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2019-08-02 at 8:05 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Malice Metro Editiondang ol like tolstoy den I saw zhe wasnznt understindong what ij u ji tryiog to say lden cam to my mind lik a slize of delicoious pitza pie
"AHHHHH, BACH"The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-08-02 at 12:49 PM UTC in Douglas Monks is an addict, and has bipolar disorder...hey spectral long time no UGH
anyways UGH
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2019-06-16 at 5:12 AM UTC in Are Canadians actually good at anything?Good at
1. Explaining their tony hawk pro skater Iv mods every time u hang out because it must be pretty damping to a ginger to have accomplished any sort of activity.. I mean hell.
wyhhyew, it floats inside
Heaven is not a ball of twine
But you seem much tawl to grynd
My big heavy dick
Bent up n all of town
Back to the ups underground
like earth. Land and water and metal and acid. Buildings boats factories planes drones,
bAAA UUbAAAUU AaaaaaaaaAAAAAA
RAHK RAHJ
FuMAGOKThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2015-08-14 at 12:59 AM UTC in Thinking of suicide plans gives me dopamine rushesatleast its dopamineThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-05-10 at 10:42 AM UTC in Anyone here ever been to Coachella ? The gay one?Thanks for reminding me I missed the only descendents show I ever wouldve been able to attend when they played in asbury park nj at the stone pony aka one of 4 amazing music clubs in the country
Mudd club, max's kansas city, stone pony.. uhhhThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-10 at 10:40 AM UTC in Anyone here ever been to Coachella ? The gay one?Descendents played at coachella once
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2019-05-05 at 9:02 PM UTC in Hospital puts me back on MAOIs and BOOMAll my f****** memory comes back since April 23rd, down to the last moment of Consciousness I had before slowly growing catatonic and at the same time developing rabdomiolisis from combining monoamine oxidase inhibitors and research chemical stimulants, I remember I ran through the last benzo prescription the rehab gave me in a couple of days. And then frantically trying to find the hook up that my rehab doctor gave me, apparently I lost the reference on the flight or something and told my mom that my rehab doctor had a colleague right where I was living. She didn't f****** believe me because I was already delirious and benzo withdrawal so she haphazardly find me a shity doctor at the last minute who wouldn't even prescribed me benzos. I spent maybe one or two days binge drinking with kava trying to Quantum Leap and beat time by cheating benzo withdrawal but it just wouldn't work. From the 23rd to the 27th I slept, having Mash on Loop through a streaming service. Since I was so f***** up when I woke up I tried to smoke a cigarette outside of my new home and some old lady was yelling at me saying I couldn't smoke on premises because it was a Housing Development. For some reason I thought I was on bundy and I freaked out. Apparently that next day was spent begging my mom for Fenty Beauty and to try to fill my Gabapentin early. Pass out again woke up in the middle of the night with Gabapentin, despite shoveling dozens of those and baclofen so I still couldn't beat the benzo withdrawal. So I saw the doctor on Thursday and got Subs but by Sunday I couldn't remember anything I kept asking my mom to date and the month and that's when my body started to fail. By Tuesday or Wednesday I think I was in the ICU, where I stayed for a few days with rhabdo. I abused the hospitals IV Ativan and one of the doctors realized I was in severe benzo withdrawal. The rhabdo went away with fluids and the benzo withdrawal curbed with a taper.. Now I'm on a general floor
Maois brought my memory back.
Most of this was audio dictated hopefully if theres nonsense my phone couldnt translate someoke can for me.
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2017-06-12 at 3:33 PM UTC in My Whole Life Consists Of One Moment (& Splooshambo 4)
Originally posted by saltpewter - - - PART I uwuwuwuwuw
I met up with Roshambo at around 3 at the train station. I tried to show him how to play Starcraft 1 because imo it's a superior game to starcraft 2 and LWG. We had some cigars, did a bit of sniffy lining dexmethylphenidate, dadax (xanax from dads) crumbs, and gabepentinoidz. And decided to jam.
After 20 minutes of protodevo garagejazz side A EP, we switched to side B which took from the musical stylings of Anal Cunt. After this we went outside to buy nitrous and Yogi Tea to calm down horrible crack crashes, and along the way I saw the local friendly distributer.
We told him we wanted a 20 of bud, and came back to the park where he was with our groceries. We did 2 cans of nitrous each and I started talking in AUAUAOAOUA language, which scared the elderly black lady who sat next to me, but she liked Shamby, Shamby has boyish charisma. The weed guy couldn't get anyone to pick up, so Shamby gave him his phone (derp move IMO) to text the dealers.
Still, nobody responded, so we waited around for a while, and I had the great idea to offer the guy some focalin. He crushed it up and they both sniffy lined, but I was trying to be slightly on the cautious side. My dad was coming home from work soon so I told Shamby we have to be home by 9, but the high distributer was telling us to hide from my dad and if he calls the cops it doesn't matter, and we should stay over at his place and get fucked up all night.
I was like, Shamby this is the first time you've ever stayed overnight at my house, at least try not to totally crack yourself out, that's why I said we should stop getting high at 7. Shamby decided it would be a good idea to stay at a stranger gangster's house and make my dad even more sketched out, and after repeated convincing he said "I'm talking to him and then leaving, stop taking things so seriously."
I was getting pissed off, because I thought if he was going to stay at my dad's house he should at least be conscious of the rules my dad has, and that I agreed to. I told Shamby to come back in the house or I'm throwing out his pills. I hid his pills earlier for the same reason: I didn't want him to keep my dad all night with the same polysubstance super binges of depravitus ultimatum, so they were put somewhere he wasn't aware of, with his consent.
He follows me back into the house and says "Give me my pills NOW!". and I wasn't sure he was about to hit me so I pulled out a knife to defend myself, but then he said he wasn't going to hit me, so I put it away and admitted I overreacted. I told him I'll give him the pills in the morning, that I'm not doing anything with them, and that it's only to prevent him from binging. He repeatedly demanded pills and I just started ignoring him, then telling him to try to calm down and just hang out.
In full crackapemode this only fueled the mania, and he started saying that if I didn't give him the pills immediately, he'd either call the cops (because I'm preventing him from snorting pharmaceutical coke thats HIS!), or he'll destroy my house and flip everything over looking for it. I kept on telling him no and to calm down, but he got closer to me and I was panicking thinking he was about to hit me.
I grabbed the coke glass closest to me and swung at him with it and it hit him, then he tried to land some blows but I hit him with it two more times until the glass broke on his forehead. It created a huge gaping hole in his forehead and he started saying he was gonna die, and I felt bad for losing my shit at my friend and tried to tell him he'll be ok and it was fucked up that I did that.
He grabs a towel to stop the bleeding and the towel gets completely soaked in blood immediately, and all my floors and walls and sinks get covered with blood. My dad comes in right then and goes into 100% adrenaline mode, calls an ambulance twice, and we argue and talk about WTF JUST HAPPENED in a crazed tone. The ambulance arrives, he's still really high on focalin so he rants about his nose and blood pressure and that he's blind and he's dying, but the EMS people try to tell him he's high AF and it's just a bloody cut.
My dad went with him to the hospital and he had to get 8 stitches, a CAT scan, bloodwork, toxicology. He didn't want to press charges, I guess because he knows I'm his friend, and when mutual agitation turns into a tronko state, and then the other person goes into a tronko state, the combination of tronko and tronko, zimmy and zimmy, ultimately produces the greatest common factor– Bundy. We did tell some girls that we wanted to put our coughgel in our bundy earlier, so perhaps that was the foreshadowing in this cautionary tale about being incessant reckless drug abusers.
My dad and Shamby talked about StarTrek and DEVO, since they're both age 50 at heart, and he's taking Shamby on the train for his mom to pick him up. His parents will probably flip shit at me too, and maybe they'll hate me now. I just lost control in the moment of extreme stress and I hope he doesn't hate me eternally for it.
I gave him my pills back but he lost them and they turned up on my floor, so to block out my crashy feels, and since school is over, I gave into my dopamine compulsions and snorted 60mg focalin with 0.5mg of dadax, just to take the edge off. I'm tweaking like fuck at 4AM, so I'm going to try to make this even more like a HydroIWD kind of endless thought output into glyphs that converge in meaning on multiple subtle but unique and hard-to-represent layers that consist of a linguistic system.
you fucking dick, YOU STOLE 6 OF MY FOCALINS AND MY XANAX
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2019-04-04 at 5:15 PM UTC in Two way balance in the universeheres my knee
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2019-03-28 at 2:26 PM UTC in Been drawing pictures of sexy aliens lately, slight fetish, but good for comics
ok I finished coloring in the transsexual one
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2019-03-22 at 6:15 PM UTC in What happens when you apply spot fix to a comic
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2019-03-22 at 5:36 PM UTC in my brain is a machine
Originally posted by inert_observer and it's cogs are oiled with THC
fuck you. you insult and degrade anyone whos taste in drugs isn't like yours (oh man its ultra exciting talking to one of them o natural elitist fags, its been so long)
your machine sucks because it uses a primitive form of cannabinoid
thc? partial agonist? lel
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2016-01-31 at 4:10 AM UTC in Trianglism passage 1/30/163, 3, the section of three, thee that cannot see willnot see. What can not, isn't and what will not, has already happened. When will future bring to light, the memories of a day once, will not and won't not come again. Trianglism and me, but roshambo and sploo is yet only two. The third is in your mind. You will come to find this happens all the time. Just wait for the infinity fieldThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-03-21 at 1:42 PM UTC in Chatty Cathy Tweakersget him to form a religion like/join trianglism
Sometimes on certain stims id never shut up other times I was so locked in prism i couldnt move except for typing tirnalgismThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-20 at 3:25 PM UTC in Where is the line between being a junkie and not?BTW for anyone that thinks my rehab stint is just eh whatever
I've been in over 30 rehabs in the past 12 months. I was forced into rehab by the psychward at home, and my parents. Long story short, I had one psychotic break on lsd and coke where I tried to cut my stomach open, threw a rock through my window and made my dad write sissy on his stomach and scream like a banshee infront of my house and if he didnt comply I'd throw rocks at him. anyway, I got psychwarded. Despite being stable for a month, my parents convinced them I was paranoid schizo, by mentioning all the times I beat my dad up in the past 10 years, but failed to mention that my dad would get drunk and beat me up starting from age 10 and when I was old enough to defend myself I did. Every time I defended myself my dad would call the cops, tell them I started the fight and that hes an innocent old man and I'd get psychwarded. happened about 20 times from age 13 to 19.
anyways, the hospitals solution was either a)I go down to florida for rehab, get off methadone and be 100 percent sober or b) get to stay on methadone but go to the state hospital longterm (the doc said longterm means anywhere from 6 months to multiple years)
As soon as I got to florida, on april 4th 2018, I was put in a rigorous detox program to get off 210mg of methadone in 7 days using a subutex taper of 12 to 2mg over a week. The withdrawal was MISERY. After a week I was put into that programs PHP track, where I stayed for 2 weeks until I completed and got a certificate of completion (I ythought I was done there, thats all I needed to show the judge and my parents that I'm good. Well, not enough. They sent me to an IOP. On my first day, I bought meth from homeless people near my halfway and stole booze for them and got shitfaced with homeless methies all day. Came home to my halfway at like 10pm. Was good until I was woken up at like midnight. Apparently I vomited all over the room, including all over my face, clothes, even on the halfway houses pet cat. they got butthurt and kicked me out and I got sent to another php where I stayed for like 45 days.
That was the worst so far. Dealing with the post acute withdrawal from methadone, not even knowing they had suboxone maintenance programs. anyway, I started doing ok at this php I was at, doing good on effexor. Laughing and shit.. still was dealiung with painful PAWS… Towards the end of my stay there the doctor suggested I go on an MAOI. I was ecstatic about the idea. He put me on selegeline patch. Turns out the patch doesnt metabolise into meth like the pills do. I didnt know selegeline was non serotonergic, the doc apparently didnt know either, he took me off effexor cold turkey
I started sleeping through group every day ,extremely miserable. One of the therapists was like guys, this guy obviously is suffering. and got me transfered to my first MAT program.
got put on 8mg suboxone a day there and 6mg klonopin. AWESOME.
lasted like 2 days before the junkies there started hating me .I told one dude who was trying to start a fight i would rape him in his sleep, and the staff segregated me by putting me in a house on the IOP side of the compound. completely abandoned except for me. The other patients hated me.. lasted for another day until I got in a fight with some dude.. then his girlfriend hit me. I stood my ground, I was like CMON BITCH HIT ME AGAIN.
anyways, they considered me threatening and kicked me out for assaulting a girl, evem though I just stood there. was baker acted and put into the psychward where I detoxed offsuboxone and klonopin.
This was only my first like 2 months in florida. see all the shit ive been through. Ive been homeless abunch of times down here, ended up with a necrotic tooth infection that almost killed me, a broken jaw from a fight, etc. and all this, and now im sober
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2019-03-20 at 2:55 PM UTC in If you elevate dopamine and norepinephrine levels in your brain...HEY MR. GENERALITIES
HEY
HEYY HEY HEY
HEY HEY THE WORLD IS GREY
EXTRACELLULAR? PRESYNAPTIC?
DAT TRANSPORTER? NET TRANSPORTER?
REUPTAKE INHIBITION? RELEASING?
UNSELECTIVE OR SELECTIVE?
SUBTYPES? D1,D2,D3,D4,OR D5
ADRENERGIO? IMIDAZOLINE PREFERRING RECEPTORS EYY?
BETA adrenergic or beta adrenergi?
do you know how AUTORECEPTORS WORK?
EXPLAIN TO ME WHY AFRIN, an A2 AGONIST, CAUSES VASOCONSTRICTION AND HYPERTENSION?
AND HOW CLONIDINE, AN A2 AGONIST, DOES QUITE THE OPPOSITE?
AND WHY DOES AFRIN SOMETIMES CAUSE HYPOTENSION IN CHILDREN???The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-03-19 at 1:53 PM UTC in Spells that workRecently I started getting into wicca, and a few days ago I came up with a spell called "the cunt directive"
I'm at an inpatient facility and a bunch of the nurses let me take my meds an hour early cause u know, I'm pretty cool.
Anyway a nurse wasn't cooperating with what I wanted so I made this spell
"Cunt directive"
to cast power over those in my path, influence their minds to serve me
"espite your invalid attitude, mind over matter, power over fued. The solution lies within, I figuratively be penetrateth your weak mind and cunt, bring my intentions to the front"
anyways, 2 days later she accidentally gave me an extra dose of subutex. LOL NOW SHE FUCKED UP. I reported this mistake to her superiors and she got fired.
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2019-03-20 at 3:07 PM UTC in Proof snorting wellbutrin on a MAOI is a good idea
Originally posted by GGG Translation:
All is good right now generally okay i just sniffed right before. And I feel pretty ok maybe I should cut out the sniffy linings for a day or so while I conduct a scientifically sound experiment -
1. Does bupropion affect the function of MAOIs (phenylzine)
2. Yes, it increases general stimulation but fucks with certain mechanism
2. Experiment day 1 of nardil I previously inssuflated 200mg
*bupropion (reading previous notes, nardil reduced bupro comedown murder
with stimulation higher affinity trumps all (when referring to NDRI/NDRA)
Nardil (km-0.2-6am) bidding affinity to imidazoline preferring receptors
Hard to compare affinities to a
comparing NDRI
and MAOI is like apples and oranges. Lets try seeing it.
MDOO metabolic phenethylamine (normally inactive activated crossing BBBB by MAORI)
onga B-PEA (>NDRA) reduce DA (>or MRA) nbaylimbis opthar
enthralled BA of 100em -> Significant incase in stimulation
B-phenethylamine reduces release/ inhibits uptake
Bupropion -> 630am subpar DA release
Sooo… Nardil)PEA > Buproion analy sir:
Sa la my rose, w^ (shorthand for snorting wellbutrin does not significantly alter maoi action
of BAEA dopaite release from MAOI metabolic… shen
Mer De MAOs Liperlan in my cave has little allergy often
Conclusion Bupropion does not affect action of MAOUS, therefore,
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2019-03-19 at 5:37 PM UTC in uselss transformatory of pharma means nothingI have mitral valve regurgitation
my only long term consequence of eating 2000 cotton sticks
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2019-03-19 at 3:26 PM UTC in I turned myself in a meth addict, Morty!Riiiickk WHAT IS IT MORTY
RIIIICK I HAVE A HIGHLIGHTER STUCK UP MY BUTT
MoRR*burp*Morty you ff-COUGH-faggotThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
