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2017-05-14 at 9:11 PM UTC in -Bill the CatraLThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-12 at 1:57 PM UTC in Something Broke My Apple TreeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-10 at 9:37 PM UTC in Isn't it weird how psychomanthis turned out?
Originally posted by you um I zoklets most hated mod who sucked every inch of mizleds rock hard 8 inch labia to maintain any sort of moderating position on a dying forum got chased off sanctuary with screenshots about his bowels, admined a victimy titled dead forum run by a horrific tranny and a fat geriatric retard (tdr) then desperately tries to reinvent himself on rdfrn as some pedo weeaboo who never leaves the house. Seems like he tries to latch onto whatever he can to seek an identity. The horrific tryhardness of affectionately naming himself "sophie" breaks the cringe barrier. Definitely ugly and awkward IRL. I don't really know or understand much about higher "internet culture" but it seems if you spend too much time on the internet eventually you become a weeaboo pedophile. Weird but kind of interesting I guess.
So, what went wrong in your life?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-08 at 9:11 PM UTC in weed ruined my life
Originally posted by bron I'm 20, I've been sober for a year now, no drugs/alcohol, not even coffee or paracetamol.
from age 16 -18 i smoked weed regularly, then 18-19 i would smoke everyday, i would also dabble with other shit (acid/mdma) maybe once a month.
start of last year, i started feeling phased out during sober days, having trouble connecting thoughts, bad enough to scare me into abstinence.
within a month i had no ability to think, constant anxiety, memory was shot to shit, total bring fog, social skills of someone dangerously autistic, brain felt as if it was running on 2% power,
and utterly lost sight of what my personality was like prior to the symptoms. i figure i smoked too much weed during a crucial point in brain development and that I've done irreparable
damage.I don't socialise anymore because its embarrassing trying to spit words out at people, only to get a confused response.
to put things in perspective, trying to concentrate long enough to type this post is making my brain ache. though lately I've been having momentary glimpses of clarity, for about an hour every month or so, showing the contrast of how my brain should be functioning is fucking staggering.
has anyone experienced anything similar? or know of anything that could help?
Drink a lot of water. You say you've lost sight of who you used to be, but I'll tell you what, you never really were the person you thought you were in the first place. You are what you do though, so start doing the things the person you want to be would do.
Your brain low on power? You gotta recharge it. Eat better food, and work your mind as of it were a muscle. Put it to work. Figure things out. Solve problems. Create something new.
You are experiencing social issues? Talk to people. Get into conversations. Learn how to better express yourself.
Also don't worry about it, don't worry about out how things are, but know that if you want things to be better you have to make them better yourself, there is no secret, there is no gimmick or trick, you just have to put in the effort to improve yourself and be better.
Good luck, I hope you make your life better.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-08 at 11:03 AM UTC in Would anyone in the Bay Area be wiling to keep me on suicide watch?Oh god, can you imagine the horror of knowing you had Bill Krozby's genes within you?
It's like, if Hitler had any children who had disowned him, how would they have felt? Or the feeling could be the equivalent of knowing you were at high risk of developing early onset Alzheimer's or spontaneous AIDS, somehow. I'm not sure I could live with it. At the very least I would sure as hell sterilize myself as soon as possible.
I can just imagine years down the line his daughter having wondered who her father was for all her life, then on some random alley there's this guy with matted hair, covered in filth, dressed in rags, reeking of feces and urine, with his hair falling out in patches, eyes shooting off in wild directions, skin that looks like he has leprosy, sitting atop a mountain of trash, used needles, gasoline, paint thinner, air duster, jenkem bottles, and every other of the worst drugs under the son.
And as she walks up to hi, through all that filth, degradation, and degeneracy, through the ravages of the years, she has an unnerving suspicion, and she asks, "Doug...Doug...is that you? Dad?"
Then Bill Krozby suddenly freezed for a moment, his mad gaping eyes like black holes, any remnant of humanity long gone, and he..he..
He picks up this newspaper, pulls some of the encrusted fecal matter from his pants and puts it between the sheets, then he folds it, holds it out towards her her, and he asks...
"Would you care for a world famous Bill Krozbydog?"
And Her heart breaks harder than anyone's has ever broken in existence, like the finest vase ever created, a masterpiece renown throughout the world and revered by all, something that the artist spent his entire life working on, had just been bumped into by a deranged drunkard of a cartwheeling cosmic clown that came out of nowhere, slowly watching fall as if it moves at the speed of a cherry blossom, 5 centimeters per second.
And it shatters into infinite pieces. The cries of a thousand lost and tormented souls encapsulating the broken dreams and ravaged lives of kristallnacht.
This, this is Bill Krozby the man.
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-05-08T11:08:58.786439+00:00The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-07 at 5:44 AM UTC in If and only If..
Originally posted by -SpectraL I always feel like I'm dealing with a 10-year old, whenever I read your posts.
thats degrading to 10 year Olds everywhere.
the shit that nigger slathers all over this site is more like a deranged monkey throwing it's shit around haphazardly at the poor, hapless zoo-goers who only want to see some cheap freakshow entertainment...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-06 at 1:16 PM UTC in Best Torture
Originally posted by -SpectraL He's talking about my opening post, sealing up the excrement and piss hole and having the person explode from the inside. Hot spicy foods would cause a larger explosion, and if you're sick on top of all that, even larger.
if an internal explosion is all that is desired, cram a garden hose up the torturee-s asshole, use medical forceps to get a grip on the anal sphincter to position it for a clamp to compress it around the hose, then turn on the flow partially. not fully...or theyll splode too quickly. technically a clamp isnt needed but, depending on the person, if the water flow rate is too low, and their asshole is too well-worn, the backpressure will force the water back out the asshole instead of up into their lower digestive tract. that usually can be remedied by turning up the flow rate to full then (again...usually) the water will flow so quickly that the asshole cant release enough of it.
what will happen is eventually the pressure will build, somewhere in the lower alimentary canal a membrane will burst from the excess pressure, releasing the water into the various internal cavities (thoracic, abdominal) to build in that/those cavities. depending on the person...eventually the pressure will exceed the bodys own ability to contain it and somewhere an external membrane (skin) will burst.
theyll be dead before that happens, unless the water flow is set all the way up, because at the lower flow rate they die because their lungs cant function.
for the creative folks...various types of pumps can be used to apply assorted fluids and chemicals in place of water.
ive never done this before, nor would i ever. official statement.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-03 at 6:03 PM UTC in The Forever War
Originally posted by benny vader i ate a lot of rice. now let me give you advice on rice farming.
open your advice receptacle up bitch ……..
stephen king himself and phillip k dick both have mentioned on numerous occasions that the best way to become a better author is to expand your horizon and read different kind of books as well as different kind of styles with in the genre you are trying to write yourself.
your point is null...The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-02 at 10:47 PM UTC in The Forever WarThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-01 at 3:55 PM UTC in Being an alcoholic sucks
Originally posted by -SpectraL Keep up the good work. Comes time, at the end of the road, you have to face facts. Alcohol is poison. That's how you get drunk, by poisoning your bloodstream. And not only are you slowly killing yourself, you hurt all those around you, and you destroy any chance you have of a happy life.
I appreciate it, I don't want to quit completely just not drink everyday. I live in a college town and everyone drinks and smokes weed and I'm not allowed to smoke weed because of my legal situation so it kind of makes me feel like an outcast when I meet someone and they want to smoke weed and I love to smoke but haven't done it since december 4th and even before that for the last couple years I've been restricted.
I think its fine to drink at shows or social situations, but the drinking alone is a killer for me since I'm almost always by myself.
the nurse I hang with works a lot of hours and is always busy with being a nurse at the hospital, so the only time we hang out is when she's off and she drinks heavily for a girl and when I go over I will with her. But thats probably not that big of a deal since I only hang with her.
I'm going to go see a show in a week with my neighbor and I intend on drinking there with him because I go to shows to party and get jolly like everyone else since I don't go out often.
But yeah I'm on a light dose of gabapentin for the next few days and my buddy hooked me up with it yesterday but before I met up with him I felt so out of wack I didn't want to get out of bed.
And you're right about it hurting people around me, I've had so many people that actually cared and loved me that I basically told them to fuck off while messed up.
One of the things that made me decide I need to cool it, is the other day I called my dad to say whats up (I don't normally see my parents) and the conversation wasn't going the way I wanted it to, so I argued with him and said things I later felt bad about. He hung up on me and I was pretty pissed off that he did. But I realize id hangup on anyone that talked to me like that as well so I understand it. I text him the next day and he didn't reply back at all. And I actually love my mom and dad a lot but we've always been butting heads and thats why I moved out when I was 17. But it wasn't because they were like junkies/alcoholics/dead beats... but I'm just different than them and they very conservative, which is fine and I should get over it they are always going to be the same way but yeah my "frothiness" definitely comes out when I binge drink.
I'm not always upset when I drink its just at some point I will be really shitty to people and they didn't see it coming.
I thought about picking up vaping or something like that, but I feel like that would be kind of lame and I just need to drink coffee and smoke bud in a couple years when I can.
When I turned 21, I actually didn't drink for a couple of years but I was heroin addict and when I quit that I just drank. And its like goddamn do you always have to have something lolThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-01 at 12:21 PM UTC in Serious Question For Billy GoatWell I have it on pretty good authority that he originally named the site after his fucked up brown finger (the damaged one), so I guess he decided to change it after everyone kept mispronouncing it. Evolution of language I suppose.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-01 at 3:39 AM UTC in ☂
Originally posted by Darth Beaver Because it's all you can afford and it's the only thing you understand. Does that pretty much cover your very good reasons?
youre an idiot. you keep harping on old shit being inferior to new shit because of its age. false. in the majority of cases the new made-in-chinkland garbage is far inferiorThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-01 at 3:06 AM UTC in shut upsuck a nigger dick
its so much nicer typing on a PC keyboard than a goddamed auto-correct piece of shit mobile device that is constantly auto-correcting words that dont need to be auto-corrected.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-04-29 at 5:54 PM UTC in Theres no use to it all.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-04-28 at 5:15 PM UTC in this fat girl starts making jokes about my dick size after I turn her down but she's never seen my dick.
Originally posted by Bill Krozby bill the cat is going to be on you like a cheap suit…
butt i guess more power to you…
there really isn't a point to berating someone who is already doing it to themselves. that's when you just sit back and enjoy the show.
I can't think of anything more berating than a guy saying he takes it in the ass, on purpose...AND enjoys it.
I really don't have anything to add to that...you can't get any lowerThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-04-26 at 2:40 AM UTC in Stuff you remember from Totse/ZokletThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-04-25 at 10:49 PM UTC in Internet-Weed-Dude is IN THE HOUSE!!!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-04-25 at 9:21 PM UTC in In the past 2 years...I've been through the craziest shit.
I actually DID get really fucked up on methamphetamine. I have tens of thousands of pages (probably) of stuff I wrote.
I never really was a meth-head back on zoklet or totse. I was a highschool stoner on totse. and an opiate addict on zoklet. The last 3 years of zoklet I was on prescription klonopin and I had no idea how badly it was fucking me up. 3, nearly 4 years of my life are the type of hazy blur that drinking too much... until you black out kind of are... when reminiscing the following day. and periodically having flash-backs of new, mortifying memories. That all started coming to an end the last year or so of zoklet.
So I decided to become a full-fledged , insane, "delusional" methamphetamine addict to help with the benzo withdrawals. instead of sitting on benzo-buddies in hypochondria heaven.
The point of this thread... I've had no one to listen to me. While the most mind-blowing epiphanes' , realizations, possibly delusional discoveries about the mortal coil in which we all reside. have built up. all to the point now. that i've found this site. and a potential outlet. emotional and intellectual. where people , at least some of you will probably read what i have to say.
and i don't know where to begin.
Vizier, you were always a good guy and I'm seriously sorry, man. I thought it was all in good fun at the time. and i actually mean that. I never would have wished you harm. in any form. I just thought what I was doing was funny. or rather. I thought it was funny WHILE not being morally wrong. maybe that's the case. maybe it's not. who knows. either way. I feel bad about it and I'm sorry.
everyone else: i made up that shit about talking vizier out of suicide on zoklet. to piss him off. and i took it a bit too far. it was a cowardly move... really.
the truth is i was sick of whore to a chainsaw and mayweather making fun of me. at such a down point in my life. and i wanted to , cowardly, like i said, deflect that type of attention onto someone else. and for that i deserve to be forced to suck dicks at gun-point until i die of dick poisoning.
i love you all.
especially -SpectraL.
mikeThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-04-25 at 9:08 PM UTC in Internet-Weed-Dude is IN THE HOUSE!!!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-04-25 at 5:55 AM UTC in Windows Fanboys - I need your help"ports" here doesn't refer to IP ports, but like "physical" ports, serial, usb, etc.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
