User Controls
The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
-
2018-04-12 at 11:47 PM UTC
-
2018-04-12 at 11:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by A College Professor this post is like chum in the water for a tardshark like §m£ÂgØL
HURRRRR THINK OF THE BABEYYYYYYY
omg LIVES WILL BE RUINED, durrrrrpadewwwww!!!!
think of the CONSEQUENCES WOW
hurrrr pregnancy toxic drugs obsessed baby birth t-pain defect opiates child hospital custody hitchhiked into conception
good post lad -
2018-04-12 at 11:51 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Just seen this, as I must have missed my first go around.
Lmfao, I was stoned as fuck and read it as 'blueberry' my first go too. I was just wondering why 'blueberry' of all things lol. I do love me some blueberries though.
Pillowy mounds of sweet buttery blueberry pancakes...
-
2018-04-12 at 11:53 PM UTCI'm feeling pretty normal right now, but suicide still seems pretty appealing because life is overwhelmingly an unfulfilling and unremarkable utter fool's errand.
-
2018-04-12 at 11:55 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I'm feeling pretty normal right now, but suicide still seems pretty appealing because life is overwhelmingly an unfulfilling and unremarkable utter fool's errand.
I spend a lot of time thinking about suicide. Someone gave me a helium baloon and I thought about using it as an exit bag. I went to a pond today and was wondering how I could drown in it.
We should team up and do a group suicide. It'd be boss. -
2018-04-12 at 11:56 PM UTC
-
2018-04-13 at 12:01 AM UTC
Originally posted by jedi.Goldstein I spend a lot of time thinking about suicide. Someone gave me a helium baloon and I thought about using it as an exit bag. I went to a pond today and was wondering how I could drown in it.
We should team up and do a group suicide. It'd be boss.
What method are you thinking of using? These are the ones I'd go with:
Pentobarnital + cocktail
Exit bag + cocktail
Opioid + benzo + cocktail -
2018-04-13 at 12:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone We all have made mistakes. Its being able to have empathy to those things. He didn't deserve what happened nor did he hurt others doing it- that's the only way I can rationalize laughing at someone's pain.
Anyway, its whatever. I didn't intend to make you feel guilt, just how I feel about stuff like that.
If I cut off my finger, do I deserve to be missing a finger? -
2018-04-13 at 12:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Fox Paws The epilepsy thing sounds like it was brought on by the drug abuse. So yeah not seeing how you can call that one an “act of god”
For 6 years I've only used tianpetine to help me function with my chronic pain. Before that I wasn't even able to work, much less leave bed most days- I needed help just to the bathroom a lot even. I wouldnt call it abuse when the drug I use literally gave me part of my life back. I also was on pain management for 6 years before coming off that for 2 years (when I pretty Much had no quality of life, save for when at the end of it I began buying pills now and again), so its not like this shit isn't documented. My discontinuation was an insurance/financial reason, no other- I could have stayed on forever if I'd have been able to afford it and wanted to deal with bullshit from the doctors. I also have a thoracic aortic aneurysm, had a heart attack in March 2016, and back in 2013 had a pulmonary embolism.
Even at that, none of my health issues have any connection to any drug usage. T-PAIN doesn't even have the profile to cause epilepsy. I've tried many anti-epileptics and none work or work to any degree its justifies dealing with the risks and side effects, though I did up my tianpetine better than anything before has helped, but I realize that's a losing battle, so I just keep it to as low as helps my pain so I can function half way normal.
For a short stent as a 16-17 kid I did abuse alcohol for a period. Xanax was another, but there was more to do with memory issues, bad anxiety attacks, which some was caused directly by the pain from my accident, along with just depression and stupidity. That for for about a year and then I cut it out and took me almost as long to get my head back together.
I've never abused an opiate though despite what people would like to think. I've never just used or nodded out for the fun of it.
Its complicated and more than just 'this way' or 'that'.
Edit: and for the record, when it began, I looked at everything for an answer as to why this started. Even T-PAIN. I believe now its caused from the many blows I've received to the head over the years, one too many TBI's, which fits with other symptoms I experience. -
2018-04-13 at 12:07 AM UTCIf I take a piss, do I deserve to have an empty bladder?
-
2018-04-13 at 12:11 AM UTC
-
2018-04-13 at 12:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone For 6 years I've only used tianpetine to help me function with my chronic pain. Before that I wasn't even able to work, much less leave bed most days- I needed help just to the bathroom a lot even. I wouldnt call it abuse when the drug I use literally gave me part of my life back. I also was on pain management for 6 years before coming off that for 2 years (when I pretty Much had no quality of life, save for when at the end of it I began buying pills now and again), so its not like this shit isn't documented. My discontinuation was an insurance/financial reason, no other- I could have stayed on forever if I'd have been able to afford it and wanted to deal with bullshit from the doctors. I also have a thoracic aortic aneurysm, had a heart attack in March 2016, and back in 2013 had a pulmonary embolism.
Even at that, none of my health issues have any connection to any drug usage. T-PAIN doesn't even have the profile to cause epilepsy. I've tried many anti-epileptics and none work or work to any degree its justifies dealing with the risks and side effects, though I did up my tianpetine better than anything before has helped, but I realize that's a losing battle, so I just keep it to as low as helps my pain so I can function half way normal.
For a short stent as a 16-17 kid I did abuse alcohol for a period. Xanax was another, but there was more to do with memory issues, bad anxiety attacks, which some was caused directly by the pain from my accident, along with just depression and stupidity. That for for about a year and then I cut it out and took me almost as long to get my head back together.
I've never abused an opiate though despite what people would like to think. I've never just used or nodded out for the fun of it.
Its complicated and more than just 'this way' or 'that'.
Edit: and for the record, when it began, I looked at everything for an answer as to why this started. Even T-PAIN. I believe now its caused from the many blows I've received to the head over the years, one too many TBI's, which fits with other symptoms I experience.
Uh, are you sure, Hydromorphone? -
2018-04-13 at 12:11 AM UTCI wonder how much money you could make from goading the cops into attacking you or doing something illegal, like pressing false charges against you, and illegally recording it.
Like, a while ago there was this big memorial thing for a cop that was killed and I thought about standing across the street from the police department with a sign that said something like, "__ __ DESERVED TO DIE" or "COP KILLERS ARE HEROES".
The guy that got pepper sprayed for flipping off a cop received 50K: https://www.timesunion.com/local/article/Saratoga-Springs-paid-50K-to-settle-pepper-spray-6457412.php
That's pretty fucking sweet for most people. -
2018-04-13 at 12:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Well, we can agree to disagree about this, I suppose, but please note, I do not see myself as a blameless victim nor does he. He's been harder on himself that you or anyone else has been, and that's a fact. I also think you fail to see or properly understand certain things going on too, but again… That's whatever. I know some things I can't even mention because of certain people who lurk the forum who I'd rather not know certain things or be able to connect certain dots back to PI me IRL, which hopefully you can understand that.
Talking about the subject just from a general, human emotion stand point though, maybe what should be asked first is: why? Why would that person punch themselves? Could it be they were trying to get a biting insect off them and accidentally hurt themselves or something like that. There is a lot people do that you have to look below the surface at to really understand sometimes. Sometimes people do things misguided or ignorant of things that leads to their own self harm too.
Like in 1337's case, he didn't intend for shit to get like this. Had he listened to me in the very beginning or went sooner to the ER, he probably wouldn't be like this now. He didn't go to the ER so late because of not wanting to be there for me being hospitalized not so long before, and in some assbackwards way of not wanting to stress and burden me further being I'm not well myself and am pregnant with his child. I acknowledge he let this culminate to what it is, and was a down right dumb ass, but I still have sympathy and empathy because I can see in more than just black and white. I would feel that for most people too, not just because he's my husband.
Speaking on my own issues especially those in the past, I KNOW I've been responsible or at least contributed to some. Others were circumstantial, or like with my epilepsy shit coming about, ”acts of God".
He tried to get the biting insect of depression or some other mental malady off himself by taking a dirty needle to his balls and then leaving the resulting bubble to abscess and fester.
He tried to get rid of the mosquito by slamming a mace onto his own ballsack.
Using mental issues as an excuse is one thing, and there is a fair bit of rationality to it even, but you can't entirely shift blame off yourself that way. You still end up with a mace injury instead of a mosquito bite, and you're the one who swung the mace. -
2018-04-13 at 12:13 AM UTCMan, I'm so deep, brah.
-
2018-04-13 at 12:14 AM UTC
-
2018-04-13 at 12:15 AM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery If I cut off my finger, do I deserve to be missing a finger?
I wouldn't say so. Shit happens, doesn't mean you deserve it. Question being is WHY/HOW did it come to that? Maybe it hurt so bad you couldn't take it. Doesn't mean you deserve to not have a finger. Maybe it was an accident.
Things are rarely just black and white. There are a lot more shades in between. -
2018-04-13 at 12:18 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone For 6 years I've only used tianpetine to help me function with my chronic pain. Before that I wasn't even able to work, much less leave bed most days- I needed help just to the bathroom a lot even. I wouldnt call it abuse when the drug I use literally gave me part of my life back. I also was on pain management for 6 years before coming off that for 2 years (when I pretty Much had no quality of life, save for when at the end of it I began buying pills now and again), so its not like this shit isn't documented. My discontinuation was an insurance/financial reason, no other- I could have stayed on forever if I'd have been able to afford it and wanted to deal with bullshit from the doctors. I also have a thoracic aortic aneurysm, had a heart attack in March 2016, and back in 2013 had a pulmonary embolism.
Even at that, none of my health issues have any connection to any drug usage. T-PAIN doesn't even have the profile to cause epilepsy. I've tried many anti-epileptics and none work or work to any degree its justifies dealing with the risks and side effects, though I did up my tianpetine better than anything before has helped, but I realize that's a losing battle, so I just keep it to as low as helps my pain so I can function half way normal.
For a short stent as a 16-17 kid I did abuse alcohol for a period. Xanax was another, but there was more to do with memory issues, bad anxiety attacks, which some was caused directly by the pain from my accident, along with just depression and stupidity. That for for about a year and then I cut it out and took me almost as long to get my head back together.
I've never abused an opiate though despite what people would like to think. I've never just used or nodded out for the fun of it.
Its complicated and more than just 'this way' or 'that'.
Edit: and for the record, when it began, I looked at everything for an answer as to why this started. Even T-PAIN. I believe now its caused from the many blows I've received to the head over the years, one too many TBI's, which fits with other symptoms I experience.
If someone uses heroin for chronic pain, or uses a medication they're not prescribed, it's still considered abuse. For fuck's sake, you IV the shit. If it was strictly and solely for medical reasons, there'd be no reason not to take it orally.
You are really good at rationalizing shit to yourself; I'll give you that. -
2018-04-13 at 12:19 AM UTCI nor him never tried to shift all the blame. I see your point and agree he was being a dumb ass, and I'm more than pissed he didn't tell me before it got to that point of being so bad, but it still doesn't mean he deserves it, or that someone should laugh at another suffering. That could easily be any one of us in some other event suffering. Nobody is perfect.
-
2018-04-13 at 12:19 AM UTCShe takes it orally now that she’s preggo