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2019-12-07 at 3:51 AM UTC in trying to induce psychosis/serotonin syndrome/did i have a stroke
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2019-12-07 at 3:46 AM UTC in Mass shooting in Pensacola
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2019-12-07 at 3:45 AM UTC in being an artist, a choice?being an artist, that is, someone who conveys the supreme quality of the esthetic image as itis first conceived in their mind, is not a choice. i view anyone who has a compulsion or otherwise spends a ridiculous amount of time creating something that will convey an intense emotion or memory, or something that will help people in some way as an artist. these people are either born with this trait or something happens to you to make you anxious and weird and sometimes mean and angry and sad and anxious and sleep and they make you stick knives and needles in your arms. but not all angsty weird people are artists either, some of them are just junkies. those kinds of people are usually content just doing their drug of choice and then doing something really dumb people do like watch family guy for 12 hours or just keep talking and never shut up and nothing makes sense.
there aren't many happy artists though, most of them are impostors and their art fucking sucks. anyway, this girl i work with is a total fucking normie, but since it's the "popular" thing to do with her younger crowd she goes to festivals and "drops acid" (like half a tab) or "does mushrooms" (1.2 g) and she dresses up in elaborate costumes for these festivals and stuff and dresses kind of eccentrically and is one of those people that like always puts their hand on you unnecessarily when they talk to you. plus she drinks alcohol and smokes weed so today i was high at work and for some reason we were talking and i called her a fucking normie and she got pissed and was like I CANT BELIEVE YOU JUST SAID THAT but it's true. i can see into her future, 5 years from now she will be happily married with some faggot living at the top of yuppie hill in goddamn downtown, married and drug free and only has friends over for drinks.so i called her a fucking normie again and she called me a weirdo and i was like well look at my name lol.
but all this leads me back to the point. there is something special about an artists life or conscious, it is unique, different to most people who only seem to consume, and that quality is fuckin golden. its worth more than ANYTHING. worth more than sex, worth more than being rich, worth more than showing off to your fancy fake friends, worth more than having 200 african kids on another continent working for your comfort while you fuckin rack up money at the mall. while you are being shown what to consume and how to feel about it, the artist is continuously perturbed and anxious. it may take them many decades of suffering and practice before they finally (if they ever do) discover their method of bringing new art to the world.
people can also transition in and out of this state. factors like health and substance use can effect it dramatically and unpredictably. -
2019-12-07 at 2:58 AM UTC in trying to induce psychosis/serotonin syndrome/did i have a stroke
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2019-12-07 at 2:58 AM UTC in trying to induce psychosis/serotonin syndrome/did i have a strokei was doing nitrous too, only maybe 5 canisters over the night or something though. and i smoked a little DPT freebase but i had to off foil so i was like nah fuck that because all i use is my vaporgenie now
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2019-12-07 at 2:57 AM UTC in trying to induce psychosis/serotonin syndrome/did i have a strokeI slept 6 hours in 4 nights and on the last night consumed 120 mg MDA and repeatedly smoked DMT for a few hours. stayed up all night, couldn't sleep, hit up the tek 9 for a small line. slept all night. woke up and had to work so did a small bump. came home and chilled and just took a little diclaz and weed.going to sleep so long tonight and i've been eating tons of healthy food all day cuz i look like a fucking weirdo (tee hee) plus i'm paranoid i'm developing an abscess and i don't want my face cut open.
anyways
when i was smoke dmt part of my body would become extremely numb and tingly and "paralyzed" although i was pretty much paralyzed already from the dmt so i might not have known. it was mostly over the left side of my chest and abdomen and left side of my head. it didn't persist at all after the dmt wore off. -
2019-12-03 at 6:31 PM UTC in lolThe funniest part is they had no idea he had a tampon in and he’s high as fuck and they’re just getting him fuckin loaded on benzos then after that is when he shits it out lol
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2019-12-03 at 6:30 PM UTC in my neighbor thought i was cute and cool for being an emo kid
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2019-12-01 at 11:35 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
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2019-12-01 at 11:34 AM UTC in Is Morocco worth visiting?
Originally posted by G That's exactly how percentages work when based on facts, idiot lol. You sound mad son ?!
when based on facts? are you saying there are different rules for percentages that are not based on fact? you fucking suck at talking shit online and just keep coming with this "u sound mad" and "projecting" and every little standard generic thoughtless "comeback" you can think of, as if you think we are having a competition to see who can remember the most of a list of boring and cliche bullshit that gets passed around the internet. it's fucking boring to argue with you because of this.
you don't know shit about math or women or following a coherent train of thought and its really disappointing. you're a fucking npc who has no ability to convey a rational idea, you just spew total bullshit because you're intellectually lazy and you know that if you reply with something thats either nonsensical or ludicrous enough that people can't argue with it because they can't even nail down what you're saying. that doesn't mean you won or outsmarted anyone though, it just means you're lazy or perhaps very delusional -
2019-12-01 at 11:26 AM UTC in It’s like 8 fucking pm there and shei just finished fucking her. it was dank. after i brought her to completion 3 times, for the fourth i got a vibrator out and pressed it to her clit forcefully and when she orgasmed i held her there and held the vibrator forcefully into her clit and held her down with my other arm to prevent her from squirming out of my grasp. she cried a little bit after but afterwards we did some dabs and i told her im sorry, like kind of, but not really because i like seeing her totally helpless like that and she knows it. at this she kind of laughed a little bit but i grabbed her wrists and told her its no laughing manner (i was of course joking but it's this little thing we have)
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2019-12-01 at 11:20 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
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2019-12-01 at 11:19 AM UTC in Is Morocco worth visiting?
Originally posted by G No only the Persian ones from my 3 visits the % of cultivated bush to bare or unruly is about 87% well manicured shrubbery. Stop projecting son.
thats not how percentages work you fucking nimrod
and you can't just say "projecting!" and have it be true, especially after that stupid ass american pie bullshit you just said in your last post. its pretty obvious when someone starts taking on that tone and uses phrases like "lots of vagina available" that they are attempting to overcompensate for something, because men who have had sex know that there are things you have to do to get it (not trying to imply any manipulation here, just that people generally do other things together before they have sex, even if it is just one night at a bar chatting.) so when someone overtly attempts to make it sound like fucking girls is just as simple as going to the grocery store and grabbing a couple, we know it's bullshit because thats just not how it works. granted you may have the occasional slutty exception to this, but i know that you are not good looking/rich/whatever enough for that type of attitude to just arise naturally in you because so many girls want you. so it must be fake.
also i bet you have fucked like at least twice as many girls as me, and i'm fine with that because you probably fuck whatever nasty monday night football whores are at the local brewpub after the game every thursday and thats not really my style -
2019-12-01 at 10:16 AM UTC in It’s like 8 fucking pm there and shehow the hell should i know
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2019-12-01 at 10:15 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
Originally posted by Poast Guess I never considered that.
"Toys Die Easy." Lol. That guy obviously hasn't met SENTRY. It's easy to write something on a graf wall at a bar and cover your face. You don't have the stamina to gain real infamy with a pen. Ask my buddy OMGPLZDNTBAN, he'll prolly make you a 100% custom lolcat for your trouble. Because legends are forever.
lol how did you never consider it when it was so obvious in the OP and in my replies? you were having a totally different conversation where you already predetermined what it was you thought i (should be?) saying and just decided to write about that instead? why do people do that? is it too difficult to actually read and process something? but then why pretend? just take a break or something ffs... -
2019-12-01 at 9:25 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
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2019-12-01 at 9:22 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
Originally posted by Rrr I fucking knew you were greenplastic by how you write, but I wasnt sure until rn
lol yea, i wasn't really trying to hide it or anything, i just got high on mda one night and decided it would be funny to make an account called fucking weirdo
plus hold on im about to post some more -
2019-12-01 at 9:18 AM UTC in living life on ur own terms
Originally posted by Poast It's fine. Not trying to preach god because I'm not a believer myself, just saying it's as probable as anything else in the grand scheme of things, that true ascension is possible, and that chance/karma is actually something far more real and eternal than we can possibly understand. Believe what makes you comfortable.
i feel like everything i wrote went straight over your head. first off, no one said anything about god or karma so idk what you're replying to there. next, "ascension" is extremely ambiguous and you don't seem to offer any more specific of a definition as to what exactly you mean by that and also i never talked about anything like that that i know of, so again i am unsure how to reply to this.
then you say "believe what makes you comfortable" and it seems like you put those two quotes of mine next to each other to try to point out a discrepancy in my logic or something.
the point of the thread and my subsequent posts in it was its better to be uncomfortable sometimes (maybe almost all the time) and have a more engaging experience with life, even if while you're doing it you're kind of like "this sucks" sometimes. -
2019-12-01 at 5:30 AM UTC in Homemade detox center for $find people who are nodding out on the street and take them to your room and lock them in and make them give you $100 to be let out
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2019-12-01 at 5:27 AM UTC in interesting(not really)
my previous life was full of sunshine and psychedelics and beautiful but also astonishingly terrifying things. but now, from this vantage point it's difficult to imagine. now it's a lot of weird shit, exploration further into my thoughts and identity. i listen to all of the noise i can (isolated from each other, not all at once). its creepy and weird and cold but the story i tell myself about myself with has been changed in a manner that makes me want to listen to this
