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2017-07-20 at 12:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I am NEVER going to forget tonight…
I spent 5 hours on the phone, 2 of which was both of us crying and being an emotional and sappy, with a man I am proud to call my brother in every sense of the word, save our genetics.
I am truly a blessed person, truly gifted to have had such amazing luck as to have befriended two of the most amazing men I could ever have hoped to have in my life. I am not worthy to have these people in my life… both who've saved my life, literally. Both whom I've enjoyed such wonderful conversations with, laughed with, joked with, shared advice with, have truly deep and meaningful heart to heart conversations with that have truly meant the world to me, to which I wouldn't trade all the money or drugs, or anything else for, because they mean that fucking much to me. As he said, it's fucking bizarre that we met through totse/zoklet just… talking about drugs… and it grew from there- both, my brother, and my lover- these two fucking wonderful, beautiful, flawed, genuine people, who have the heart to love me somehow, and I too have the heart to return that love to them both.
I've never had much of a "family", at least in the traditional sense, but to me "family", it's a word used to describe people who have unconditional love, who want to help, and who are there for us during the best of times, and will be even in the worst. It's people who see our flaws, see our mistakes, yet still love us anyway, not because they have to, but because they want to. In some ways, having this non-genetic family seems and feels stronger than those who are bound by blood, because we didn't just… spawn in our lives, nor was it accident that brought us about… We landed in each other's life in a weird and unique way, but we stayed about and are more than a cross of paths because WE CHOSE- we chose and we're going to continue having each other, in our lives for the rest of what this world has for us.
Both these guys I can count on and have been there with so much shit for me, and I'm there for them with their shit- not because we have to be, like some traditional families, but because WE WANT TO BE. Through the good and the bad, through thick and thin, with genuine love, care, and desire to see each other at our happiest, and determination to see each other get there.
TOTSE/Zoklet has inspired me to write a book detailing these wonderful, shocking, exciting, beautiful, funny, profound, and deep relationships I've made with so many of the people here in the forums, and all the weirdness in between and humor and comedy that comes from the forum, this little nitch community that has been the start of some seriously deep, and meaningful friendships. I especially want to mention the people closest to me, PoC, my lover, and life partner, and 1337, my brother. I know 1337 is going to at least be a huge motivating force in helping me write it, if not assist me and co-author. I haven't discussed it with PoC just yet, but I hope he will give some assistance to it, even be it just moral support/proof reading, but maybe I can convince him to join the effort with 1337 and me to do this.
I really fucking love my family- my son, PoC, and 1337, and several of you weirdos out there who are my friends (Malice, Sophie, fuck, why not Lanny, MQ, HTS, Mash, and so many others over the years who've reached out, and grew a branch of kindness toward me, or toward them in this weird, fucked up world, on this fucky forum community…because we're lonely… and here we all are… to laugh, bulshit, insult, apologize, share, advise, support, care, and show compassion to and with each other.
I am so lucky. SOOOO fucking lucky to be loved like I am, by who I am. I'll never forget what we talked about tonight, tonight was special. Thanks for being my family, maybe not the kind that just is for some dumb reason like sharing genetics, no, for being part of my family because of love, want, and choice. I wouldn't be alive without the people in it who I love and call my family and friends. I feel so proud too, of who's my family, my closest friends, and one even being my lover.
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2017-07-20 at 3:53 PM UTChydro get a goddamn editor or five if you write a book so it doesn't become 700 pages of T-PAIN, mdma feels, and horses
nobody wants to read about your mushy totse stuff, it sounds like the most boring book ever. You have so many fucked up stories to write about instead -
2017-07-20 at 3:59 PM UTCDoes anybody have suggestions for a 21 year old birthday present which arent money or booze?
My sister stole my idea and is doing a 'booze Easter basket'
Do I just buy a bunch of fidget spinners? What the hell do 21 year olds like -
2017-07-20 at 4:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 Does anybody have suggestions for a 21 year old birthday present which arent money or booze?
My sister stole my idea and is doing a 'booze Easter basket'
Do I just buy a bunch of fidget spinners? What the hell do 21 year olds like
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2017-07-20 at 4:15 PM UTC
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2017-07-20 at 4:36 PM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 hydro get a goddamn editor or five if you write a book so it doesn't become 700 pages of T-PAIN, mdma feels, and horses
nobody wants to read about your mushy totse stuff, it sounds like the most boring book ever. You have so many fucked up stories to write about instead
Well, I agree, and that's why 1337 and PoC hopefully stick with me to help me out with this. It's not going to be about "mushy feels" entirely, but rather all the funny fucked up shit I've discussed with all the people on the forums, all the really fucked threads (HTS, I'm sure there's gonna be a highlighter chapter! You'll be FAM-MOOOSE! you wont have to drink mouthwash anymore!!!!! You'll be able to afford REAL BOOZE!!!!) and shit... kinda woven into the friendships that have formed through the forums over the years.
Shit, there's definitely a part going to cover the times 1337 shot bloody, week old T-PAIN, being from his missed shots he'd save up... then when out, he'd IV this coffee colored, T-PAIN mush instead of just shove it up his ass like a normal person... so dark he couldn't see if he was registering. Fuking OMG this shit is going to be Trainspotting/Requiem for a Dream cringy, but sooo much better that RfaD- it sucked, but it is on the cringe level of what I plan to include from the tales of 1337 and fuck, well, even myself.
or fuck, there was this time when §m£ÂgØL came down, I'd sent him home with flea medicine for his dog (powder, oral shit, nitenpyram) and he got fucked up/drunk and ate it thinking it was drugs... lol
There's some funny ass stories I have that have come from or around the forums with you niggas... I think it would be very interesting to document and write about.
Muffins crazy as MIL is another one, I recall some funny ass comments made by him, PoC, and others on the forum too...
One time hab said he wanted to do a line of tianpetine off my ass... my reply to this was "Oh man, that shit is hygroscopic as fuck, dude... I don't think snorting T-PAIN under any circumstances is a good idea" or something to the effect.. lol
this is going to be a lot of reading and research into the old TRT threads...
it's ust fucked up, and amazing that years later, with some of the people here, I'm still talking to, and we're really positive influences in each others lives... like fucking life saving influences... I wouldn't have believed ever if anyone told me these were the friendships I'd have made all due to some fucked up drug forum... -
2017-07-20 at 5:38 PM UTCHave you ever cum swapped?
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2017-07-20 at 6:40 PM UTCCum swapped lol
I recently learned what a snowball is
I did not think there were words for such things @_@The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 7:27 PM UTCYou should ask for permission before you spread people's personal stories hydro, especially if youre planning on selling thiss
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2017-07-20 at 7:38 PM UTC
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2017-07-20 at 8:27 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Well, I agree, and that's why 1337 and PoC hopefully stick with me to help me out with this. It's not going to be about "mushy feels" entirely, but rather all the funny fucked up shit I've discussed with all the people on the forums, all the really fucked threads (HTS, I'm sure there's gonna be a highlighter chapter! You'll be FAM-MOOOSE! you wont have to drink mouthwash anymore!!!!! You'll be able to afford REAL BOOZE!!!!) and shit… kinda woven into the friendships that have formed through the forums over the years.
Shit, there's definitely a part going to cover the times 1337 shot bloody, week old T-PAIN, being from his missed shots he'd save up… then when out, he'd IV this coffee colored, T-PAIN mush instead of just shove it up his ass like a normal person… so dark he couldn't see if he was registering. Fuking OMG this shit is going to be Trainspotting/Requiem for a Dream cringy, but sooo much better that RfaD- it sucked, but it is on the cringe level of what I plan to include from the tales of 1337 and fuck, well, even myself.
or fuck, there was this time when §m£ÂgØL came down, I'd sent him home with flea medicine for his dog (powder, oral shit, nitenpyram) and he got fucked up/drunk and ate it thinking it was drugs… lol
There's some funny ass stories I have that have come from or around the forums with you niggas… I think it would be very interesting to document and write about.
Muffins crazy as MIL is another one, I recall some funny ass comments made by him, PoC, and others on the forum too…
One time hab said he wanted to do a line of tianpetine off my ass… my reply to this was "Oh man, that shit is hygroscopic as fuck, dude… I don't think snorting T-PAIN under any circumstances is a good idea" or something to the effect.. lol
this is going to be a lot of reading and research into the old TRT threads…
it's ust fucked up, and amazing that years later, with some of the people here, I'm still talking to, and we're really positive influences in each others lives… like fucking life saving influences… I wouldn't have believed ever if anyone told me these were the friendships I'd have made all due to some fucked up drug forum…
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2017-07-20 at 8:33 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-20 at 8:40 PM UTCan that^
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2017-07-20 at 9:32 PM UTCI did it...I FINALLY DID IT!!! After at least 20 days, up to a month, without even coming from a wet dream, with severe erectile dysfunction and complete inorgasmia I came! I ACTUALLY CAME!
It took 3 hours of off and on attempts, deciding to give up multiple times because it felt it clearly wasn't going to happen, then changing my mind, but I finally did it. The details don't matter.
Christ I made a mess. That was a huge fucking load. I began coming too fast and couldn't aim into a receptacle in time, shot all over the bed sheet.
Still feel jittery.
Well, I won't be doing that again. Not worth it. Sex acts (haven't tried actual sex) are incredibly boring/uninteresting and stupid. There are far better things in life. I wouldn't have minded never coming again, but felt I should drain myself just to be safe. It was not worth it, by far, a chasmic distance.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 9:51 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I did it…I FINALLY DID IT!!! After at least 20 days, up to a month, without even coming from a wet dream, with severe erectile dysfunction and complete inorgasmia I came! I ACTUALLY CAME!
It took 3 hours of off and on attempts, deciding to give up multiple times because it felt it clearly wasn't going to happen, then changing my mind, but I finally did it. The details don't matter.
Christ I made a mess. That was a huge fucking load. I began coming too fast and couldn't aim into a receptacle in time, shot all over the bed sheet.
Still feel jittery.
Well, I won't be doing that again. Not worth it. Sex acts (haven't tried actual sex) are incredibly boring/uninteresting and stupid. There are far better things in life. I wouldn't have minded never coming again, but felt I should drain myself just to be safe. It was not worth it, by far, a chasmic distance.
Congratulations, I didn't read AND I didn't watch the GIFThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-20 at 9:54 PM UTCGenetic Slavery and the Will to Live
When I woke up today after some time today I had various thoughts on the subject of philosophy, particularly my focus of interest, and my mind came across this concept. Further supporting what I desire to postulate. My system may yet be tenable, one day it could come to fruition.
I began to feel moderately captivated and filled with a light euphoria or joy at the world of ideas. The possibilities it contains, so much potential, so much to grasp, to attempt a full understanding of, deconstruct and critique. Particularly what I aim to do, challenge the greatest of taboos, resurrect that which was unjustly denounced and discarded, go further to extremes never attempted before and create all that is necessary to establish my system.
What I aim to do is to build all that is required, every thought experiment, every argument, all leading to the this: That the aim of our existence should be to end all life as we know it. The justification for why mankind in particular should be brought to an end regardless of individual "consent". Even an addendum, an outline for how it could be attained in one glorious event and possibilities for how to render the earth inhospitable to, incapable of producing, sentient life again; one particularly attractive option being the destruction of the ozone layer. This is regardless of plausibility, whether it is likely to be occur, critical individuals convinced. It is simply a manifesto for what should be done. -
2017-07-20 at 10:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I did it…I FINALLY DID IT!!! After at least 20 days, up to a month, without even coming from a wet dream, with severe erectile dysfunction and complete inorgasmia I came! I ACTUALLY CAME!
It took 3 hours of off and on attempts, deciding to give up multiple times because it felt it clearly wasn't going to happen, then changing my mind, but I finally did it. The details don't matter.
Christ I made a mess. That was a huge fucking load. I began coming too fast and couldn't aim into a receptacle in time, shot all over the bed sheet.
Still feel jittery.
Well, I won't be doing that again. Not worth it. Sex acts (haven't tried actual sex) are incredibly boring/uninteresting and stupid. There are far better things in life. I wouldn't have minded never coming again, but felt I should drain myself just to be safe. It was not worth it, by far, a chasmic distance.
Tell me you were watching this when you busted
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2017-07-20 at 10:11 PM UTCDamn, they took down Hansa market today after a ton of people moved to it when beta was shut down. An 8x increase in human users. It was taken over a month ago.
Those insidious bastards. The DNM scene is going to be fucked for a while. Aww fuck, and I really needed some clonazolam powder. Well, fuck it, may just use good old etizolam instead, it's not that big of a difference, or I could give diclazepam a try.
https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/6ogj7g/hansa_and_betabay_busted_megathread/?st=j5czlpte&sh=57a442f1
Well, anyone who reuses passwords, especially on DNMs, is a fucking dumbass. Randomly generate and store them, this isn't difficult at all.
Now you shouldn't order from any market for a while. Who knows how long. Generally they bounce back relatively rapidly, but this is a bit different due to having trapped so many people, refugees, after taking down what was the largest market by far.
All the more reason why decentralized marketplaces such as OpenBazaar need a drastic increase in awareness and use ASAP.
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2017-07-20 at 10:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Damn, they took down Hansa market today after a ton of people moved to it when beta was shut down. An 8x increase in human users. It was taken over a month ago.
Those insidious bastards. The DNM scene is going to be fucked for a while. Aww fuck, and I really needed some clonazolam powder. Well, fuck it, may just use good old etizolam instead, it's not that big of a difference, or I could give diclazepam a try.
https://www.reddit.com/r/DarkNetMarkets/comments/6ogj7g/hansa_and_betabay_busted_megathread/?st=j5czlpte&sh=57a442f1
Well, anyone who reuses passwords, especially on DNMs, is a fucking dumbass. Randomly generate and store them, this isn't difficult at all.
Now you shouldn't order from any market for a while. Who knows how long. Generally they bounce back relatively rapidly, but this is a bit different due to having trapped so many people, refugees, after taking down what was the largest market by far.
All the more reason why decentralized marketplaces such as Bazaar need a drastic increase in awareness and use ASAP.
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-07-20T22:16:00.689537+00:00
it's time to have more resilient DNMs, running a market over the tor network is not enough anymore. the future is IPFS-based p2p markets -
2017-07-20 at 10:30 PM UTCOh, cool, Little Guy (girl) is willing to eat indoors as long as I'm far enough away from her. Uh oh, the wind could definitely close the screen door I had open a bit. Not closed shut, but I'm worried she'll freak out. I guess I'll just try pushing it open with a broom, but considering how it affected her when the wind blew over the food bowl and slammed the screen door against the wall a while ago it would take her a while to get to this level of trust again, which I really don't want.
It is really nice to see progress in cats like her, strays/ferals, and the wind possibly blowing over the bowls won't be an issue (I really should just attach something heavy to the bottom or rig something to place them.).
Alright, and she's out safe after looking around a bit and finally pushing it open enough. It was just barely closed to much for her to feel she could slip through it. I'll make sure to prop it open next time.
Definitely like her eating and drinking inside. Will make her more at ease indoors and around people, less likelihood of her getting spooked or the neighbor's kids or dogs coming by. I hate being seen, or even the possibility of it. Still anthropophobic and agoraphobic to an extent.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
