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The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Edition
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2019-03-12 at 3:18 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER It might be from Square. As far as I know, only the company has my bank records which have my actual info.
Yeah $smerk310
Going to make a new btc wallet while I'm at work.
Alright I sent you 10.
I hope malice would've felt at least some joy or pride in the fact that people cared enough to think about him this long. It's sad, but I think we'll miss him more than his family ever did. They didn't seem to treat him very well at any point in his life.
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2019-03-12 at 3:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER So you have to give them a verifiable photo of your drivers license and last 4 of social, etc, to receive on coinbase now?
Yeah. It's a whole ordeal now for tax purposes. You need to set up an offshore acct if you want an acct on an exchange which isn't gonna report taxes and ask for all this info. I think cash app has a btc option though? I saw a balance for it just now so I assume you can hold/transfer btc that way. -
2019-03-12 at 3:22 PM UTCWhat's all these monies being transferred for again?
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2019-03-12 at 3:30 PM UTC
Originally posted by Octavian What's all these monies being transferred for again?
No one has to, but I figured y'all might want to. When I figured out it was actually Malice yesterday, I ordered the full investigation/ coroners report from the Los Angeles medical examiners office. Sounds gay, but I feel like this whole thing needs some closure.
I'm seriously entertaining the thought of trying to set up some obscure little memorial thing. Doesn't seem right to just leave nothing behind. I can't even find a single picture or social media post. -
2019-03-12 at 3:32 PM UTCDiclazepam?
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2019-03-12 at 3:46 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER No one has to, but I figured y'all might want to. When I figured out it was actually Malice yesterday, I ordered the full investigation/ coroners report from the Los Angeles medical examiners office. Sounds gay, but I feel like this whole thing needs some closure.
I'm seriously entertaining the thought of trying to set up some obscure little memorial thing. Doesn't seem right to just leave nothing behind. I can't even find a single picture or social media post.
That's very thoughtful and both should be done. I wish I had some money to chip in but I'm seriously on my ass at the min. Maybe when the memorial idea comes to fruition I'll have some then. There should be a Totse hall of fame.
There's that one pic of him all buff n' shizz albeit I think he blacked his face out. I would love to know what supps he was taking, damn looked better than I ever did. In hindsight it annoys me cause he was at the right moment physically to get himself "out there". If he was given some attention it would have paid dividends to his self esteem, maybe.
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2019-03-12 at 3:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG Alright I sent you 10.
I hope malice would've felt at least some joy or pride in the fact that people cared enough to think about him this long. It's sad, but I think we'll miss him more than his family ever did. They didn't seem to treat him very well at any point in his life.
Goddamn though.
Yeah. That's the part that I think gets me the most. I can't find an obituary...,a funeral service....a grave site. It's like he was never here to begin with. He had all these people reaching out to him. I figured he'd at least want to see what normal interactions/life could be like.
I always imagined doing a documentary about totse and all the offshoots. It's our shitty little niche site, but when you think about it like I said- he's really just a proxy for those millions of people with severe social and mental health issues. From the sounds of it, he was on a ton of different antidepressants, but they never seemed to do much. Imagine if he'd channeled all that brain power to doing anything constructive? He could've been a fantastic columnist or political commentator.
Idk. I guess it feels like he died years ago. But he promised he'd meet up for a couple of days. Idk how I could've been more accommodating. I wonder if he thought I'd talk him out of it? Part of me admires his resolve, but the rest is just...ugh. My life sucked for such a long time. And most days I didn't even feel like trying to change anything. I just wanted to get high and go to sleep, and wake up and maybe something would be different. But finally I realized "if you're serious about killing yourself, wouldn't it make sense to try other things first?"
I GET suicide. No one should feel trapped. But he actually had a ton of positive qualities that he just hadn't cultivated. His suicide just feels lazy. Out of all my friends who died, even though I never met him face to face, I almost feel more for him because we were so much alike in so many ways. I think there's a ton of projection too. It makes me sad to think that if something happened to me, or I died in my sleep- it wouldn't be much different. My mom wouldn't be able to afford to bury me ( even if interrment is kinda stupid and selfish). It's almost impossible to find picture s of me online. I barely just started talking to old friends. All my closest friends are dead or in jail. Didn't go to school. Didn't get married. No significant other.
It just feels so strange for someone to be here for so long, and spend all those days on this planet, and all those conversations and all the reading and debating. And pictures of your dick next to your cat. And then there's just 40 or 50 assorted weirdos on the internet who even had an inkling you existed, and only one of them even known your real name...and he had to pay money to dig it up after the fact from your coroners report.
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2019-03-12 at 3:53 PM UTC
He posted selfies a few times.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-12 at 3:54 PM UTC
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2019-03-12 at 3:55 PM UTCWhy in my screenshot is Malice1 posting on the 28th of June 2018 but on LA County Coroner's Office his date of death is down as the 15 June 2018?
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2019-03-12 at 3:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING V: A Cat-Girl/Boy Under Every Bed Why in my screenshot is Malice1 posting on the 28th of June 2018 but on LA County Coroner's Office his date of death is down as the 15 June 2018?
Bc like I said- that screenshot wasn't him. He didn't have anything wrong with his feet.
I'll post everything when the docs arrive. If you're anything like me, you'll get that same pit of your stomach feeling I did. I'm not into conspiracy theories and shit. It's him. There's not a single doubt in my mind. -
2019-03-12 at 4:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG Tempted to write a song about malice now. I was just thinking, "What rhymes with phenobarbital?"
Malice, man
took that diclazepam
why thank you ma'am
afghanistan
"...bought vials of mexi nembutal
Said "down the hatch!" And
"Fuck it all!"
I sure just wish the fag had called
Before he caught that bus
Because for all he whinged and cried
And sure as he was that when he died
The world would be so better off
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2019-03-12 at 4:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Yeah. That's the part that I think gets me the most. I can't find an obituary…,a funeral service….a grave site. It's like he was never here to begin with. He had all these people reaching out to him. I figured he'd at least want to see what normal interactions/life could be like.
I always imagined doing a documentary about totse and all the offshoots. It's our shitty little niche site, but when you think about it like I said- he's really just a proxy for those millions of people with severe social and mental health issues. From the sounds of it, he was on a ton of different antidepressants, but they never seemed to do much. Imagine if he'd channeled all that brain power to doing anything constructive? He could've been a fantastic columnist or political commentator.
Idk. I guess it feels like he died years ago. But he promised he'd meet up for a couple of days. Idk how I could've been more accommodating. I wonder if he thought I'd talk him out of it? Part of me admires his resolve, but the rest is just…ugh. My life sucked for such a long time. And most days I didn't even feel like trying to change anything. I just wanted to get high and go to sleep, and wake up and maybe something would be different. But finally I realized "if you're serious about killing yourself, wouldn't it make sense to try other things first?"
I GET suicide. No one should feel trapped. But he actually had a ton of positive qualities that he just hadn't cultivated. His suicide just feels lazy. Out of all my friends who died, even though I never met him face to face, I almost feel more for him because we were so much alike in so many ways. I think there's a ton of projection too. It makes me sad to think that if something happened to me, or I died in my sleep- it wouldn't be much different. My mom wouldn't be able to afford to bury me ( even if interrment is kinda stupid and selfish). It's almost impossible to find picture s of me online. I barely just started talking to old friends. All my closest friends are dead or in jail. Didn't go to school. Didn't get married. No significant other.
It just feels so strange for someone to be here for so long, and spend all those days on this planet, and all those conversations and all the reading and debating. And pictures of your dick next to your cat. And then there's just 40 or 50 assorted weirdos on the internet who even had an inkling you existed, and only one of them even known your real name…and he had to pay money to dig it up after the fact from your coroners report.
Idk.
It does seem like a shame. And there's probably at least a few million like him out there too. People who have squandered their potential and felt so hopeless from it that they instead opt to exit the game. People who are isolated from real social interaction and left to survive on the fringes of society.
He was good looking. Had a good body. Smart as fuck. Could've been so much more.
It's gonna be a year since his death in just a few more months.
If anybody wants to do a memorial I was thinking we could, idk, gather up some of his best posts and publish it? I'm willing to put it together. Free e-book and paper copies sold at printing cost. This way he isn't just nothing, there will be something physical that could possibly outlive any of us. Our grandchildren will dust off the book in 100 years and say, "Who the fuck was Malice?" He won't just exist on websites and archives anymore. IDK.
Maybe it's a stupid idea but if anyone wants to work on such a thing I know how to put it all together. Can provide evidence of paper copies being sold at cost. It really depends on the size/quality but it will probably only be 1-3 bucks per copy. The money just goes to Amazon but this is the cheapest/easiest/most accessible way I can think of memorializing him. Plus think of all the randoms who will buy this book and wonder what the fuck they've stumbled on to.
Also, hydro is a piece of shit mother.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-12 at 4:20 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-12 at 5:20 PM UTCOkay here's my thingie, for anyone else who'd like to contribute.
Thanks
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2019-03-12 at 5:22 PM UTCAlso, §m£ÂgØL.... now you kind of have to record Goose Pond EP.
With as much as his autistic ass talked about it, you know he would've loved that. -
2019-03-12 at 5:31 PM UTCNigaa
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2019-03-12 at 5:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Also, §m£ÂgØL…. now you kind of have to record Goose Pond EP.
With as much as his autistic ass talked about it, you know he would've loved that.
Could use some improvement but I got dis:
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2019-03-12 at 6:01 PM UTCYou should get into opera, dawg
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2019-03-12 at 6:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER You should get into opera, dawg
Thank you! Have you heard my other singles, "Lanny is so fucking gay" and "What would you do with a drunken admin"?
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