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2018-05-03 at 4:34 PM UTCLast note: I’m giving ketamine another try for depression (I noticed an anti-anhedonic effect as well as an increase in motivation. Of course this is standard for depression, I’m simply saying that it didn’t just make me feel better).
Importantly, it turns out that racemic is actually superior for depression, and the alleviation lasts longer. I didn’t know this at the time I chose to use the s-isomer because the data simply wasn’t available, they were using it because it has less negative side effects and the duration is shorter. -
2018-05-03 at 4:36 PM UTCI'm really glad you're trying the ketamine, Malice. You'll have to let me know how that goes. I've considered it before, but I lack the resources to set up a proper experiment.
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2018-05-03 at 4:37 PM UTCKetamine almost killed me once
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2018-05-03 at 4:39 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-05-03 at 4:43 PM UTCI’m still planning to commit suicide for a variety of reasons, we’ll just see how things progress. I shouldn’t be foolish enough to give in to the feeling that there’s no hope or that this is as good as it gets, it takes time to recover.
I don’t think I’ll ever change my mind about life being hell at its core, though. I just want this to end once and for all.
At the very least if I recover enough to have the energy and motivation I can go through with my idea for turning suicide into a project.
There’s only about a month left of this semester. Feels faster than I would have expected.
Originally posted by aldra how did you take it?
Orally. So far I don’t think I’ve had any trouble with sleep. -
2018-05-03 at 4:43 PM UTCNo I didn’t enjoy it nor would I use again but to be fair I was young and dumb and probably did not use it correctly.
It made me sleep and that was pointless to me. -
2018-05-03 at 4:44 PM UTC
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2018-05-03 at 4:45 PM UTC
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2018-05-03 at 4:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by Zanick I'm really glad you're trying the ketamine, Malice. You'll have to let me know how that goes. I've considered it before, but I lack the resources to set up a proper experiment.
What do you mean you lack the resources? Income? I sent PoC a sample years ago and he seemed to respond really well. Just chop it up (I’m buying a stainless steel mortar and pestle from amazon for this and to help make volumetric solutions (dissolves faster). -
2018-05-03 at 4:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING Did you spend a night crawling around in a ditch in a K-hole?
Someone told me about that once, I found it hilarious.
Living room floor. It was a half asleep/half awake state. I could see and hear people but couldn’t really converse. It was like I was dreaming but awake for the dream. Does that even make sense? -
2018-05-03 at 4:54 PM UTC
Originally posted by ohfralala Living room floor. It was a half asleep/half awake state. I could see and hear people but couldn’t really converse. It was like I was dreaming but awake for the dream. Does that even make sense?
Yeah, I've had experiences sort of like that.
Ketamine is sometimes touted as an instant cure for depression. I haven't tried it, but I have tried psilocybin mushrooms (another touted instant cure) with another member of this site.
It was fun, we camped under a tree, which I always identified as the tree of life, beside a monument in a forest that I jog in. We lit a massive fire, and drank beer and then whiskey and took mushrooms until 4am.
Then the fire went out, and it got cold, and that wasn't as fun. Lying in a tent freezing my butt off.
It didn't cure anything or change me on some deep level though. I still get depressed. -
2018-05-03 at 4:57 PM UTCYeah when I used to struggle with depression, everything that was supposed to help my depression always made it worse, especially pharmaceuticals.
Except for weed. Everything else would sling me into a fucking hole. -
2018-05-03 at 4:59 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice What do you mean you lack the resources? Income? I sent PoC a sample years ago and he seemed to respond really well. Just chop it up (I’m buying a stainless steel mortar and pestle from amazon for this and to help make volumetric solutions (dissolves faster).
Yes on the income. I'm waiting on a background check for a job that looks promising, though, so that will change soon. Still, isn't it less effective outside of the context of an infusion? Or is this just something that clinics are saying so that people don't go thinking they can treat themselves? -
2018-05-03 at 5 PM UTC
Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING How many lines of code have you written?
You’ve asked me this multiple times and the answer is not a single one because I’m only taking general ed. classes right now. I was going to have to take an extra semester anyway due to what happened late last year and I didn’t want to bomb any difficult classes due to the severe issues I had.
There’s also a chance I’ll change majors (not to philosophy, it’s a terrible decision), but I need to ask some questions about what the realistic prospects are for careers and what the actual work is like. Basically I’m interested in furthering my knowledge of neuroscience (horrible major) and going into drug development, but there’s a good chance it’s just going to be miserable chemistry and lab work, while also being low paying. -
2018-05-03 at 5 PM UTCJogging is great for depression 🤠
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2018-05-03 at 5:02 PM UTC
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2018-05-03 at 5:04 PM UTCYeah I wore my knees out running trying to avoid depression. I’m not even old either lol.
A deep depression is hard to get out of regardless of what you’re doing to correct. If you can even do anything that is.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-05-03 at 5:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice You’ve asked me this multiple times and the answer is not a single one because I’m only taking general ed. classes right now. I was going to have to take an extra semester anyway due to what happened late last year and I didn’t want to bomb any difficult classes due to the severe issues I had.
There’s also a chance I’ll change majors (not to philosophy, it’s a terrible decision), but I need to ask some questions about what the realistic prospects are for careers and what the actual work is like. Basically I’m interested in furthering my knowledge of neuroscience (horrible major) and going into drug development, but there’s a good chance it’s just going to be miserable chemistry and lab work, while also being low paying.
I keep asking you cos I know you don't give a shit about computers.
OK, so, well, be honest with yourself, you aren't going to be a coder or a javascript wizard. Not everyone is going to "become a coder". That's a fucking meme.
You are smarter than the average by quite a margin, so follow your interests. That's the only way an ADD case like you will succeed anyway. Some of these fields are quite crowded, but try to remember that no matter how big the pile-up there will always be room at the top.
And low-paid is still paid.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-05-03 at 5:08 PM UTCI've never even heard of kentamine
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