2018-04-23 at 8:44 PM UTC
bit weird innit, writing shit about bombings and shit in a pic with a hot chick like that, lol.
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2018-04-23 at 8:44 PM UTC
maybe its a really shitty way of saying she's da bomb.
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2018-04-23 at 8:57 PM UTC
Heh, the cops came and got me during Japanese class due to 2 things I had written in my freshman composition class. Mentioned suicide twice, as well as my philosophical views in another paper, and dropped the class yesterday. Teacher reported it. On my last paper when I mentioned being severely depressed and suicidal she wrote that this was the second time I had mentioned it and that she was concerned. I knew she might think I was about to off myself if I dropped the class soon after that.
Honestly, I wasn't foolish enough to think there would be no risk, just foolhardy. I have a bad habit of stirring up trouble because the monotony and drudgery of everyday life becomes unbearable. I also don't like censoring myself and am accustomed to communicating almost exclusively in no-holds-barred domains where you can post almost anything.
Talked my way out of it pretty easily. Really wasn't that big a deal.
Do you remember the guy that reached out to me in my Japanese class after he saw my wallpaper of Sagiri from Eromanga Sensei? He had been asking if I was okay before this happened. After it was over I sent him I text saying I was going to leave the country tonight, to say goodbye to everyone for me, and thanked him for reaching out to a former hikikomori. He seems to have bought it and I've just been ignoring all his texts and calls. It's going to be really funny when I show up next class as if nothing happened.
2018-04-23 at 9:05 PM UTC
Fuck yeah, etizolam (and flubromazolam, but that's only for the suicide cocktail) is here! I'm getting tizzed out tonight. Sweet sweet relief of this torment, finally! A.utism (Damnation Lannafred!), PTSD, and chronic anxiety cause me to perpetually be in the negative hedonic range. A constant state of at least mild suffering.
Who knows, maybe it will just allow me to recover and I'll change my mind. Even if you're an addict/dependent, at least you're alive.
2018-04-23 at 9:14 PM UTC
So, you are gonna kill yourself because you have anxiety and depression from drug withdrawal?
2018-04-23 at 9:17 PM UTC
He's gonna Kill himself cuz he's a cuck
2018-04-23 at 9:19 PM UTC
You sure? Seems that’s what he’s been describing, but blaming being ADD, asp, claiming he’s naturally depressed while admitting drugs could change his mind?
Ok lol.
2018-04-23 at 9:29 PM UTC
Are you trying to troll me right now? Lmao
2018-04-23 at 10:07 PM UTC
I still possess some human qualities. It's like being excited to finally be travelling somewhere you wanted to go, do something you've always wanted to do, or having something really good happen to you. You just want to tell other people. I don't want to be stopped or "helped", I'm just happy that this is finally going to be over.
2018-04-23 at 10:10 PM UTC
What do the cops do when they think you’re gonna suicide?
2018-04-23 at 10:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice
Heh, the cops came and got me during Japanese class due to 2 things I had written in my freshman composition class. Mentioned suicide twice, as well as my philosophical views in another paper, and dropped the class yesterday. Teacher reported it. On my last paper when I mentioned being severely depressed and suicidal she wrote that this was the second time I had mentioned it and that she was concerned. I knew she might think I was about to off myself if I dropped the class soon after that.
Honestly, I wasn't foolish enough to think there would be no risk, just foolhardy. I have a bad habit of stirring up trouble because the monotony and drudgery of everyday life becomes unbearable. I also don't like censoring myself and am accustomed to communicating almost exclusively in no-holds-barred domains where you can post almost anything.
Talked my way out of it pretty easily. Really wasn't that big a deal.
Do you remember the guy that reached out to me in my Japanese class after he saw my wallpaper of Sagiri from Eromanga Sensei? He had been asking if I was okay before this happened. After it was over I sent him I text saying I was going to leave the country tonight, to say goodbye to everyone for me, and thanked him for reaching out to a former hikikomori. He seems to have bought it and I've just been ignoring all his texts and calls. It's going to be really funny when I show up next class as if nothing happened.
So basically, what you’re saying is that you like attention, right?
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2018-04-23 at 10:26 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kinkou
What do the cops do when they think you’re gonna suicide?
beat you up
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2018-04-23 at 10:31 PM UTC
He says he talked himself out of the situation with the cops. I am curious what this means exactly. Do you just tell them to fuck off? Lmfao
2018-04-23 at 10:32 PM UTC
Well, online, maybe. The whole cat fucker micropenis thing was funny for a while, but then it became incredibly overplayed and annoying. It depends.
Who likes writing something and just having it ignored by everyone, not getting any responses?
It's going to be fun seeing the impact on how others perceive me and behave around me. I'm going to get benzo'd out before the next Japanese class so I can be uninhibited and just chill right through it. I already stood out and came across as intimidating and strange before this. I wore sunglasses in class the first day just to manage my anxiety and autism.
I know what you're getting at. I'm not writing about suicide to simply to get attention, I'm not a fucking teenage drama queen. I'm definitely not going to mention suicide or anything else that could get me in trouble in my other assignments.
