Originally posted by Ensign §m£ÂgØL
Anybody else have any experience of being put in charge of something you barely know how to do?
Yeah this is pretty much my biggest complaint with working and any time I have a job I end up being forced to do all this extra stuff that has nothing to do with my original job.
I don't know what it is about my personality that gives people the impression I actually give a fuck. When I just drove forklift I was happy. They spent years 'grooming' Me to be Manager of this million dollar store and gave me newer duties and more money.
The only problem was I had no say in the duties I wanted to do so they told me I had to learn light construction, mechanics, accounting and bookkeeping.
Well I got bored of that very quickly and started doing lots of meth and the only thing that kept me sane back then was my chemistry hobby, it was my only escape from This world I didn't even want a part of.
I moved to crackshackville to learn to grow weed and got a job at a farm supply store to meet weed growers and sell grow lights and pesticides and shit and hope to meet an LSD Chemist or some weed growers who want to hire me to make weed oil.
Instead I had to run a store that sold pet food, farm feed, dog toys, fish, bird feeders, roundup, irrigation, seeds, fertilizer, roses and and chemicals.
I was just gonna use the chemicals as a front to order meth cooking supplies. The entire store had many back door shady dealings with growers and I had to deal with all these scammy people all day.
It was all working towards a life I didn't want. I would wake up next to a woman I hated but I can't leave because she's pregnant and she's friends with all my co workers and picks me up from work and brings me lunch. My life was so engrained within itself and world collided that I just stopped caring.
I ended up leaving it all with multiple suicide attempts, jail visits, mental hospital, hardcore drug addiction and a fucked up personal life.
I used to be normal. this all went on when I posted on Zoklet flasks and beakers, I was so busy living that life I never had time to play games or go on the internet.
I once lived without internet for almost a year and nobody around me cared/questioned reality or wanted anything different.
