Yep.
I put this in "reinvent yourself" because since I've split with my piece of shit exhusband, that I've been separated from for almost 2 years (will be in July.)ive had a lot of changes... Not all... Most not so good.
I've become epileptic. I've began having episodes since last July. Luckily I usually know when they will happen and get auras... But I do hit my head a lot. I don't like the anti-epileptic medications. Phenibut has helped somewhat but I only use it when shit is really bad and I do that sparingly as I don't need a second addiction.
Since I became pregnantxi then began rapidly losing weight. I lost 20lbs. At the end of my pregnancy right before giving birth and then lost another 12 or so pounds right after delivery of my son. Since then I've steadily lost and lost weight, and in the last year it's happened rapidly.
I used to be a large woman, albeit very active and strong. I did farrier work for about 7 years and it's one of the most physically demanding jobs out there. Working with horses regularly and having the farm was both two other very labor intensive jobs. I don't eat anymore than the average person,and all my life I've had people comment about that related to my size once they've actually seen and lived with me over the course of months or more to know I legitimately was eating normal, even moderately healthy most the time. I was about 230-250 at 5'8" for the bulk of my teens and just prior to becoming pregnant,but a very athletic and strong heavy set woman, far more than most woman and men in my weight class.
Something changed since getting pregnant for me. Also in the last year, since the seizures began, I've lost a lot of muscle mass, but also dropped a lot of weight. Currently I am Approximately 140lbs.
I've always been told by a lot of men, even if they weren't attracted due to my weight, that I have a very pretty face. Since being with my husband I pretty much gave up on giving a fuck how I looked, and "trying". I never was a girlie-girl who wore makeup (I had a Gothic phase in my early teens but besides) I've dressed comfortably and practically for the jobs I worked which were always manual labor besides a few years as a waitress. I haven't exactly become an everyday makeup wearing woman, but I have been dressing up a little, wearing some lip color sometimes, and dressing more feminine (a lot to do with my weight loss and having to have got new clothes that actually fit me. I got some things just a month or two. Ago that have become very lose on me since I still am losing a rapid pace). I didn't do this for anyone but me. I am not and have no interest in attracting a partner and am celibate- I sincerely do not wish to have sex at all with anyone. I am far happier single than I ever was with my exhusband and I am okay with being alone. I just found and was give a lot of clothing that I would have loved to wear being larger but we cost prohibitive and not at all conducive to the line of work I was in for so many years. I still require shit I wear to be at least somewhat comfortable though. I wear a lot more dresses, high over the knee boots. I also wear more jedielry I otherwise hadn't chose to wear in many, many years such as earrings sometimes.
I've had a lot of positive reactions and been hit on a lot too. Some being some good looking men, with their shit together too. It's annoying to me though when it gets too pushy or aggressive since I have no desires for relationships or sex even. I also have been going to more social places and even the bar a couple times which is something I haven't done since I've been in my teens,so this also may account for that.
Well, since this positive response I have grown interest in phone sex operator work being that it's easy money, is something I can do despite being epileptic, doesn't require any physical labor and I can work when I feel like it most the time. I've done a few calls so far, just started. I'm not keen on it since I I reality have little desire for sex, but it's not so bad (I considered prostitution a long while ago, but I could never really get to the point of actually doing it- I have no qualms about it morally, but emotionally I can't bring myself to have sex with random men) . I've also taken some pictures and been paid by some clients and gotten repeat business by all that have been willing to pay for that. While I don't particularly find myself attractive and see a lot of flaws I don't like about myself, but apparently there is quite a few men who do find me attractive and willing to pay to see me naked/in sexual situations and have me help them via the phone experience their sexual fantasies.
I don't know that this is reinventing myself, as none of these changes were conscious actions or having any of this as a goal or an idea to "reinvent" myself, but in the last 2 years maybe a little more, since I became pregnant and gave birth, things have been very different for me in drastic ways.
I am hoping since my health has gotten poorer over these years too, that this new job which has me utilize my physical body in a more sexual way that is less demanding than anything else I've ever done for employment, works out in the long run and picks up speed. I think the only thing that will make it a failure is me finally getting burnt out and/or too bothered by the sexual nature of the job since I pretty much lack a normal sex drive or desires- I can't even get off anymore while masturbating ,but it's not so much a big deal.(last real orgasm I had was a year ago approximately).
Inb4 tits or gtfo. No pics for you faggots,thats my newest bread and butter lol. Plus there are other reasons I'd prefer to avoid littering pics of me all over a fucked up fringy forum.
Anyone everyone done or used a phone sex operator before? Any suggestions on how to handle this rapid weight loss in a more healthy weight- I have trouble eating and it's why it's been so much recently, though I was losing at a steady rate even when I could eat properly. Oh.. And I did also begin. Selling my worn and used sexy panties. I usually go Commando and have for years except while The rag,butnfigured fuck it and been wearing them just to sell since I found out this was a. Thing (wtf.. I. Don't get buying used Panties but whatever floats your boat.) anyone else done or been on the consumer end of shit like this? Advice for starting Out doing PSO work?
