Originally posted by Malice
Jesus christ, you finally become sober after a long period of being an unbelievable hardcore junkie fuckup and now you feel you're qualify to make determinations about everyone's life.
Let's see, I take a low dose of etizolam and my symptoms of PTSD, anxiety, some aspects of autism, chronic neurological pain, and to a large extent depression and suicidal ideation, are gone, and I'm not experiencing any rebound effect. What a surprise! Could it be because I have genuine disorders, including a neurological/genetic disorder known as autism? No! I couldn't possibly have a genuine need for meditation! Just get out more and PUSSY, it's capable of solving every problem there is!
No, it's not a total solution, the only thing I need to do, and it won't necessarily be something I can rely on forever, but anxiety medication can be an excellent tool for recovery.
You've always had an absolutely vile attitude. Generally I only do so when someone's blatant stupidity and unwarranted condescending attitude rouse my ire.
You touched on it yourself with your typo. Try meditation, bud.
Originally posted by Malice
Lanny, I remember you once mentioning that there were certain albums you always listened to while in this state, possibly having mentioned that you may have a form of seasonal affective disorder that comes about around winter, IIRC, and that if you could you would stay in that state all year long.
Why is that? It seems to suggest that you understand, and it’s not as if you haven’t long had a proper understanding of this, that people can desire more than maximizing happiness, please, possibly even satisfaction/fulfilment (depression, to any extent, normally considerably reduces this sense).
What if the reason you enjoyed this state, for some of the same reasons you enjoy alcohol, is because you feel an affinity to, resonate with, the themes in what you experience in this songs and how they resonate with what on s deeper psychological level you feel is the genuine nature of the human condition?
Listen to the music the vast majority do, the conversations they have, the societal taboos on conversing about dark subjects that restrict your freedom.
And in music, alone, you find your refuge.
“This is what life really is.”
“The inexpressible depth of music, so easy to understand and yet so inexplicable, is due to the fact that it reproduces all the emotions of our innermost being, but entirely without reality and remote from its pain… Music expresses only the quintessence of life and its events, never these themselves.”
“Music is the melody whose script is the world.”
And under the bell jar even that can’t reach you.
Why do people enjoy sour or bitter foods, enjoy tragedies, or commemorate loss? Human well being is more complex than "hedonic tone", enough so that the crude pharmacological instruments available to us can't fix all your problems. Well adjusted people feel sadness sometimes, sometimes that leads to catharsis. The fact that life isn't a monotone manic ecstasy doesn't mean everyone who isn't suicidal is in denial about "the genuine nature of the human condition®"
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Originally posted by Zanick
Most Americans are one or the other, especially those directly involved with politics at any level. You can reject the system altogether, but the people who make a difference work from within. It’s not going anywhere, so you may as well pick a side and set an example.
what even if you believe it to be fundamentally wrong?
Man i just had some kind of wicked crazy bad dream. Dreamt I fell asleep at a tackle shop and the night guy offered me a ride home and a driverless car came out and I ended up going to some building and dude was like some kid will be by to absorb your soul. Shit was fucked.
on another note i came out my office earlier to see my girl on the couch with her mom's urn. I felt uber uncomfortable and noped right back to my office. I think her ashes need to be buried or at least somewhere else. It's been hard keeping my mouth shut especially given the fact that she and I did not get along at all.
Yes...it's coming back to me...albeit a bit hazy...I do not have a normal sense of time, so I'm uncertain of how long ago this was. I recall she moved in with you do having nowhere else to go and being unemployed. She was a severe alcoholic and you finding her bottles. She was also supposed to get a job, but kept coming up with excuses. Drove you insane. I distinctly recall how immensely you disliked her, how stressful having her in your house was for you, how it was driving you insane. Yes, you listed various aspects of her past and current behavior and I agreed with you that she was not the kind of person that would ever change and get it together. I also remember you were planning to leave her at a camp ground, which was pretty funny. Your girlfriend kept going on about how she's family as if that was the most important thing in the world and wasn't willing to listen to reason. I recall she was also a lousy mother, to the point of being abusive, yet this did not sway her. Not simply lousy, terrible, by all means she should have wanted nothing to do with her. Oh, and it built to the point where you told her she was eventually going to have to choose between her and you, and she would have chosen her mother.I could be mistaken, but it may not have simply been alcohol did you find, but was it also needles? And had she just gotten out of rehab before moving in with you? Your GF was naive and blinded enough to believe that this time she was finally going to turn things around for good. I think she may have particularly pissed you off at one point by eating your food? And there was something about a job. I'm not entirely sure whether she simply wasn't really trying to look for one and kept making excuses or if something else happened, like getting fired rapidly.
How close was I? What did I miss?
Also, how long ago was it that she moved in, how did she end up leaving, and how did she die?
One day they should create a version of the Xavier Institute from X-Men, except for a.utistic people. I want to reach Kim Peek/Rain Main levels of power one day.
I fucking love when a chick is wearing some sort of slipons and slips out of them and fidgets her feet around. Especially because I'm the only one to seemingly notice, and it's easy to take in all the eye can handle without being obvious.
Originally posted by Count_blah
Man i just had some kind of wicked crazy bad dream. Dreamt I fell asleep at a tackle shop and the night guy offered me a ride home and a driverless car came out and I ended up going to some building and dude was like some kid will be by to absorb your soul. Shit was fucked.
i just dreamt i was with that hooker chick from last year. we were both put in jail and she was in the next cell. i was in her cell just comforting her and telling her it'll be alright then the officers came in and said 'narcassist, get your stuff you're being released'. and it just ended with me trying to think of some way to get out of being released and not leaving her alone. lol.
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery
I fucking love when a chick is wearing some sort of slipons and slips out of them and fidgets her feet around. Especially because I'm the only one to seemingly notice, and it's easy to take in all the eye can handle without being obvious.
Originally posted by Enter
you have some boring as fuck fetishes, dude
Feet? I mean it's way more common than most people realize, yeah. But I don't think they realize it's probably the luckiest fetish to have. Soooo many women wear shit that shows off their feet, and they are like 50x more likely than a man to slip off their footwear in public. And got a chick not really into that as far as she knows? She will be after you properly rub and caress her feetsies for her. It feels good to them and arouses them if you have even the slightest idea what you're doing. Everybody wins. My ex, I swear, would initiate footplay more often than me after being together for a while, and she had never been with a guy that paid any attention to her feet before.
I'm thinking about a getting a used Oculus Go to tide me over until gen 2 once it comes out. Hmm, then again, there seem to barely be any good Gear VR games, which is all it can play. Watching videos, especially films, in the theater app is pretty cool. Oh, it looks like Virtual Desktop and Big Screen. The latter has some sweet features, like public and private rooms where you can watch things and do other things with other people, as well as being able to stream from your PC over wifi. https://blog.bigscreenvr.com/sign-up-for-bigscreen-beta-testing-on-the-samsung-gear-vr-8bb8adf40013
The screen is supposed to be really good, and the price is fantastic.
Watching other people try "Face Your Fears" is also bound to be fucking hilarious. Probably the most terrifying experience currently available.
Originally posted by Malice
I'm thinking about a getting a used Oculus Go to tide me over until gen 2 once it comes out. Hmm, then again, there seem to barely be any good Gear VR games, which is all it can play. Watching videos, especially films, in the theater app is pretty cool. Oh, it looks like Virtual Desktop and Big Screen. The latter has some sweet features, like public and private rooms where you can watch things and do other things with other people, as well as being able to stream from your PC over wifi. https://blog.bigscreenvr.com/sign-up-for-bigscreen-beta-testing-on-the-samsung-gear-vr-8bb8adf40013
The screen is supposed to be really good, and the price is fantastic.
Watching other people try "Face Your Fears" is also bound to be fucking hilarious. Probably the most terrifying experience currently available.
Look at this bitch planning for future experiences. Lol.
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Regardless of whether I'm not suffering, or even actually become happy, if, after beginning a low dose methamphetamine regimen, I confirm that I don't have what it takes to accomplish my goals, I will still go through with my plans. I'm still going to acquire all the materials for the perfect suicide so I can go any day I. You never know when life will become unbearable. I'll have a peaceful, painless, method of suicide that will last at least 5 years.
I mean, hey, I still need some recreation until that time.
I just looked through every single app/game for the Gear VR and there's almost nothing worth using. This could definitely change rapidly once the Oculus Go is released, but i would definitely hold off on it and wait for cheap used models to go on sale once people lose interest.
I've seen this before. umhmm. Meth makes people go from "OMG I wanna die" to "Die? There's AT LEAST 500 million things I need to do before even thinking about dying!" Told ya guys. Shits fly as hell.
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