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The Retarded Thread: Sploo Needs Attention
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2018-06-01 at 1:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER Yeah dude i texted you like 3 times and told you i was free and was renting a bunch of luxury cars, and i could come pick you up in pomona and take you out to lunch or just drive around or something.
Yeah of course doing charity stuff helped. Happiness doesnt just come to you man. Just like a toothache or a pain in your foot is your bodys way of telling you something is amiss- unhappiness is the same thing. Its your body's defense mechanism against self-destructive behavior. It doesnt matter if you talk to people…just being in a room around other people, engaged in activities- helps.
I figured just getting you out of the house and out and about would be good for you. Im all for a persons right to kill themselves, but its fucking stupid when you'bve tried nothing. Youre not going to be able to drug your way to happiness. Even just having a job- even when i come in 6 or 7 hours later every day- is enough of a routine and chance to see other people, that it decreased my depression by a lot. But i think everyones tired of trying to convince you. Youre obviously unhappy. Maybe try some other suggestions. Be grateful that there are people willing to talk to and listen to you. A lot of people dont even have that.
If it turns out you genuinely have aspergers, i guarantee there are some free classes given somewhere helping you to acclimatize and learn how to socialize. You can always kill yourself in the end.
Well, what kind of charity work did you do?
If you actually met me there would be no doubt in your mind that I'm on the spectrum. Part of the reason why it would probably be best not to meet, I would just end up burdening you. -
2018-06-01 at 1:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano That being said, I have never personally witnessed anyone take a whole bar and be able to stay awake for very long. I stopped letting people try them after a while because I knew what was gonna happen.
ive known junkies that needed 8mg to 10mg to get the effect that they were looking for. 2mg had literally no effect even when multiple beers were consumed at the same time
Originally posted by DietPiano I only tried using more than 8mg one time and took like, I dunno, probably over 100mg and it didn't really feel hardly any different, just more tired when I woke up.
physiologically impossible unless there was something else in your system affecting absorption.
Originally posted by DietPiano The length is the big deal here. Like, you really shouldn't be able to work a patient up that far because by the time they're at 3 or 4 if they say "It's not working well enough" you should be saying "Okay, let's ween you off and try something else" because it should be at least 4 months of consistent benzo use at that point, and at 4 months 4/5 doctors would listen to the warning that says "Use beyond 4 months is not reccommended, long term effects beyond 4 months are not known." That's being pretty kind. What it should say is "Memory problems will likely develop after 4 months."
fucking THIS. doctors have access to better journals and first-hand experiences than i do and i can say for a fact what you posted is accurate. it isnt only memory, its cognitive and emotional. tempers shorten and 'rage' develops. yet they continue to knowingly prescribe this shit for long term use. 3 years? that fuck needs to lose his medical license.
Originally posted by DietPiano That's being pretty kind. What it should say is "Memory problems will likely develop after 4 months."
Yeah, my memory is a lot better than it was a year ago, but still pretty awful (although some of it is withdrawal.) I have a ways to go though, then PAWS I'm sure, which with my case I'm planning on the full 2 years because I can't even find relevant data on people above 4mg for multiple years.
from what ive witnessed:
- recreational user over about three years, used 4mg to 14mg over a weekend along with alcohol. after the first year started the memory issues. after quitting cold turkey took a year to normalize memory and two years to get back to normal personality
- recreational user whos Dr. prescribed it. took it daily in 1mg or less dosages. when socializing, going 'out', or when stressed would take 2mg or 3mg dosages. at 3mg dosages would be a walking zombie...as in would act normal in all regards but about twelve hours later, or the next day, would ask to be reminded of the days activities. before starting taking the shit was normal; after about a year would have ridiculously absurd rage attacks for absurd reasons. went ballistic over a waiter bringing the wrong drink to the point the cops were called. the habit went on for about two years then the dr took the xanax away due to needing an operation. memory issues and the psycho episodes waned about about 10 months and 'normal' after 18 months, or so
- junkie who was prescribed it but took 8mg-10mg for a dose, taken 4 or 5 times a week for about two years, and used other drugs. most likely not completely due to xanax, but went nuts. was a B or A student in school but after a year of junky-itis went full retard with no cognitive skills whatsoever. (walked out of a hotel room literally naked to go to the continental breakfast. was brought back to room by manager. said 'totally forgot to get dressed after taking a shower.') parents called cops repeatedly. was 'marchman-acted' i dont even know how many times. 'baker acted' a couple of times. have no idea if they ever stopped taking the stuff or even if theyre still alive.
Originally posted by DietPiano Anybody wanna buy some bars?
fuck noThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-06-01 at 1:39 AM UTCblah blah blah drug tolerance is a thing
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2018-06-01 at 1:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by Obbe You don't have enough social interaction. If you had friends or a girlfriend, or even if you just had sex, you would enjoy life a lot more. Remember when you had never done drugs and thought drugs were dumb and now you are basically a pothead? The same thing will happen if you have sex. Or even if you had friends to laugh with.
You can do it.
Even people with down syndrome are capable of forming meaningful relationships.
Just try it.
Love fades, I'm near the pinnacle of isolation and there's almost no one I could relate to, don't see much in human relationships, and likely naturally derive less joy from them. It really doesn't seem that great, although it could make life feel bearable enough that you convince yourself to remain in the trap.
Life is never going to be as good as it is in anime. Why even bother? -
2018-06-01 at 1:42 AM UTCAlso, I got prescribed gabapentin.
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2018-06-01 at 1:44 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 1:48 AM UTCthats the thing with methadone it'll last a good 2 1/2 - 3 days. it fucking retarded that they dish that out to you everyday and expect people to get clean when all you're doing everyday is topping up the previous days dode that is still plenty active in your body, then again the next day and next...and so on. to get clean with methadone you should only take that shit when you start feeling sick again, and keep doing it like that. and people wonder why the W/Ds on methadone feel so much worse than heroin does, its fucking retarded at these drug clinics, basically they treat the completely over-exaggerated version of heroin that the media/govt portray with they're war on drugs propaganda rhetoric.
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2018-06-01 at 1:50 AM UTCShe said she had never prescribed it before and wouldn't feel comfortable doing so, unfortunately.
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2018-06-01 at 1:51 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 1:52 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 1:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Well, what kind of charity work did you do?
If you actually met me there would be no doubt in your mind that I'm on the spectrum. Part of the reason why it would probably be best not to meet, I would just end up burdening you.
Ive worked in soup kitchens and gathering toys to donate for the holidays. I worked for a place called Chrysalis that did homeless outreach. Same thing for the Inglewood needle exchange. Fostered puppies and kittens. The thing i did for the longest was when i had my car, I bought a bunch of necessities like toothpaste, shampoo, towels, flip flops, soap, razor blades, food and snacks that didnt need refrigeration, aspirin, lotion, batteries, cheap radios,flashlights, duct tape....any stuff that i needed when i was living in the car, or when ive gone camping. Just feels good. Even when crazy niggers confront you outside thge Ralphs saying you stole his Bible.
And im sure youre weird dude. I was raised around kids who were definitely on the spectrum. Not allowed to watch TV, very touchy, started screaming and hitting when theyd lose a video game or something. And im sure youre not that. In any case, we wouldnt even have had to talk. Just pick you up, find a place to eat, smalltalk bullshit about the restaurant and Pomona and drugs and making money, and what kind of anime i should get into. Thats what "normies" do. Its kind of a moot point now though, at least until i figure out a car situation. And you kinda missed out on "Ballin Out of Control Casper". Past 3 months have been fucking insane. -
2018-06-01 at 2:01 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 2:07 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 2:12 AM UTCHad a wank after who knows how long, actually felt great for the first time in quite a while since depression was rescinding, immediately fell into existential dread upon orgasm.
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2018-06-01 at 2:15 AM UTC
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2018-06-01 at 2:15 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Had a wank after who knows how long, actually felt great for the first time in quite a while since depression was rescinding, immediately fell into existential dread upon orgasm.
Keep me safe from the horrors of reality, anime. Schopenhauer was right.
Did you fap to hentai? That stuff is bad for you.
