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The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus edition
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2020-02-19 at 5:19 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Same exact thing here damn top tier diagnosis for me like not even kidding brah.
i detailed why i think it was in the recovery thread. Been going thru extended methadone withdrawl for like 3 months and my brain is mush, my body aches and im falling apart. Just seems to make me very susceptible to any feels that come along. -
2020-02-19 at 5:30 AM UTC
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2020-02-19 at 5:31 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2020-02-19 at 5:31 AM UTCI'm out
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2020-02-19 at 1:32 PM UTC
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2020-02-19 at 1:51 PM UTCThats a solid meme format. What's it called?
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2020-02-19 at 2:26 PM UTCNot sure if I still have the message...deleted some yesterday but I think Oct is dead by now. He sounded like he was in a really dark place and got a shitload of something can't remember but sounded like he was going to be dead.
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2020-02-19 at 2:51 PM UTC
Originally posted by Dregs Not sure if I still have the message…deleted some yesterday but I think Oct is dead by now. He sounded like he was in a really dark place and got a shitload of something can't remember but sounded like he was going to be dead.
So maybe a RIP is in order as we my never hear from or see another post from him again.
Are you schizophrenic or diagnosed with something? Real question not being snarky. -
2020-02-19 at 3:19 PM UTCYeah Johnny Boy tell them your real story
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2020-02-19 at 4:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Are you schizophrenic or diagnosed with something? Real question not being snarky.
Picture Michael Myers in the original Halloween. Loomis taking care of that kid..and him escaping. Before getting kicked out on the streets my family namely my nigger father wanted me in a nut farm...I was there...I got out with help twice..but different "inmates" lol. My family gre tired of that approach...so I stand at home for a brief time. I discovered alcohol not for the first time but grew to love it quickly...helped personally with my various symptoms...not so much for my family..so dad had enough kicked me out and i laughed in his face before i left...told the rest here there on DH and here
Simply put I've been diagnosed with a few disorders and what not. Alcoholism keep shit at bay for the most part of 29 yrs...though I seem to moving on up to a more disturbing note as of late and I don't know why. I am supposed to be on anti depressant(s)psychotics but I am just in dream land almost 100% of the time on them so...I opt out of that bullshit...to be an alcocholic WHICH HAS HELPED ME for over 20 yrs but since the start of this new year all symstoms/withdrawals have been hitting me 10 fold or worse.
I need the booze dude...or I don't know what I will do next. I am not exaggerrating in any way...and I am quite prone to do such that often. I'm in a very dark and new place. Even on the streets as a teen I never felt this way. I don't know what is happening but I need my addiction more than ever. I can't be sober anymore...You fucking can't make me see those people anymore. Fuck you. -
2020-02-19 at 4:02 PM UTC
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2020-02-19 at 4:25 PM UTC
Originally posted by Dregs Picture Michael Myers in the original Halloween. Loomis taking care of that kid..and him escaping. Before getting kicked out on the streets my family namely my nigger father wanted me in a nut farm…I was there…I got out with help twice..but different "inmates" lol. My family gre tired of that approach…so I stand at home for a brief time. I discovered alcohol not for the first time but grew to love it quickly…helped personally with my various symptoms…not so much for my family..so dad had enough kicked me out and i laughed in his face before i left…told the rest here there on DH and here
Simply put I've been diagnosed with a few disorders and what not. Alcoholism keep shit at bay for the most part of 29 yrs…though I seem to moving on up to a more disturbing note as of late and I don't know why. I am supposed to be on anti depressant(s)psychotics but I am just in dream land almost 100% of the time on them so…I opt out of that bullshit…to be an alcocholic WHICH HAS HELPED ME for over 20 yrs but since the start of this new year all symstoms/withdrawals have been hitting me 10 fold or worse.
I need the booze dude…or I don't know what I will do next. I am not exaggerrating in any way…and I am quite prone to do such that often. I'm in a very dark and new place. Even on the streets as a teen I never felt this way. I don't know what is happening but I need my addiction more than ever. I can't be sober anymore…You fucking can't make me see those people anymore. Fuck you.
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2020-02-19 at 4:26 PM UTC
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2020-02-19 at 4:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by Dregs Picture Michael Myers in the original Halloween. Loomis taking care of that kid..and him escaping. Before getting kicked out on the streets my family namely my nigger father wanted me in a nut farm…I was there…I got out with help twice..but different "inmates" lol. My family gre tired of that approach…so I stand at home for a brief time. I discovered alcohol not for the first time but grew to love it quickly…helped personally with my various symptoms…not so much for my family..so dad had enough kicked me out and i laughed in his face before i left…told the rest here there on DH and here
Simply put I've been diagnosed with a few disorders and what not. Alcoholism keep shit at bay for the most part of 29 yrs…though I seem to moving on up to a more disturbing note as of late and I don't know why. I am supposed to be on anti depressant(s)psychotics but I am just in dream land almost 100% of the time on them so…I opt out of that bullshit…to be an alcocholic WHICH HAS HELPED ME for over 20 yrs but since the start of this new year all symstoms/withdrawals have been hitting me 10 fold or worse.
I need the booze dude…or I don't know what I will do next. I am not exaggerrating in any way…and I am quite prone to do such that often. I'm in a very dark and new place. Even on the streets as a teen I never felt this way. I don't know what is happening but I need my addiction more than ever. I can't be sober anymore…You fucking can't make me see those people anymore. Fuck you.
I think its a matter of whether you feel good now. Even when youre shitfaced drunk, do you feel GOOD? If you do then more power to you. If i felt good i wouldnt have stopped doing heroin. But id Do 3 or 4 bumps of fentanyl, put a crushed kolonopin under my tongue and muscle a a half of tar and id lay there staring at the ceiling with tears in my eyes bc it couldnt make me feel numb enough to be okay anymore. Taking it slow is okay, but if you always think youre going to deal with something “tomorrow”, it never happens. itspretty much a matter of deciding whether what youre doing is working and whether you want some peace and joy in your life or to live your remaining years and die the way you are. If i had to live the rest of my life the way i was 5 years ago, id have been happy to die. Thankfully although its fucking hard, anyone can change.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-02-19 at 9:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER I think its a matter of whether you feel good now. Even when youre shitfaced drunk, do you feel GOOD? If you do then more power to you. If i felt good i wouldnt have stopped doing heroin. But id Do 3 or 4 bumps of fentanyl, put a crushed kolonopin under my tongue and muscle a a half of tar and id lay there staring at the ceiling with tears in my eyes bc it couldnt make me feel numb enough to be okay anymore. Taking it slow is okay, but if you always think youre going to deal with something “tomorrow”, it never happens. itspretty much a matter of deciding whether what youre doing is working and whether you want some peace and joy in your life or to live your remaining years and die the way you are. If i had to live the rest of my life the way i was 5 years ago, id have been happy to die. Thankfully although its fucking hard, anyone can change.
Help me with my "Final Solution"? much different from the WW2 one but similar in a lot of ways. ME YOU..YOU ME A TEAM,,,some just have to suffer and suffer anything imaginable. Seriously..I got ya back IF ya got mine. No looking back though. Just fune in the now and OUR INEVITABLE DEATHS in the chambers, firing squards...or whatever. WE NEED TO GAY FUCK ONCE SO I GET PREGNANT. I don't wanna live anymore but I WILL IF YOU HAVE OUR BABY. I will and can be the greatest of mothers. IF not lets just kill each other over Cali and Canuckian Toronto food. WE CAN MAKE THIS WORK!!!!!!!! -
2020-02-19 at 10:51 PM UTC
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