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2018-11-03 at 7:58 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 timesLandslide
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2018-11-03 at 7:56 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
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2018-11-03 at 7:53 AM UTC in Am I right in guessing that this is where a lot of you feel most yourselves?
Originally posted by mmQ Well this is a bad example but let's say for example i did an open mic comedy night at some low key venue, my set would probably involve vulgarity and fucked up humor, most of which likely wouldn't get much positive response. But it all starts somewhere and at the end of the day you learn your audience and your audio learns you. One thing I need to come to better terms with is realizing not everyone will all think as funny as I am at times. So when you're talking to a small audience, you might only get a small handful thst really laughs and gets it, while most just kinda wonder what the hell "why is this even funny?" And I can't blame them–it's not their cup of tea and they might be more in line with a Jim gaffifan or Brian Regan 'clean humor.'
Well it's not just here I don't fit in, I fit no where . I'm just different...good or bad doesn't much matter. I just am. I know what you mean with the stand up, I'm an actress was a theater major in college. I can blend anywhere if need be... That's what it taught me how to be fake convincingly but that's not me anymore. What you see here, is what I am in life, what I am on stage or singing and what I am as a mom and employee.
I grew up in a living facade... Rich town perfect lawns gorgeous houses...the outside was beautiful. If you drove thru it appeared like the perfect place. Behind closed doors was dysfunction junction, in Every home. Everyone knew but no one talked of it.
The kids I went to school with wore Gucci and had coach bags and Louis vitan (spelling) my two friends dad was CEO at L'Oreal.. My other friends dad assistant to Gucci, my other friends mom was in Congress so I have met and known well the dukakusas, John gaddi, bill Bradly, and many many more. I travelled the world my mom was a flight attendant. But back to my point... I wore boxers and a tee-shirt everyday to school. I ended all bullying in my school by sophomore year. I still never fit in but what's funny is I was voted captain of three sports and got most popular in the year book. Go figure
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2018-11-03 at 7:25 AM UTC in Am I right in guessing that this is where a lot of you feel most yourselves?Not me I always feel like I don't fit in
Originally posted by mmQ To an extent its easier for me my more sick and twisted side myself, baby mutilation rape jokes and sexual banter that I wouldn't normally talk like in day to day life, at least to a portion of my family. The friends I have are similar in my style of humor and so making those comments and jokes are fairly commonplace and I'm fortunate for that. It's nice to have a bro at work that I can say "goddamn that new server is fucking hot I sear to god I'm gonna fucking end up pounding her asshole downstairs at the end whether she likes it or not." and then he laughs and gets it- no hint of "Jesus fuck mq did you just say that??
That's why I say I'm not too dissimilar here than I am in the real world and that's because I don't really have any reason to be. Obviously I have to how more discretion in face to face human interaction but I'm at that point where if nothing else, forums like this have helped me develop a stronger confidence in carrying my abstract sense of humor to real life. -
2018-11-03 at 7:24 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
Originally posted by mmQ Well that's the difference between people like us. Anonymity can certainly be important especially on the internet especially on sites like this because folks want to exploit it for any number of reasons. Once you give it up I guess you're just more susceptible to repercussions and it's more ammo for people who don't like you to use against you. I've personally never posted nudes or even sent them but at they very least with 7 billion folks floating around the significance of one unbecoming pic or whatever the case means next to nothing to me. I known who I am, I know what I look like. I've shared my faults and issues on here, and most people have a general idea of what they think I am despite probably only knowing the half of it.
In a strange way most people here have ultimately been respectful and there's only a handful of people who've tried to use my "openness" against me but I am not surprised by that and revealing PI that comes with the territory i guess. The worst things that have really been done to me is sploo posting "haha your dead is dead" on Facebook posts of mine that my family reads. I'm more embarrassed for him than it ever does for me. I can simply explain to them who he is, his style of inciting reactions and trying to ruffle feathers. But at the end of the day I hardly think twice about it.
The more you expose yourself the more opportunity there is for those who dislike you to use that against you, but you'll notice the trend that most people willing to do that, have remained very anonymous and secret and of course that makes it that much easier to say hateful shit knowing you don't have much in the way of retaliation, and in my case I just don't really care about retaliating. I have many photos of members that have been entrusted to me because I've never once posted things that people trust me not to. As time goes on I'm more hesitant to be open about things but at the same time it's just kind of in my nature to be real, even here. Love me or hate me I am who I am and I'm confident in that.
Well my face was never in them I at least was that careful but frankly I didn't care. I'm not dumb I figured that would occur. I know at least 50 actual identities of more. Spoke to almost all on the phone because of the alts playing games. I wouldn't talk much otherwise.
So whatever... I'm out there all over the place between memes of me etc etc. I got my photobucket deleted after 4 years of their crap, I paid them back with the memes of them, but mine weren't like their's. Mine were at least funny not mean... Well one was but I apologized and had good reason. I don't attack others in physical appearance it's so plebeian... I don't attack ever and try to change insults against myself into jokes. I don't like fighting -
2018-11-03 at 7:03 AM UTC in fuck thisOh maybe not in this thread but I onky see like two tonight
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2018-11-03 at 6:50 AM UTC in fuck thisThe dhers ran away. What did y'all do to them? Did you hurt their feelings and now they are crying in the corner with cookies and milk? Lol
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2018-11-03 at 6:49 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
Originally posted by mmQ Hey I appreciate that, and while I don't think I'm brilliant in most ways I guess one thing I at least feel confident in in my ability is to just try and be rational and not overreact to things to the best of my ability. Like telling me I'm a fucking retard and have zero clue what I'm saying, isn't really going to affect me and it's certainly not going to go get me to say "oh yes you're right, I thought I was maybe right but now that you called me an idiot I must be an idiot and I must be wrong."
Can you imagine court cases being like that? Both parties just calling each other idiots over shit they say but offering no substantial reason why. It's like the least effective way to get someone to see your point of view
Sure in the heat of the moment we all do it but there's a very basic concept behind convincing people they might be wrong and it starts with understanding their point of view and being able to counter that with your own point of view–analyzing the differences and discussing or admitting where one or another could be wrong or looking at something skewed without truly trying to see another side of it. It's that blind rage, set in stone unwilling to bend attitude that basrlically does the opposite in terms of invoking actual change.
Like I personally don't mind me being wrong, especially when it's articulately and reasonable explained to me–I am able to absorb those views and reflect on them even if I still don't necessarily agree with them. Sometimes being wrong is just as important as being right. Obviously people change their minds about things and learning effective forms of debate and discussion to actually incite some of those changes of heart can make a big impact, much more so then yelling contest and piss matches.
If you know who you are, no one will ever be able to tell you youre not. I'm the same. On dh they said I was immoral. I asked them who exactly wrote this infamous book on morals. My morals are different than their's. If I was to post a nude or send one, as I used to do, that's on me. I've done that cuz I don't care. Normally they were private and posted public and I got the brunt, which was to be expected it is the internet... Those same people would turn around and post others personal info phone numbers jobs homes etc. I was one of those people it was done to. I mean they called child services on me. What's funny is I as well knew all of their info but I didn't post it. I wouldn't, because my morals tell me that to try to hurt others is wrong bottom line. No matter what they have done to me. The minute I allow any other person to get me angry enough to do so, I've lowered my standards and they won -
2018-11-03 at 6:24 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
Originally posted by mmQ Maybe to a degree. He's certainly quite liberal and for whatever reason that's generally associated with a more emotional view of things, but in his defense he's an outgoing fellow, does volunteer work, tends to have a positive attitude outlook abojt things and at the end of the day i personally respect someone more like that can't realize the major issues going on in the world and at least try to see the good in things, in peole, even if those peole may seemingly not deserve it. I think it takes integrity to be like that, especially when you can try and come up with solutions to issues that can be more of a compromise if nothing else. When extremism is involved it practically negates any ability to find realistic solutions what with the current division in beliefs and attitudes toward what's going on in our world for the simplest matters to the grandest of matters.
You're like fucking brilliant BTW. Everything you have written I'm like "right on, totally " I'm saying it out loud so that's kind of silly but anyway thought I'd say that -
2018-11-03 at 6:18 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
Originally posted by Tommy Lund Perfect sense. It is better to not know there is an apple, than to know there is a fucking great tasting one out there somewhere.
In a sense yeah... But there are always those people that find the apple and are inherently intelligent enough to know it's not poison but a fucking great tasting apple.
I think its important to know as much as you can and learn everyday but learning comes in a million different forms. Books are one... Yes. Experience is probably the best and there are many in between.
Higher education or any major won't ever be a substitute for actually working and learning in what ever area it is, real world. You can read a book about how to ride a bike but until you do... You have no idea if you will be able to. -
2018-11-03 at 6:11 AM UTC in several notes about self awareness
Originally posted by mmQ There are so many thousands of reasons why people get sober, from the spectrum of personal choice to legal consequences to health issues and everything in between. And there's just as many reasons why people continue to not stay sober. What was it for you, your breaking point, of you will, thst allowed you or motivated you to do it and follow through?
I saw finally what it was doing to people I loved. THEY LOVE me. I didn't love me. I had to realize their pain and try to see myself as they did. Now I do. I see where I lack and don't. Right after I got sober I had the absolute most horrific two years of my life. Yet I didn't go back. At that point I knew I won. I knew who I was what I was about... I saw clearly for the first time. I started drinking at 11 drugs at 14 and was very functional for most of my life that way. -
2018-11-03 at 6:07 AM UTC in several notes about self awareness
Originally posted by mmQ I mean at the end of the day everyone can bitch. It's easy. From as simple as "fuck I don't wanna be at work this fucking sucks" and you just kinda angrily go about day, pushing people away from you bevause why would people want to associate themselves with that. What I hear the most is people bitching in a variety of mediums and its just always verbatim.
>I'm mad about this today fuck it's always the same shit
>I'm mad at this group of people for so and so reasons and here are the reaskns
>I fucking hate that this keeps happening and I blame someone or a group for it happening.
But no solutions. Made at an ongoing situation at work? Step up and hamdle DAT. Address the issue, it's amazing what a mature respectful chat can do between two people with mutual frustrations.
Mad about larger scale things? Realize what you can and can't do to try and find solutions. As the scale grows larger so does the ability to find resolution but both parties continuing on with angers isn't gonna bring any type of solution and typically just exasperated it. That's where group meetings, open and honest, disxussion, can actually do SOMETHING to at least catalyze a chance for the better for all parties.
Too often than not people just want to be mad, for whatever reason, with no fucking idea of what they wish to see happen to remedy that. It's like at that stupid old AA saying "accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can, and courage to know the difference.
There's really no benefit to hating shit if it just harbors in you and you never do anything about it except just keep talking about how much it hates you without ever being willing to hear outside perspective which you instantly dismiss because you personally want to keep keep harboring hate.
Exactly. Complain complain but never a solution. They want to complain. Coming up with a solution or meeting half way or simply being understanding and kind about things, are much easier to do, I think but people want to make mountains out of mole hills. They despise one another over differing viewpoints. Viewpoints that they have no control over the outcome of anyway. They complain about the lives of others, the way others choose to live their lives which doesn't even effect them anyway. I don't get it -
2018-11-03 at 6:03 AM UTC in several notes about self awareness
Originally posted by Glokula's Homabla inb4 i failed another drug test cuz im a junkie should i off myself for real this time?
Get sober...im serious I am a total fuck up. I did it. If I did it believe me ANYONE can. I mean anyone. Really
And if youre being facetious or messing with op or what not than ignore what I just said Lol -
2018-11-03 at 5:59 AM UTC in several notes about self awareness
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2018-11-03 at 5:58 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
Originally posted by Tommy Lund I wish I knew Spanish or Portugeese, I have friends living both places and they seem to love it there.
Book learning is better than no learning. 😉
Not really... It's like knowing there is a path to utopia, knowing how to get to the path but once there forgetting to walk. If you never knew of it in the first place, you would not have had to waste the time. Then there are some that just stumble upon it, and without any knowledge follow the path and arrive there.
IDK weird analogy but it made sense to me... I think it did. I'll prob have to read it again later and decided lol -
2018-11-03 at 5:38 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
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2018-11-03 at 5:36 AM UTC in several notes about self awareness
Originally posted by Sudo This is literally the best medium for it
Why? You'd be better off saying it in the mirror. At least you could keep some of the negativity down. If you feel this way then you notice it, there for you are one of the few that has it in your power to do something better. Or just come here and bitch. Or both js -
2018-11-03 at 5:34 AM UTC in I masturbated 10 or 11 times
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2018-10-31 at 4:10 PM UTC in FUCK YOU
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2018-10-31 at 3:19 PM UTC in FUCK YOU