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The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-05-19 at 1:19 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist You’re not annoying me, you’re making me sad; and I want to reach through this screen and give you shaken baby syndrome.
Please get medical help. please, please, please
If I think for one moment that there's any hope for me I will, I promise.
I've never felt this peaceful. Everything seems so beautiful now that I know I won't be seeing it much longer
You guys better start sending me some PayPal addresses otherwise everybody's favorite piano will be getting all of my money -
2019-05-19 at 1:22 PM UTCI'm not even depressed anymore, although it does come back intermittently
Now, it's just that nothing in this world will satisfy me and if it does, it's only an evolutionary biological response -
2019-05-19 at 1:22 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 1:23 PM UTCThere’s hope and you know it fucker.
How can you feel peaceful when you feel this sick?
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2019-05-19 at 1:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist There’s hope and you know it fucker.
How can you feel peaceful when you feel this sick?
Hearing you say you feel peaceful makes me happy for you, but not for this reason.
Examples?
I feel peaceful because I know that I won't have to deal with any of this shit for much longer
I specifically chose this method of death because I wanted to prove to myself that I REALLY wanted to die.
I have an extensive firearm collection. If it was some kind of stupid drunken impulse I would've blasted myself already -
2019-05-19 at 1:26 PM UTCYou dodged my full question. Don’t you feel sick? Aren’t you uncomfortable?
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2019-05-19 at 1:29 PM UTCYou should go on a mass shootie and blame it on niggasin.space in your manifesto so they say the name of the website on CNN.
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2019-05-19 at 1:31 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist You dodged my full question. Don’t you feel sick? Aren’t you uncomfortable?
Physically, yes. I'm shaking like a Parkinson's patient and feel like I'm freezing to death. Rapid and "serious-feeling" heart palpitations are intermittent and Kussmaul breathing is beginning, as is dystonia and muscle swelling.
Not to mention the feeling of impending doom.
But mentally, I'm peaceful.I specifically chose this method of death because I wanted to prove to myself that I REALLY wanted to die.
I have an extensive firearm collection. If it was some kind of stupid drunken impulse I would've blasted myself already -
2019-05-19 at 1:31 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox If I think for one moment that there's any hope for me I will, I promise.
I've never felt this peaceful. Everything seems so beautiful now that I know I won't be seeing it much longer
You guys better start sending me some PayPal addresses otherwise everybody's favorite piano will be getting all of my money
Hahah! Good oneeee ;) -
2019-05-19 at 1:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by Ghost You should go on a mass shootie and blame it on niggasin.space in your manifesto so they say the name of the website on CNN.
Believe it or not, this is one of the reasons I'm doing this. I woke up the other day with eight empty boxes of 5.56 hollow point ammunition and all magazines of my various 5.56 firearms loaded, with no memory of buying it or loading said magazines
I don't know what I was thinking of doing, but there's no point in anybody else getting hurt over my mental problems -
2019-05-19 at 1:35 PM UTCWell. If you end up dying Juice, it's been an honor and a privilege to shit post with a person as fine as you. Just thought i'd mention that, we never really got to say goodbye to Malice. (T_T')
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2019-05-19 at 1:35 PM UTCLike...
Does it hurt? When I was on potassium I felt very numb and "sick", like as in diarrhea and slightly nauseas, but not like painful.. -
2019-05-19 at 1:36 PM UTCDo you have renal failure going on or something?
I wish I could be all like "life is worth living" or something, but I've got nothing. -
2019-05-19 at 1:36 PM UTCAt the same time though, loading firearm magazines is one of the few things I've found to alleviate acute mental problems, so it was probably just that
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2019-05-19 at 1:36 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 1:39 PM UTCIf you kill infidels you will have a good existence in the afterlife
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2019-05-19 at 1:41 PM UTCSo how about them sports huh?
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2019-05-19 at 1:41 PM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 1:43 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox Believe it or not, this is one of the reasons I'm doing this. I woke up the other day with eight empty boxes of 5.56 hollow point ammunition and all magazines of my various 5.56 firearms loaded, with no memory of buying it or loading said magazines
I don't know what I was thinking of doing, but there's no point in anybody else getting hurt over my mental problems
Sell the guns!!!! Problem solved.
Listen Juice,
I would never insult you by pretending for one second that I know exactly how you feel. I saw you write your diagnoses the other day, they suck bad. I’ve wanted to die on more than one occasion, even attempted it as a teen. I know my mind was no where near where yours is right now, but I no longer feel that suicide is the answer. Damn man, dig deep, find that guy in the picture. He’s in there. -
2019-05-19 at 1:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox Physically, yes. I'm shaking like a Parkinson's patient and feel like I'm freezing to death. Rapid and "serious-feeling" heart palpitations are intermittent and Kussmaul breathing is beginning, as is dystonia and muscle swelling.
Not to mention the feeling of impending doom.
But mentally, I'm peaceful.
Are you sure you're still going to be headed to work for a week?
I know I didn't see you long but I was living in bumfuck nowhere last year going through rapid xanax taper trying to go to work whilst also thinking about checking myself into a psych ward because I was actively hallucinating, in unbearable pain doing pcp just to keep away the thoughts of bringing my gun back from my parents house; not talking to a single person outside of this forum. Thankfully that passed, but without at least connecting with some people I can relate to I think I would have lost my mind.
It's been a pleasure to meet you. You remind me of me in a lot of ways, and usually I hate myself, but that's incredibly far from the truth here.
The most important thing I've gotten after I basically did break is good chunks of internal peace. If you've truly found that, I wish you nothing else from it.