 9 hours straight now. Why do I do this to myself? I genuinely inadvertently skipped the nap I had planned.
I am the God of information. My domain is books and the internet, the data stream.
Discount, we are all nerds/intellectuals (or at least we wish we were…), have you ever thought about adopting me into your family as a sort of amalgam of a son, younger brother, and aspie sex toy/partner?
It wouldn't have the highly distasteful qualities of infantilism or whatever it's referred to for later ages, and the power imbalance, the lack of reciprocation/mutual benefit.
Yet, due to literally being autistic I am amazingly socially and emotionally retarded, have an unimaginable lack of actual experience. Had an incredibly asymmetrical development. Why would this be a positive aspect? Because it would allow you have the highly fulfilling and enjoyable role akin to a father figure. Think of it. It would be like the teenage phase, where they can actually understand you to a far higher degree and understand more about the world, about life, have developed better aspects of themselves, yet without the negative aspects teenagers generally possess. I would be learning about much of life, experiencing much of the world, the world of people, relationships, for the first time in my life. You already have two daughters and are done with having children, this will give you the experience of a son you will never otherwise have. Do you want to live your life never having known that? Regretting it during your final moments. Picture yourself, surrounded by family, and as you begin to fade a spectre of myself appears alongside the others, with the expression of a boy who wishes he had met the father he had never had. And as a single tear falls across your face from your left eye you realize, "He was the son I never had, I could have had…" Don't let your final moment be filled with regret.
And of course your wife could teach me…whatever mothers do to teenage boys. The world of women is quite strange and foreboding, unknown to me. Ah! *pounds closed fist of right hand on upward facing open palm of left* About love, women, relationships! Yes, of course you are aware of my absolute lack of experience with the other gender, never so much as having held hands, due to…very unusual ideas about life. I have stated I am willing to give it a chance, to see if there is something worthwhile in the experience.
The son aspect would not be disingenuous due to me being an aspie and being absolutely horrible at taking care of myself. I really do need someone to look after me, particularly during what may be depressive cycles. Throughout time many a great man has been enabled by a great woman behind him, supported by her through his arduous life.
And of course there are the endearing highly idiosyncratic and unique aspie qualities. Simply behold! Whether for good or bad can anyone deny I am not a once in a lifetime character? There are countless aspects of this, from the unexpected childlike qualities, the affinity and love for animals, to the wide variety of quirks and oddities you will notice. I am like a different species. Imagine the novelty. Are you not bored of having experienced nothing but standard human beings all your life? Do not allow the stereotypes and stigmas to prejudice your views, those of us possessing high IQs may be aliens on your planet, but we can also be the most bizarre, memorable, unique, and enthralling people you will ever meet.
And of course you would have the experience of a genuine virgin, yet not naive, lacking the negative aspects, who you can teach everything about love to. Mold into your perfect sexual being. I assure you I am capable of the highest quality performance
Afterward we could all sit around and discuss intellectual matters, the things that are truly important to use, and be fully open, without shame or judgement. Nothing is off limits. Your heart and minds will have the satisfaction that is not met by ordinary people and relationships. Then we could view anime, or whatever it is your hobbies and interests are.
I am 100% serious about this. I honestly want you to have your wife read this post, then you can tell me her thoughts on the matter. Of course it will require her approval as well.
Seems very unappealing tbh fam. -
2017-07-19 at 12:45 AM UTCThey are swingers who regularly swap partners and have group sex. Everyone has different tastes, Sophie. As a pedophile, you should certainly understand.
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2017-07-19 at 12:46 AM UTCNo, Sophie, you're supposed to say 'didn't read'.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-19 at 12:51 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice MDMA therapy with you is probably the most positive thing PoC could experience. It's a life changing event for many people if done properly, with the right person or people.
Hitler is actually one of my role models. Even if you disagree with him, you can't deny he was one of the greatest men in history. I've also come across some fascinating information about what he was like in his earlier life, the social aspect of his being.
Also, I don't really go through manic cycles. I've never been close to being manic. I'm either mildly depressed or severely depressed. If I do have cycles, which seems to be the case, they're cycles where my depression worsens and I lose the ability to function, even skipping eating for up to 3 days (Actually my third day fasting now, although the cycle ended yesterday. Purposefully done.) and showers for longer than that.
I'm completely serious, what you perceive as manic is simply somewhat above baseline, I'm really not particularly happy or energetic. Hmm, well, actually, looking at the symptoms I'm not particularly elated and I never experience euphoria and my physical energy is still low, although there's certainly a rise in cognitive energy.
The lack of euphoria and physical energy could be explained by the severity and length of my depression, how extreme(ly unnatural) and unhealthy my lifestyle is (Complete lack of social relationships or interaction.), along with some aspects of aspergers, the very low emotionality and possibly physical energy levels, the problems caused by low muscle tone such as endurance and fatigue.
So, utilizing a 1-10 point system to illustrate this, if I'm naturally at a 1 on certain symptoms of mania, primarily mood and physical energy, and mania raises it by 5, I'm only at a 6 whereas a normal person, whose baseline is at 5, is pushed to the maximum level where the symptoms are undeniable.
I actually recall reading recently that among teens (possibly at age 17) those classified as gifted (Me.) were found to have somewhere around a 4x risk of having or developing bipolar disorder relative to the general population. It may also be greatly overrepresented, have a high comorbidity, among those with ASD.
I never thought of this before! I may actually be mildly bipolar. This would perfectly explain the cycles I've repeatedly gone through. Well, shit, that's just another major thing that may be wrong with me. At least it's only mild and I already know how to treat it due my knowledge of psychiatric disorders, neurology, and pharmacology.
There's actually a strong correlation between high intellectual or artistic achievement and bipolar disorder. Of course it's during the manic phases that positive development, production, occurs.
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2017-07-19 at 1:04 AM UTCHi everyone.
Vizier here. Just get back from the gymnasium now I'm going to drink some coffee and say hi to my aunt on face time. Hope y'all are well. Adios!
"What? Why would you post that MQ?"
EXCUSE me??
You don't get it. You just don't even get it.
Go throw the ball around with Billy. I want you out of my house and out of my LIFE. FOREVER.
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2017-07-19 at 1:30 AM UTCMalice, I already have two kids, I don't need a third. Also they're boys not girls.
The only thing you have to offer me that I'm interested in is your body. My wife... she might get some pleasure out of making you her sub. I dont know that the third child thing would appeal, more like slavery. I have a pair of slave leia panties that I wear sometimes for her. Though I will admit the idea of moulding you into my own sex being is appealing as hell, but you're a long ways from Idaho.
Dont think youd be happy here with my kids and all and because of my kids it would never happen (among other reasons) but since you asked nicely I'll show my wife the post and have her post in here for giggles. She likes reading your posts -
2017-07-19 at 1:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 Malice, I already have two kids, I don't need a third. Also they're boys not girls.
The only thing you have to offer me that I'm interested in is your body. My wife… she might get some pleasure out of making you her sub. I dont know that the third child thing would appeal, more like slavery. I have a pair of slave leia panties that I wear sometimes for her. Though I will admit the idea of moulding you into my own sex being is appealing as hell, but you're a long ways from Idaho.
Dont think youd be happy here with my kids and all and because of my kids it would never happen (among other reasons) but since you asked nicely I'll show my wife the post and have her post in here for giggles. She likes reading your posts
I want to be your wife's sub. She can sit on my face for days, I just don't want to have to touch you, with all due respect. -
2017-07-19 at 1:38 AM UTCU want to wear slave Leia panties, mq? Lol
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2017-07-19 at 1:40 AM UTCfuck man hydro is one of those faggots who thinks animals are people too
>i was on the verge of suicide because my horse got fucked on by yotes!!! my soul was torn asunder and the prospect of carrying on another day without my muse, my other half, was more than my aching heart could bear!!!
and for you to personify a coyote as some kind of serial rapist axe murderer is next level autism. its like being in war?? bitch, are you fucking shitting me??
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2017-07-19 at 2:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie Nicu. And it was really good imho. Also i don't think i agree with you on the characters, Kanna was super moe but her little friend Saikawa was 11/10 kawaii. And i think the cast of characters was just nice to have together although Fafnir was bretty lame.
The Kanna/Saikawa interaction was cute but the ahegao rendering of a primary schooler was... an interesting artistic direction to take.
Originally posted by Malice We can all guess who Kobayashi instantly reminded us of.
Along with like 90% of seasonal anime MCs. When alienated from their labor there is no difference between the programmer, the salesman, the engineer or any other of a hundred bureaucratized professions stripped by capitalism of the unique nobility each once held. A job is a light veneer applied to a character template to distinguish them on paper but of which their actual character is constituted in. By contrast, New Game is a series that played on a certain romanticized image of the technical professional and investigated the role of one's occupation in one's life beyond the thing one pours time into and extracts money from.
