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2018-05-23 at 3:22 AM UTCLearning how to IV by yourself is trickier than you think Malice. You have to play with some needles for a bit to really figure it out.
La vet clinic de mexico. The poor piggers that were supposed to be put out of their misery before they started an epidemic that will span 2/3 of the globe. Shame -
2018-05-23 at 4:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice That's your best bet, there's no amount of pain medication the hospital will be willing to use on you that will break through the tolerance you acquired by abusing tineptine and blowing out your receptors. Your husband will be dead from an overdose or suicide within the next few years anyways and your children won't be missing out on anything.
Maybe if you tap into your prostitution skills and offer to suck off one of the doctors they will do a "whoopsies" and slip some pentobarbital into your PCA pump. Fentanyl would make more sense but you're such a junkie that they probably don't have enough of it in the hospital to ensure an overdose on you.
Your pain will never get better, it's only going to get worse with time and you'll never be able to acquire a drug powerful enough to combat your endlessly rising tolerance. If you're this bad off before you hit 30, how do you think you'll handle it at 40?
Yeah well, surprisingly I did manage to drop !u tolerance prior to and while in the hospital. I still what would have lasted me 4 days, which I still have a reasonable amount going on 10 days. Pain isn't entirely controlled, but much better than expected with shit they're giving me. Today they took me off the PCs pump (because the pharmacy is running out *rolls eyes* and there is a shortage) so now instead of 0.2mg every 5mins/max 5mg every 4 hours, I get 4mgs every 3 hours orally ... But I just save them and dissolve in water and IV. So I do get a bigger dose which knocks the pain back way better at least and don't have to hit a pump a shit load of times and take damn near 2 hours or more to get any relief if say the pharmacy took their good old time getting my syringe.
Now because I won't accept blood they are trying to transfer me. So I might be somewhere else soon. They think my femur bone is infected too since there is puss sitting so close where they can see on the CT scan.
Shit is definitely scary. If I live through this... God, I fucking don't know what... There won't be much that can kill me. The doctors here are all up my ass to take blood but I won't. Talked to a patient advocate through my insurance today and she's filing grievances because of the "harassment" as she put it. My hemoglobin did go from 4.9, down to 4.5, now back up to 5.5 today... So at least its finally going up but they did give me another run of iron (which giving it early as they did could cause liver failure) so it's probably just from that... They want at least a 8-9 to operate again. So its just gonna take a while.
Originally posted by Malice
It's nice to know you could go peacefully any day. There's no fear of pain or failure, it's exactly like falling asleep and never waking up again. The arguments even the vast majority of people to against suicide or to attribute a negative value to death are painfully moronic.
*hugs* I just Hope whatever you choose you find happiness with it. Thank you for all the good you've done to try and help me, I'll forever cherish and appreciate all you did for who I loved and myself. I only wish I could say it in person or at least by voice.
Just about an hour ago I went into bad chills while writing this. They did an EKG on me and gave me Tylenol. Had a fever shoot up out of nowhere while I did my own bandage/packing change (hurts less than them doing it and most the time they just give me stuff and go away for a while). I think the cold saline I used to wet the bandages triggered it while my body was burning up. Went on for an hour. Crazy painful shit. Now Im hot as fuck with ice packs all over me... This is fucking insane. Malice, part of me wishes I could go out your route ATM. -
2018-05-23 at 4:46 AM UTC
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2018-05-23 at 5:58 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Yeah well, surprisingly I did manage to drop !u tolerance prior to and while in the hospital. I still what would have lasted me 4 days, which I still have a reasonable amount going on 10 days. Pain isn't entirely controlled, but much better than expected with shit they're giving me. Today they took me off the PCs pump (because the pharmacy is running out *rolls eyes* and there is a shortage) so now instead of 0.2mg every 5mins/max 5mg every 4 hours, I get 4mgs every 3 hours orally … But I just save them and dissolve in water and IV. So I do get a bigger dose which knocks the pain back way better at least and don't have to hit a pump a shit load of times and take damn near 2 hours or more to get any relief if say the pharmacy took their good old time getting my syringe.
Now because I won't accept blood they are trying to transfer me. So I might be somewhere else soon. They think my femur bone is infected too since there is puss sitting so close where they can see on the CT scan.
Shit is definitely scary. If I live through this… God, I fucking don't know what… There won't be much that can kill me. The doctors here are all up my ass to take blood but I won't. Talked to a patient advocate through my insurance today and she's filing grievances because of the "harassment" as she put it. My hemoglobin did go from 4.9, down to 4.5, now back up to 5.5 today… So at least its finally going up but they did give me another run of iron (which giving it early as they did could cause liver failure) so it's probably just from that… They want at least a 8-9 to operate again. So its just gonna take a while.
*hugs* I just Hope whatever you choose you find happiness with it. Thank you for all the good you've done to try and help me, I'll forever cherish and appreciate all you did for who I loved and myself. I only wish I could say it in person or at least by voice.
Just about an hour ago I went into bad chills while writing this. They did an EKG on me and gave me Tylenol. Had a fever shoot up out of nowhere while I did my own bandage/packing change (hurts less than them doing it and most the time they just give me stuff and go away for a while). I think the cold saline I used to wet the bandages triggered it while my body was burning up. Went on for an hour. Crazy painful shit. Now Im hot as fuck with ice packs all over me… This is fucking insane. Malice, part of me wishes I could go out your route ATM.
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2018-05-23 at 6:11 AM UTCwhy not accept blood?
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2018-05-23 at 6:55 AM UTC
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2018-05-23 at 6:59 AM UTCHydro always said she'd rather die than go through surgery, but here she is waiting to go through surgery. Again.
She'll probably accept blood once shit gets serious and she gets scared/realizes her convictions are dumb. But by then of course it'll be too late, so she'll end up posting a thread from hell about how doctors are retarded. -
2018-05-23 at 7:13 AM UTCyou deserve to die 100x more than her just due to the virtue of you being a fedora-wielding faggot with a low IQ. i fully sympathize with hydro in that instance because i would also stuff the barrel of a shotgun in your mouth if i ever was subject to your annoying cringe irl
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2018-05-23 at 7:14 AM UTCI bet that she means she doesn't really want to die and she feels like she wants to and she's scared
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2018-05-23 at 7:21 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I bet that she means she doesn't really want to die and she feels like she wants to and she's scared
you always try to post something subtle and clever yet lack the mental faculties to do so. it always falls short and just reveals to us that you're someone who tries really hard to appear as a step beyond mediocre. go make out with the worms eating the insides of your dad's grave by killing yourself and requesting a shared coffin. you IQ 130 pathetic piece of shit. you are only 1 out of 50 people in a world of 7 billion, your life has approximately the same value as when i recycle a soda can 20 times to buy a bottle of bundy from the dollar tree -
2018-05-23 at 7:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice
It's nice to know you could go peacefully any day. There's no fear of pain or failure, it's exactly like falling asleep and never waking up again. The arguments even the vast majority of people to against suicide or to attribute a negative value to death are painfully moronic.
didn't you order that from some online mexican 'pharmacy or summing? it'd be funny af if you went to kill yourself to only then find out that the stuff is counterfeit and if you're lucky prolly barely has enough pheno in it to get you mildly high, let alone an hero yourself with the stuff, lol.
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2018-05-23 at 7:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice That's your best bet, there's no amount of pain medication the hospital will be willing to use on you that will break through the tolerance you acquired by abusing tineptine and blowing out your receptors. Your husband will be dead from an overdose or suicide within the next few years anyways and your children won't be missing out on anything.
Maybe if you tap into your prostitution skills and offer to suck off one of the doctors they will do a "whoopsies" and slip some pentobarbital into your PCA pump. Fentanyl would make more sense but you're such a junkie that they probably don't have enough of it in the hospital to ensure an overdose on you.
Your pain will never get better, it's only going to get worse with time and you'll never be able to acquire a drug powerful enough to combat your endlessly rising tolerance. If you're this bad off before you hit 30, how do you think you'll handle it at 40?
opiate tolerance soon reduces back down when you stop using you know, that shit isn't permanent.
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2018-05-23 at 7:58 AM UTC
Originally posted by gumbo Hydro always said she'd rather die than go through surgery, but here she is waiting to go through surgery. Again.
She'll probably accept blood once shit gets serious and she gets scared/realizes her convictions are dumb. But by then of course it'll be too late, so she'll end up posting a thread from hell about how doctors are retarded.
I went through surgery for 1337 and also the type of surgery was a factor too. Shit is already serious as far as blood goes, I am short of breath and other complications. I'm being transfered to another hospital soon hopefully too. I'd tell you which but to hide my PI I won't say but its one that's in the top 10 best in the country. Just talked to my patient advocate today and there has been plenty of options/treatments they've neglected to provide which would preserve my wishes and also make it so I don't bleed to death in surgery. I'm not budging on blood. If I can't survive with my own, then it wasn't meant to be. I don't care what others choose, shit. I've donated enough myself,but for me... Nope, not going to accept.
My whole abdomen is swollen and everywhere they had a heart monitor sticky is broken out. Just removed them this afternoon and no issue before. My temp still won't drop. It was at 102.5, then 102.9 them finally went to 101.5 as of now. Just can't breakout it though even packed to the gills with ice. I hate toradol, but its a good anti inflammatory drug and helps with fevers big time. Wish they'd just IV me with that and get it over like they did a few nights ago when the fever was bad again like now and wouldn't break.
They gave me a new drug via IV a while ago and I'm wondering if its not causing these mild allergic reactions and fever chills and shit. It all started shortly after. I forget the name but I'll find out when the nurse comes back.
As for doctors being retarded, there is a high lot that is. The doctors I have ATM... Meh, they could just hit me with toradol and save us all this hell with fevers we know is a reoccurring thing and we know why its happening... So... I find that some what retarded... But not ALL doctors. My anesthesiologist was pretty cool and knew his shit. We talked and bullshitted a while before the surgeon got his ass in and we went back. He also was the one who gave me my pca pump too. There is just a lot of doctors who gave over inflated egos and/or are retards about some shit. -
2018-05-23 at 8:25 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist opiate tolerance soon reduces back down when you stop using you know, that shit isn't permanent.
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Or when you tapper, as I've been doing. I ain't gonna say it was easy, but I did it. 4mgs of IV diludid helps my pain to a reasonable degree (taking in account I'm bedridden so if I was up moving for any period, more would likely be needed to preserve this level of pain control) and I feel alright too.
You gotta remember too, while there is cross tolerance from T-PAIN, its not a full agonist, so the dilaudid helps more in other ways because it affects the other opiate receptors T-PAIN fails to touch.
Alrighty... Wish me luck, I guess. Or not. For the record, in the event I die or its while before I post again: On everything I love and care about, I never once sent a message threatening to kill §m£ÂgØL, nor did I do it through mine or others, or burner emails, or in anyway email him as such to cause harassment. Whatever he wants to believe, fine, but I know the truth and it wasn't me. -
2018-05-23 at 8:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Da Leg Itches you always try to post something subtle and clever yet lack the mental faculties to do so. it always falls short and just reveals to us that you're someone who tries really hard to appear as a step beyond mediocre. go make out with the worms eating the insides of your dad's grave by killing yourself and requesting a shared coffin. you IQ 130 pathetic piece of shit. you are only 1 out of 50 people in a world of 7 billion, your life has approximately the same value as when i recycle a soda can 20 times to buy a bottle of bundy from the dollar tree
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2018-05-23 at 9:05 AM UTCYou are a special brand of retard to have gone lethally septic two years in a row. This was entirely avoidable. You are literally dying of negligence and retardation. You deal with serious infections on a nearly yearly basis and yet still cannot manage to figure out that you should take antibiotics when symptoms first arise. This doesn't just happen overnight.
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2018-05-23 at 9:18 AM UTCI wish I had a friend
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2018-05-23 at 9:36 AM UTCSaline solution is much better than blood.
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2018-05-23 at 9:37 AM UTCU guys gonna be okay?
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2018-05-23 at 9:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by gumbo You are a special brand of retard to have gone lethally septic two years in a row. This was entirely avoidable. You are literally dying of negligence and retardation. You deal with serious infections on a nearly yearly basis and yet still cannot manage to figure out that you should take antibiotics when symptoms first arise. This doesn't just happen overnight.
Wonder what your son will think when he finds out mommy hated blood transfusions more than she loved him.
I had gone to the doctor when shit started. This was believed to first have been a knee injury and I was sent home to take motrin and rest it (I do have a torn ACL though too). I did as told. It got worse and then I became unable to walk and bedridden. The people in my home kept trying to put off taking me back to the ER since they needed me at the house for dumb reasons despite me unable to do shit. I eventually, once I found my cell phone, called for an ambulance. My son is with and was then, friends who are taking good care of him. I'm glad I made that call early. He's been up to see me but just from the door since I'm on contact precautions and have MRSA. I'm lucky I have good people who act as a tribe to help when shit is bad.
I don't "hate" transfusions more than I love my child, this is just how I feel. I love my son with all my heart and soul.
