I got home from my braces appointment. I felt off today even sitting with the diner owner for the first time, we ate in silence. Then I cried in public. I think I got another admirer, was only staring because I couldn’t place him, he’d been in the cafe yday. It’s my bedtime now and I’m crabby but I’m staying up because I have vodka, have productive things to do and plotting. I made a list (lists <3) of stuff that’s happened recently to compare it to the days when I wasn’t okay just to keep a reality check. Anyway gonna bother Mik now but that’s all I’ve been doing.
Even though my face rn is “flawed” because of the dermal fillers, one side of my face looks like me and the other someone else , I kind of like it. It’s like an eerie perfection, something Junji Ito. So I’m still on the fence about getting another ml, there’s no rush and it would mean saying goodbye to the more natural side of my face.
People can still look hot with a black eye type of thing. Ig I like that I have to keep looking at my face because I’m not sure what I’m seeing, that’s the effect.
I’m drunk already so I texted that guy from the shop his opinion on my dermal fillers. The point is it is a flaw, and there’s a high chance I’ll like it more if I fix it, but that would mean saying goodbye to the real side of my face which I already think is perfect. Dermal fillers only last a year so maybe it’s fine saying goodbye to my natural face for that long.
Originally posted by Kafka
Isn’t everything we do/say driven by emotions to an extent?
Not everything...I'd argue taking a shit isn't an emotional response...ETA well not on all occasions...some people do shit themselves when they get scared.
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Originally posted by Kafka
Isn’t everything we do/say driven by emotions to an extent?
I guess it depends on the person
you could make the argument that emotion and instinct are basically the same thing so all thought and action initially comes from emotion (analysis comes later) but I don't think I agree with it
Originally posted by aldra
I guess it depends on the person
you could make the argument that emotion and instinct are basically the same thing so all thought and action initially comes from emotion (analysis comes later) but I don't think I agree with it
Can you fuck off? I’m not interested in talking with someone who isn’t talking to me as though I’m a person. Do you understand? Everything you say sounds far away and I’m not interested.
Originally posted by Kafka
Can you fuck off? I’m not interested in talking with someone who isn’t talking to me as though I’m a person. Do you understand? Everything you say sounds far away and I’m not interested.
Dark City? That movie was pretty awesome. Cities morphing and shit. We're all trapped on a large space shit but at least our Alien Hosts spin us into day time. No one ever thinks about "Where's the fucking sun"
has a 1980s feel to it even though it came out 1998 according to IMDB. I love Jennifer Collonelly. R.I.P. William Hurt. big lost.
You ever watch the film based on William s Burroughs. Naked Lunch?
How I’m feeling at this time: I was already immune to BS from guys, but the past few days have changed things to a different kind of immunity. I never understood before just how ignorant you really are, and that you’ll never see me as a person, so everything you say sounds like it’s coming from a narrow lens and can be discarded. I feel detached which isn’t that nice but it’s necessary.
Maybe it was calling everyone who was nice/neutral to me a simp. Like that’s going to make me have a good view of anyone, you wouldn’t be nice if I were someone else.
