2024-02-04 at 6:37 PM UTC
Sometimes..I wish I could be one of the cal off girls ..
But it’s not who I am ..
Hell it should be lol
But it’s gonna be a great day we got this
2024-02-04 at 10:03 PM UTC
I took three smart drugs today then started deep-cleaning so it was productive, listened to hypnosis now I'm watching love is blind Sweden. I've still felt off though and think it's because it's the hypnosis driving me to socialise and I'm gonna hate everyone there anyway. This random girl wants a relationship with me. Idk why. Idk what effect I have on women. No one else asks me how I am though so I'm just letting it go at a slow and stable pace.
2024-02-04 at 10:29 PM UTC
It's really bugging me that I don't know what it is I project that makes women attracted to me. Is it because they think I'm interested in them or can they tell that I'm not?
2024-02-05 at 9:16 PM UTC
My dream from last night is trying to come back to me so ig I almost drifted off or will soon and it will continue.
2024-02-06 at 6:37 AM UTC
Grim because I didn't sleep enough, trying to make a grocery list, rainstorm outside, going to the sinny today. I have a lot of fun stuff to look forward to but don't feel any particular way about it.
2024-02-06 at 9:29 AM UTC
I'm sick of seeing people wearing all beige. It's all beige leggings, beige sleeveless jackets and beige sweaters. It's sickening.
2024-02-06 at 12:37 PM UTC
Annoyed because I'm too fatigued to go to the cinema and already bought the ticket. I wanted to see the zone of interest but will have to wait until it's streaming now.
2024-02-06 at 12:39 PM UTC
If I feel up for it later I'll go to some Victorian gardens. I can see myself just having a home spa day.
2024-02-06 at 2:55 PM UTC
Fatigued so I'm back in bed, studying on my phone and waiting for the takeaways to open so I can get food delivered. Thinking about what to do with the garden, looking at flights, glancing at the books I don't have the strength to read, wondering how I can be proactive with the revenge plots I've put on hold, if I should put Botox and dermal fillers on hold and instead get more microneedling first to see the effects, they have to be spaced out every six weeks, wondering if I should use sunbeds again, I'd look better with some colour but don't want to age and you can't get laser hair removal when you're tan, wondering what to reply to that girl, if another Miffy plushie will cheer me up, what will cheer me up, should I start on the garden today or clean clothes.
2024-02-06 at 6:40 PM UTC
I booked a dermal fillers appointment so I have something to look forward to now. Idk if the microneedling will counteract it because I'm still going to be producing collegen for three weeks, what if that dissolves the filler? Ik microneedling causes transdermal water loss and ruined the effects of my Botox but this is getting it right after microneedling not before.
2024-02-06 at 6:41 PM UTC
I can't believe this is what I'm most looking forward to, not all the social stuff.
