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Dark Matter
[keratinize my mild-tasting blossoming]
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal
I wish there was a way to draw them all to a specific location like a pot and then flush it down the toilet
Fuck your flea holocaust.
Precisely how many fleas do you plan on killing?
6,000,000 by chance?
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Fucking crouton salad niggas
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2019-10-15 at 3:35 AM UTC
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Animal facts thread
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2019-10-15 at 1:23 AM UTC
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Anybody got any goals?
Originally posted by Technologist
Diet,
Just because it wasn’t for you, doesn’t mean it’s not right for others. I know plenty of LPNs who love their job
Hi mommy :)
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Yeah I was trying to make this a serious thread. I was hoping at least a person or two would do the workbook stuff. I was surprised how much i got out of that.
I guess Ill try to get it back on track.
Havent used heroin or anything since November 30th last year. Down to 42mg methadone. Even forgot to take it for the last 2 days. lol.
Blood pressure is down to just "not great" numbers. Im down to 341 lbs from 385 in march- according to my bluetooth digital scale. The Zoloft seems to be helping a bit, but im at the lowest dose. Still dont feel fantastic, but i feel a lot less awful if that makes sense. Havent sold antiques in 2 or 3 months, and let all my connects dry up since i didnt have the willpower to delete them outright.
Ive been talking to a bunch of people every day and walking with my neighbor, dragging him to meetings. Just getting out and doing stuff. Getting a lot more hopeful. Way more grateful, present. I think I mentioned before the homeless guy I chased down. I also went out in the backyard the other day to rub the cats belly while she flops from side to side on the driveway (the only things she gets excited about are food and Flops), and then I saw this little strawberry plant id potted a couple years back. There was just this one tiny wild strawberry, shiny like a juul (fuckin lanny)...perfectly formed. Smelled great. And I could feel the sunshine, and take a big breath of air. Its so fucking easy to get mired in feeling like dogshit. But each day can have a little zen moment like that, if you retrain your mind.
We're all actually so fucking lucky. Most here are of at least average intelligence -= despite evidence to the contrary. You can breathe and walk and eat. You're likely not a grotesque monster. You have clean drinking water and a place to stay.
It feels like the end of an acid trip kind of. I realize how everything ive done for so long, isnt in line with my values at all. I thought to make connections with people, to be more of a man, I needed to be scary and violent and do risky fucked up shit. I thought i couldnt handle life so I crammed food in my face and took all the drugs i could afford.
But im actually a really good dude. Any time in my life when its come down to it, in extreme moments, Ive done the right things. Its the more subtle grey areas of morality that i really lost myself. But ive kind of come to believe that i can have a different life. I cant quite see it yet, but i feel it. I can be in shape, and feel good about myself. I dont need drugs to get through life. God knows they didnt do anything to make me feel better at the end. I can use all this bullshit to be a better person. Kind of like a near death experience...it just changes your perspective on everything. When you begin to see all the treads connect, and understand that all the different manifestations of dysfunction all stem from a lack of balance, fear, unhappiness, inability to confront life head on.....it reframes the way you do everything. Everything is a choice.
Who "you" are is just a collection of stories you tell about yourself, loosely related to experiences youve had. Being beaten by your father doesnt make you a broken alcoholic. Losing a significant other to cancer doesnt mean youre afraid of intimacy. Going to prison doesnt mean youll always be an outsider. Having a leg amputated doesnt mean you need to lower the bar for yourself. Getting dumped doesnt mean youre unlovable. Its all just fucking stories. Of course actualizing so your life falls in line with your values is a bit more work, but you can stop repeating those mantras to yourself at any time. Its pretty fuckin cool.
Anyway...I feel better. Coming up on a year off dope. Then ill be off methadone by probably end of February. Hopefully ill be below 300 by that time too, if not sooner.
Thing is, its so easy to get hung up and obsessed over timetables and stuff. But things mean so much more when you have to work and struggle for them. Nobody gives a fuck when someone just gets what they want for no reason. Theres a reason that NCOs whove had to grind for their promotions...are more respected than other officers. Theres a reason that people applaud and cry when an 80 year old finally gets their diploma. People love underdogs. People love to be reminded of how to be strong and not give up.
Being unhappy and not working to change is just slow death. Simple. If you died in 50 years exactly the same as you are now....would you be happy with that? I probably wouldnt. If you have the ability and even an inkling that you want a better life for yourself, but you arent taking any steps to actualize it, its cowardice pure and simple.
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Originally posted by Bill Krozby
thats a pretty big dick. Similar to mine, but not mine. My mushroom tip is bigger than that, but my mushroom tip is still smaller than my shaft
Your dick look like a Chernobyl side effect.
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aldra
JIDF Controlled Opposition
Trump gets impeached, flies into a rage and punches Bernie in the stomach so hard that he literally coughs out his heart
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2019-10-11 at 9:26 PM UTC
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Member's Crossword Puzzle
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Originally posted by Bill Krozby
Tldr
Unlike you I am an expert speed reader and can quickly process vast quantities of information.
This article is about how a man installed a firepit and Adirondack chairs in his backyard.
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Originally posted by Narc
i mean i know that aint getting me off the hook but it definitely makes more sense when i think about it.
Originally posted by Narc
im pretty sure 8 year olds dont make out with each other so im seriously thinking this girl has been abused by somebody like before tonight. as in by someone else. i mean if that is the case and this kid has come at me as a result of what somebody else has previously done to her, doesn't that kinda make me at least not the worst bad guy here? dunno if that actually makes any sense to anyone or if you get what i mean
Atypical pedo rationale & justification- "the kid 'wanted' it", "she kneeew what she was doing."
^ Yah, I strongly suggest you try running this BS by the authorities- dumbfuk. She's a straight up CHILD & I bet dollars 2donuts you didn't stop at kissing her.
You are a sik fuk-- if she was my kid, i'd straight-up shank your fuking juglar.👍🏻
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2019-10-11 at 3:19 AM UTC
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Eurasians are the master race
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal
Literally it does.
Go on facebook or look up groups of Eurasians/hapas.
You keep pointing to one definition of the word, which isn't the one I'm talking about in this thread.
OH if its on Facebook it must be true
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2019-10-10 at 11:59 AM UTC
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Bump when high
Originally posted by Technologist
Wait I’m confused. I’m wayyy old compared to these kids. My son is 22.
50 is the new 14.
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Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal
I don't even leave my house or socialize
by definition I can't be MKULTRA'd
and I willingly live in fantasy land and I wouldn't have it any other way
Exactly. You're exposed to media 24/7. You're the poster boy for MKULTRA. And you deny it vehemently because you've been programmed to. It's a conspiracy theory, Hikki! You forgot your tinfoil hat and now you're one of them! Quickly, castrate yourself so you can get rid of the testosterone! It's the only way to losen MKULTRA's grip on you!
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Obbe
Alan What?
[annoy my right-angled speediness]
https://www.businessinsider.com/south-park-creators-issue-mock-apology-to-china-after-ban-2019-10"OFFICIAL APOLOGY TO CHINA FROM TREY PARKER AND MATT STONE.
'Like the NBA, we welcome the Chinese censors into our homes and into our hearts. We too love money more than freedom and democracy. Xi doesn't look just like Winnie the Pooh at all. Tune into our 300th episode this Wednesday at 10! Long live the Great Communist Party of China! May this autumn's sorghum harvest be bountiful! We good now China?'"
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Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
It's almost a Spectral post
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2019-10-08 at 2:09 AM UTC
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Dallas cop found guilty
You’re right. It was probably another confused cop.
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2019-10-07 at 1:25 PM UTC
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Moldy weed
Originally posted by Technologist
Scron,
Take a pic of it if you would please? I wanna see what it looks like. Don’t think I’ve ever gotten moldy weed in 30 some years.
He already smoked it and died.
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Originally posted by Technologist
I just don’t understand hating a group of people because of their religious beliefs. Makes no sense to me. Anyone thinking their religion is better than anyone else’s is a hypocrite.
Amen to that mommy
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If he fucks with you let me know and I'll kill him
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May I check that temperature and texture, please?
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