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2020-10-24 at 1:09 PM UTC
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2020-10-24 at 1:21 PM UTCI'm up.
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2020-10-24 at 1:38 PM UTCNilly, I have to tell you something. I like âmeth Nilâ. Now let me clarify. I do not like to see people become slaves to a drug, but I think your experiences since you moved out of your Dadâs and started partying, gave you a completely different outlook on life. You seem more introspective and assertive. Iâm sure thatâs always been there but your nihilism stopped it from coming out. Itâs like youâve come out of a shell.
Sounds like youâre slowing down on the meth, I could be wrong. Either way, I like how you are interested in life.đThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2020-10-24 at 1:41 PM UTC
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2020-10-24 at 1:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist Sounds like youâre slowing down on the meth, I could be wrong. Either way, I like how you are interested in life.đ
Well I did try to off my self a few times in the summer and gotvsliced in the face and blacked out from blood loss. Dying is easy and living isn't too serious.
Before going this route, I prefered my solitude, I just got bored. And then overwhelmed. And then let go, you read it tho. Now I have less but feel lighter. Just really fucked up in some areas. Still me, still have my ways.
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2020-10-24 at 1:57 PM UTC....come out of a shell to maybe end up in a cage? I dunno if I like the bargain lol.
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2020-10-24 at 2:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by Nil Well I did try to off my self a few times in the summer and gotvsliced in the face and blacked out from blood loss. Dying is easy and living isn't too serious.
Before going this route, I prefered my solitude, I just got bored. And then overwhelmed. And then let go, you read it tho. Now I have less but feel lighter. Just really fucked up in some areas. Still me, still have my ways.
I've had some interesting times and met interesting people in odd places. Good convos.
Well, when you started posting more frequently, it was mid summer, wasnât it? You were posting kinda âoffâ, but now you seem more clear headed in your posts. Thatâs why I figured you were slowing down. -
2020-10-24 at 2:02 PM UTC
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2020-10-24 at 2:15 PM UTCBeen better fed and as stressful as my friend and his womans toxic drunken misery can be its not too bad. Can sleep soundly.
The shit that drove me crazy un the summer was all the stupid b.s. and police/state really fucking up an odd play cuz I'm so fucking strange.
Tryna stasi style zersetzung a nigga or very inept attempt to either tryn investigate or frame me. I dunno I don't think I will and the weirdness hasn't totally gone away. -
2020-10-24 at 2:20 PM UTCSo when will you know if anything comes of it?
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2020-10-24 at 2:22 PM UTC
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2020-10-24 at 2:24 PM UTCNever heard âmore carrot, less stickâ?
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2020-10-24 at 2:27 PM UTCWell... before the signals and veiled messages were, get a job, go to jail, at least get sober.
Now it's like... some weird recruitment type shit.
Not so much over the top threats or even believable ones... Just a message to be more subtle and maybe consider some options. -
2020-10-24 at 2:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by Nil Well… before the signals and veiled messages were, get a job, go to jail, at least get sober.
Now it's like… some weird recruitment type shit.
Not so much over the top threats or even believable ones… Just a message to be more subtle and maybe consider some options.
At least you see the signs and can respond accordingly. Some donât even see it. -
2020-10-24 at 6:50 PM UTCah man I'm tired of people and their bullshit
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2020-10-24 at 8:39 PM UTC
Originally posted by Technologist At least you see the signs and can respond accordingly. Some donât even see it.
The "consider other options" was interesting.
Lol tech... I didn't get the signs before, I was convinced either police were trying to kill me, or frame me or I was losing my mind.
Least I'm sure I'm sane but will need to measure my recollection of experience against recorded reality. Say a Mic, or cam. Then take notes 10 hours later and compare it to the record. -
2020-10-24 at 8:41 PM UTC
Originally posted by Nil The "consider other options" was interesting.
Lol tech… I didn't get the signs before, I was convinced either police were trying to kill me, or frame me or I was losing my mind.
Least I'm sure I'm sane but will need to measure my recollection of experience against recorded reality. Say a Mic, or cam. Then take notes 10 hours later and compare it to the record.
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