2016-02-05 at 11:24 AM UTC
Yea, I have to. Thanks for the compliment. I'd like to extract my own, though. Or do Ayahuasca. Do you have nature where you live? I remember you saying that you run barefoot through the woods. I have a forest right out of my window and it's calling me as well. They haven't forgotten me. It really is about time.
2016-02-06 at 5:50 AM UTC
Thanks for making me aware. Missed that thread. Hydro's been emailing me, which I enjoy, but I didn't know this had become public.
§m£ÂgØL has fucking problems. I said long ago that he should be receiving serious intensive care, being treated for schizophrenia, because the outcomes are much better the earlier there's intervention. Now with an event as stressful as this it wouldn't surprise me if it triggered a psychotic episode. Not kidding, if you know about §m£ÂgØL's history of symptoms, how long this has been developing/progressing, and have a rough understanding of schizophrenia, there's a very good chance something's going to happen. Based on what I know, my perception/analysis, he's a liability at this point, and could be a threat to himself or others.
At least if he's involuntarily committed and placed on psychiatric hold he'll finally receive the diagnosis and treatment he needs, whether he wants it or thinks he needs it or not (*gasp!* Oh crap, am I becoming an authoritarian/paternalist?).
I also seem to be able to handle alcohol well enough, thought I didn't have the genes for it the last time I tried it. Was pounding back (not really, just wanted to use that term) vodka at night about 4 days in a row, ending yesterday. Going to take a break to prevent problems from tolerance/dependence, withdrawal/rebound, and health (NAC or sublingual glutathione beforehand and milk thistle afterward are great for harm reduction). Worked up to about 1-2 cups of 30% over a few hours. I have no idea how that compares to standard amounts usually drunk for recreational purposes.
2016-02-06 at 9:50 AM UTC
Has anyone here tried Methizolam? Supposedly a longer lasting version of Etizolam.
2016-02-06 at 12:07 PM UTC
Not yet. It's on my to do list. Or is now anyway.
2016-02-07 at 5:13 AM UTC
I had eggplant parmigiana and whiskey for dinner and have the absolute worst gas of my entire life
2016-02-07 at 5:31 AM UTC
Malice talking about people who need inpatient mental health treatment, that's fucking rich. You're one bad nootropic combination away from complete mental breakdown yourself.
2016-02-07 at 5:35 AM UTC
Evan Williams is my only true friend goddamnit
2016-02-07 at 5:58 AM UTC
At least you have a friend, PoC. Some of us arent so lucky.
2016-02-07 at 6:14 AM UTC
Hydro we all told you §m£ÂgØL was bad news and that whole situation with him living there was a clusterfuck but you told us we were all wrong about him so pardon me if im a little devoid of sympathy in regards to whatever the hell you guys have going on now. Life is a fucking bitch if you didn't know by now, just dont leave your animals to starve if you off yourself. Im too cold and broken to try to help people like you anymore.
2016-02-07 at 12:17 PM UTC
Look, PoC, Im sorry you took my comment the wrong way. It was more a joke than anything and it didnt come out right. I wont leave my animals to starve. I had tried to talk to you, but I felt like I was a bothermonths and months back. I never even got a reply so I left it as you didnt want to talk to me. Im sorry. I love §m£ÂgØL. I love him very much. Stillnow, even with his lies and hurt hes put me through, I love that man. He will realize what he lost and by then itll be too late. Im just finding a good life for my child, thats all. My animals.. well, theyll be okay. I just cant keep going any longer. Im dead inside and §m£ÂgØL this morning had to twist the knife and spew lies. Now his family knows.
2016-02-07 at 12:24 PM UTC
I dont need nor want help. The only person on this planet that could help me is §m£ÂgØL. He wont though. He gives no fucks. i wont be around much longer. His family knows and I asked if theyd want to raise their grandchild. Im waiting on a reply back. If no answer, Im just saying fuck it. Ive been hurt too much and you know maybe him being raised by my ex wont be so bad. §m£ÂgØL believes he will put him for adoption anyway so we can hope for that. Im giving until this afternoon.. maybe.. I dont know. I want to die now.
2016-02-07 at 12:26 PM UTC
Im only breathing for my son at this point. Nobody else. §m£ÂgØL fucked me up bad. He even lied and said I fucking caused all his shit. He would stay home because he was scared about OUR FUTURE, not because we had an issue going on. I worked my ass off to make life so it could be good for us. I cant do it no longer. This is the final heartbreak im going through. §m£ÂgØL is the person who killed me, not my husband, though I thought it would be him..
2016-02-07 at 12:40 PM UTC
Stop this passive aggressive bullshit you cunts. Both of you. You keep blaming eachother but you are both accountable for your own actions. What is this shit?