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2017-05-13 at 10:55 PM UTC
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2017-05-13 at 10:58 PM UTCSpice is massive in the UK at the moment in prisons and homeless people, I wish I knew which one they're getting sprayed on their shit cos it looks pretty good
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2017-05-13 at 11:12 PM UTC
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2017-05-13 at 11:30 PM UTC
Originally posted by reject How the fuck did you shoot syrup, especially 600mg. The bottles I used to get where 10mg/5ml
Generic Roxanol (20mg/mL in 30mL bottles), Mallinckrodt brand. They make up to 240mL bottles (4800mg), I would have ODed for sure if I had one of those motherfuckers. All I did was draw it up in a regular insulin syringe and slam it. It didn't have any color and was just a little thicker than water. I used to get a nice orange taste in my mouth when it hit me. I never had any complications, I would definitely do it again if I had it. -
2017-05-13 at 11:34 PM UTC
Originally posted by 1337 Generic Roxanol (20mg/mL in 30mL bottles), Mallinckrodt brand. They make up to 240mL bottles (4800mg), I would have ODed for sure if I had one of those motherfuckers. All I did was draw it up in a regular insulin syringe and slam it. It didn't have any color and was just a little thicker than water. I used to get a nice orange taste in my mouth when it hit me. I never had any complications, I would definitely do it again if I had it.
Have you ever had a similar experience/ever shot meth? Long ago I had a friend sample stuff I had and he said he could "taste it" I thought well surely he doesn't mean it like he just took a sip of Pepsi...How does this occur and what is it like? -
2017-05-13 at 11:39 PM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Have you ever had a similar experience/ever shot meth? Long ago I had a friend sample stuff I had and he said he could "taste it" I thought well surely he doesn't mean it like he just took a sip of Pepsi…How does this occur and what is it like?
Yes, it's fairly common when getting IVs to taste whatever substance is given. When I was in the hospital, I could taste the saline and the preservative whenever they flushed my IV line. Saline tastes normal --like salt, and that particular preservative tasted like rubbing alcohol.
I have gotten a chemically taste from IV coke and meth. Meth was like a chemical menthol taste, different than smoked. Heroin has a bitter taste occasionally like the drip, but usually I didn't taste anything with heroin.
Edit: Here's some info. http://allnurses.com/micu-sicu-nursing/i-can-taste-145238.html
https://www.reddit.com/r/askscience/comments/l4lqu/when_i_get_an_iv_why_do_i_immediately_taste_the/
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2017-05-14 at 12:23 AM UTCGetting drunk as fuck with the wife and watching UFC tonight. The plan is to get her hungover enough so we don't have to hang out with my in-laws tomorrow.
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2017-05-14 at 12:29 AM UTCWell, for anyone that doubted me, picked up my Nardil prescription:
Pretty much can't get this except in the most (extremely) severe cases of treatment resistant depression and anxiety (cluster of anxiety related disorders).
Should incrementally get better as time goes on, although there does seem to be a strong threshold effect many report. Just need to hold on until then.
So there are a few main possibilities:
1.) I recover.
2.) I partially recover, but mainly continue to stagnate through life, unable to find effective treatment.
3.) I go insane and am hospitalized/institutionalized long term.
4.) I become extremely psychopathic and destructive and may engage in one or all of the following: crime sprees, serial killings, spree killings, mass murder, domestic terrorism
5.) I commit suicide.
If the latter happens, Lanny knows why, although I've pretty much burned my bridges permanently with him. Don't have a problem with theory of mind/metacognition, so I'm pretty sure he's convinced that I'm extremely psychologically unstable, potentially dangerous, and he should keep his distance and even avoid communication. All of this is true and reasonable. 2nd is he's convinced I actually am strongly on the psychopathy spectrum, which is also perfectly possible. Can't blame him for not caring at this point.
If there's anyone I want to apologize to for going on my insane vitriolic rants or hurting them in some other manner when they didn't deserve it, it's Lanny, Casper, The Duke, and PoC. All I can recall, everyone else had it coming.
Nothing more needs to be said. May register for this: https://www.deadmansswitch.net/
So if i disappear for, let's say 3 months at least, you know what happened. I either live or die at this point. Really can't help but wonder if I've been suicidal on some level for over a decade and these incredibly self-destructive behaviors were just a manifestation of it.
Originally posted by reject Lol I never knew reddit was so fun, I got like 200 downvotes for saying women can't help cheating because they're genetically predisposed to it and are slaves to their hormones
Where did you post it? Link?
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2017-05-14 at 12:45 AM UTCHoly shit, risir did you see the Coulter/Sherman fight? That was a slugfest.
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2017-05-14 at 12:52 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Well, for anyone that doubted me, picked up my Nardil prescription:
Pretty much can't get this except in the most (extremely) severe cases of treatment resistant depression and anxiety (cluster of anxiety related disorders).
Should incrementally get better as time goes on, although there does seem to be a strong threshold effect many report. Just need to hold on until then.
So there are a few main possibilities:
1.) I recover.
2.) I partially recover, but mainly continue to stagnate through life, unable to find effective treatment.
3.) I go insane and am hospitalized/institutionalized long term.
4.) I become extremely psychopathic and destructive and may engage in one or all of the following: crime sprees, serial killings, spree killings, mass murder, domestic terrorism
5.) I commit suicide.
If the latter happens, Lanny knows why, although I've pretty much burned my bridges permanently with him. Don't have a problem with theory of mind/metacognition, so I'm pretty sure he's convinced that I'm extremely psychologically unstable, potentially dangerous, and he should keep his distance and even avoid communication. All of this is true and reasonable. 2nd is he's convinced I actually am strongly on the psychopathy spectrum, which is also perfectly possible. Can't blame him for not caring at this point.
If there's anyone I want to apologize to for going on my insane vitriolic rants or hurting them in some other manner when they didn't deserve it, it's Lanny, Casper, The Duke, and PoC. All I can recall, everyone else had it coming.
Nothing more needs to be said. May register for this: https://www.deadmansswitch.net/
So if i disappear for, let's say 3 months at least, you know what happened. I either live or die at this point. Really can't help but wonder if I've been suicidal on some level for over a decade and these incredibly self-destructive behaviors were just a manifestation of it.
Where did you post it? Link?
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2017-05-14 at 1:26 AM UTCYou haven't burnt any bridges malice, you're being melodramatic. Take your meds, take the non-pharmaceutical part of treatment seriously, focus on interests that aren't drugs or antinatalism or autism, and you'll be fine. Dwelling on how terrible things are isn't productive behavior.
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2017-05-14 at 1:27 AM UTCAnd get a fucking job.
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2017-05-14 at 1:40 AM UTC
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2017-05-14 at 1:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † Stream or did you buy it? Link?
I'll test it with my phone….
Go to r/mmastreams. I'm using a flash stream which won't work on mobile.
HOLY SHIT, Porrier/Alvarez.
Edit: https://www.reddit.com/r/MMAStreams/comments/6azauc/ufc_211_miocic_vs_dos_santos/
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2017-05-14 at 1:51 AM UTCI just had an amazing date without sex that started out as helping a girlfriend in need because her mom is getting locked up for fraud and ended with the most mind-blowing conversation about the absurdity of existing with another girl. She didn't pretend to understand Tesla, either.
She got pretty mad at me because I said marriage is stupid but I think she recovered from it.
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2017-05-14 at 1:53 AM UTC
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2017-05-14 at 1:56 AM UTC
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2017-05-14 at 1:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump And get a fucking job.
I'm actually planning to. Eventually being isolated gets so bad that just keeping busy, having anything to do, becomes a far better alternative. And of course it would help me reintegrate into the world, especially with medication, and have more money to save for things.
Unfortunately there's a huge gap in my work history, which I could always explain as having been dealing with a medical condition and practically bedridden until I received an effective treatment. Maybe they'll even get some perks from the American's With Disabilities Acts (although, this may actually have reduced the employment of the disabled, at least those that require expensive accommodations).
I have no idea what to do. Maybe I'll hit up Casper for advice. He was literally a drug dealer and doing other stuff off the books for like 10 years, although he was also living with his mom because he blew it all on his insane heroin usage. Last I heard he managed to get a job at UPS and doesn't feel like such a loser anymore, he's at least getting out, is around some good people, and getting some exercise, something to keep busy. Although from what I've heard he's probably still pretty fucking depressed and some have mentioned he pops in from time to time, sometimes drunk, and alludes to suicide.
You can definitely scam your way into well paying positions and face few repercussions other than being fired if you're caught.
There's also the department of rehabilitation that was recommended to me once.
Another option is community college to get accredited for some quick vocational program. Not like I'd have any problem passing any of them since the people in those tend to be stupid as ever loving shit (also known as average).
I just need to rack up that cash.
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2017-05-14 at 2 AM UTC
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2017-05-14 at 2:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny You haven't burnt any bridges malice, you're being melodramatic. Take your meds, take the non-pharmaceutical part of treatment seriously, focus on interests that aren't drugs or antinatalism or autism, and you'll be fine. Dwelling on how terrible things are isn't productive behavior.
But anti-natalism is reality. The Buddha was right. I've said before that it's been wildly misinterpreted and added to over the years, a lot of non-canonical scriptures, and that the secular interpretation is likely the most accurate. It's fascinating that over 2,000 years ago someone may have essentially found some fascinating answers to the problems of identity and consciousness, existence/human life. At its core it could even be said that anti-natalism may be the foundational tenet of Buddhism.
And then there was whoever wrote Ecclesiastes (last section about obeying god was likely added by someone else).
Came across this on r/antinatalism recently: http://www.independent.ie/irish-news/guinness-heir-garech-de-brn-i-wish-i-hadnt-been-born-life-doesnt-stop-being-hell-35688760.html
Pretty fascinating that someone so rich, privileged, and who admits he had a wonderful life that very few get to experience, still managed to come to an understanding of anti-natalism/Buddhism. I'd really like to know more about him.
But, yeah, I know it isn't healthy.
Check this out, skim it: http://www.medicaldaily.com/depression-may-be-caused-overly-connected-brain-242156
40% more synapses than neurotypicals, about the same excess of neurological activity at rest, and these severe OCD thinking patterns. Another part of the puzzle of autism spectrum disorders and why the life outcomes are so poor, why depression and suicide are so extraordinarily high. Increased GABA, which Nardil is the best for, sure as hell helps a lot. When I was taking a shitload of pure etizolam (I actually did have to take 10mg before my psych appointment and my resting heart rate was still 120 ) powder however long ago it was life sure as hell was easier.
Oh, and the evolutionary theory of depression, the rumination as an adaptive response to attempt to solve the issue that led to that state, which elicits altruism and prevents aggression. Yes, it's all connected...
