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2017-07-20 at 3:37 AM UTC in I'm about to go jailThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-19 at 11:52 PM UTC in Fucking cocaine dealersCocaine is one of the shittiest drugs in existence, along with alcohol, nutmeg, and bundy.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-18 at 10:22 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDS
Originally posted by Malice One day I'm going to memorize the entire dictionary and thesaurus so I can become one of the most pedantic and pompous people in existence.
I want to become whiter than Lanny (verbally).
Didn't care.
Originally posted by hydromorphone I watched, literally, like Gilgamesh, my friend, my child, my soulmate rot in front of me for 3 days before we could bury him. I've held innocent lives in my arms as they passed away suddenly, and sometimes not so suddenly… As a child from the time I was 4 years old, we had a dog who was having seizures. I knew instinctively I should hold them and protect their head, so I'd wrap myself around them and lay on the ground in their seizures with them until they came out of it, so I could get my dad to get them valium (well, until I was a few years older and could get it for them myself that is). I've had the sorrow of going out to spend time with a beloved family member, haunted by the "Know" that death was coming, but not knowing who it was for, to find out I was right, and it was someone I loved… coming jut a few hours later to find their body still warm in the sun, but stiffening up, dead. I've come home to a dear friend ripped to pieces by coyotes… I've had to do mercy killings for those I've loved, I've had to pull that trigger, once slitting their throat.
I've witnessed a lot of awful things in my life. I've also witnessed a lot of beautiful things too…
I haven't been through war, but I sure have experienced something close to it as far as watching those around me I love die, having to kill them out of love and mercy, having to watch their carcass mock me… Probably why I do have PTSD, and a lot of fucked up shit in my head.
Malice, sorry about you misunderstanding. Most of the souls I've loved in this life have been animals of one variety or another… I've loved them more on the deepest levels than I have most human beings. I don't usually…. sync up with humanity, but with animals I do, with animals I communicate best, and can speak from heart to heart.
It was a pretty wonderful thing to laugh and spend a night on that full moon ("Silver horses, ran down moonbeams…" makes sense in the song 'The white room' a lot more than it used to after that trip lol) with Gil. It gave me comfort to know one day I'll find him again… and while he's far, we're all connected in life, which bridges the gap, making us a lot closer… making us still be able to give and receive love to one another… I feel him sometimes, as I do others I've loved. The other night I was hallucinating my dog who died on my birthday this year… I heard his bark… I smelled him fill the room…. I accept that I'm probably just crazy, but sometimes I really can feel a spirit of someone I love coming to comfort me when shit is bad…
Originally posted by Malice Fun autism facts:
Due to the asymmetrical hypertrophy (I would very much like to know whether there are differences in cellular density, but there likely isn't information available) and hyperactivity of the right hemisphere of the amygdala, primarily involved in processing negative emotions, along with related factors, primarily the hyperglutamatergia, which increases general neurological activity, and GABAergic deficit, causing insufficient inhibition and anxiety,
negative emotions can actually be (There's always variance, particularly with aspergers.) greatly amplified. I genuinely did not realize until within the last few years, due to an increase in empathy, emotional fixation, and reflection/introspection on my past.
The differences in long-term memory, retention, fidelity, and detail, along with the OCD thought patterns, the fixation on thoughts, which can occur at a considerably faster rate and frequency, longer total extent, than normal, simply cements this, it positively modulates the storage of these events, and increases the effect, which is almost always detrimental, even traumatic.
This is of key importance for people with ASD, particularly highly anxious subtypes, to understand. PoC most strongly displays this behavior. After this realization and understanding something I worked toward ingraining, changing about myself, and still do to this day, was to consistently remind myself that my negative emotions were greatly amplified, my response to any negative social event in particular, and that I had to stop ruminating on it. When changing my view from a personal to an impersonal one, viewed from a higher vantage point, it became clear how petty these events truly were, that the other person did not ascribe nearly as much significance, and that afterward they would simply and rapildly move on with their day, not even devoting much thought to what had occurred.
Understanding and accepting how incredibly damaging your natural behavior, this process, is.
- A greater affinity for animals is commonly reported among aspies. There are various reasons why this could be, such as the social aspects that alter your response toward human beings, or feeling some similarities with animals, the lack of verbal communication required, how the relationships are simpler and more forthright.
It's also possible that we may have innate advantages. The bottom up hyper-systemizing cognitive style with far less regard for conventions leading to creating your own natural internal system for animals and their behavior, an understanding of them. There's also the sensory hypersentivity and level of awareness and how it can help read them.
I've experienced the exact same thing throughout my life.
When people meet/see someone they feel positively towards, who is in proximity, a natural reaction is for their eyebrows to rise (body language). Yesterday or the day before I noticed that I automatically and involuntarily did this when I saw Ash and Bella for the first time that day. I can't recall ever having done this with a human. Kind of funny that the first time I displayed this standard human body language, naturally reserved only for our own species, was with cats. They are the animal I feel the highest affinity towards and enjoy the company of most. Nearly, other than perhaps natural scenery, the only thing that brings me closest to a positive response, even a slight smile (I am definitely not very expressive, at all.), when I'm outside. They always catch my attention and I try to make friends with them if they seem calm enough, socialized, or at least call out to them. Smiling, exchanging pleasantries, conversation, attempts at friendship.
Cats are my people.
Originally posted by hydromorphone with my tolerance, no fucking way… T-PAIN still is the cheapest route for me. I spend about 424$ a month on T-PAIN, for my chronic pain to function. About the same as a good pain management doctor, without all the bullshit and I definitely wouldn't be getting enough to last me the way my tolerance is at this point in time.
Just thought ya'll might wanna see my collection of old jars… It's like a hobby of sorts, except it effects every part of my life, to the point of crippling it sometimes… but meh… I'm no quitter.
Originally posted by hydromorphone Malice, thank you for helping me better understand myself, my life, my problems and struggles… and also for doing the same in that regard with people I love. It means a lot to me. I'll always remember you as someone who shaped my life for the better. You've really helped a lot there, with people I love… and my god, that means a lot to me.
I could be here suffering in chronic pain, day to day… but I'm not. I at least have something that works for me, due to your recommendation. It sucks in a lot of ways, as any addiction can, being mainly financial, but, hey… I guess it could be worse.
I'll always consider you "friend", and glad to have known you.
Originally posted by Malice I've noticed that the sunglasses I bought to modify in order to limit my peripheral vision for reading make me much calmer. It's probably due to visual hypersensitivity, how intense the world is, the amount of data I take in, and being in a permanent state of high awareness (flight or fight), which causes my abnormal peripheral vision to have a higher level of fixation, as if something dangerous may come into view.
It is the other key hypersensitivity I have which causes a high level of discomfort and anxiety, along with auditory. Makes sense.
Heh, the combo of these glasses and earmuffs produces a pretty distinct look, somewhat reminiscent of a mad scientist. I swear I'm going to keep printouts of what the muffs and glasses are for in case anyone ever asks in school; a concise overview at top followed by a more extensive explanation on the bottom. Now I just need a white lab coat.
Looking in a mirror, it seems pretty ridiculous that this is what it takes to replicate a neurotypical experience. *shrugs* Doesn't really bother me, and there is the childish egotistical aspect of making me feel cool and unique. At least when properly honed neurologically abnormal aspie brain can have immense advantages.
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-07-18T22:16:05.608011+00:00
Originally posted by hydromorphone I agree fully with your remark on PoC, having witnessed it first hand, irl. It's not always a bad thing, but until it's harnessed and directed positively, it can be very bad, but coming to terms, and utilizing it- for an expample, I think you're a great one for this, since you do seem to take your traits, be they good or bad and manipulate them as best you can for positive in you life, which I think is something definitely you should be proud of, Mal. I hope one day PoC, and even can come to be better with our negative traits.
You know how you called it with PoC and me? Well, here's where I can say I called it with you and animals. I'm glad you have friends now IRL, Malice. Animals, IME can be just as good, even better than humans. I really can empathize a lot with your comments about them. PoC is a lot like me when it comes to animals too. He really needs to go back to school and get a job working with them, I think that would definitely help make his, and our life together, a lot happier and more content.
Just a side note: He has a cat (I call him 'CockBlock' because well… lol, he always wants to sit in front of us whe we video chat- PoC, it's a term of endearment, not an insult to him ;) ). I usually prefer dogs, and don't really like cats all that much, but I do like his cats, in particular, this one. Every time he's upset or in a bad mood, or not feeling good, you can see this cat trying to console him. Even when I was there, and my anxiety was bad, his fat kitty-cat really did help me a great deal. I'm glad he has that, he really does need that unconditional love when he's feeling bad and so do I.
I sorta "adopted" a cat a while back… When PoC and I were video chatting for the first couple times, here came this cat, when I went to check, after hearing what sounded like a kitten meowing. He was malnourished and shit… I immediately got him food, water, and he jumped in my arms and sleeps with me sometimes… he definitely is very helpful, from that first meeting even, in helping me deal with my anxiety, and my need for physical contact, which helps me sleep a lot better when he's there or like when I visited PoC, I slept fucking wonderfully… better than being knocked out with all the tranquilizers in the world lol- wish I had that more often.
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2017-07-18 at 10:10 PM UTC in is this real tho?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-18 at 8:23 PM UTC in Feminism
Originally posted by cerakote and to risir, your country's current state of affairs is a direct result of these numale faggots and "feminist" shitters. germany, more like little iraq
Somewhat this.
Goodness tho. Feminism is the most disgusting shit this country has ever seen. Remember the time when you could walk outside and everyone was well dressed, men were strong and confident, and women were sweet and feminine? Thanks to feminism I don't, but it must've been nice.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-18 at 3:40 PM UTC in I'm about to go jail
Originally posted by greenplastic Can't you just like chill in jail? I've never been but I've known quite a few people who have and they haven't said any of this shit about not being able to look at anyone or getting your ass whooped on a regular basis.
Yes. It's a bunch of people doing short time, and a few waiting to go to prison. Sure you get some rough types, but it's mostly just dudes playing cards, watching TV, reading, and sleeping.
Yeah we might make fun of the kid that sleeps or stays in his cell the majority of the day, but that's about it. Nobody goes and beats the fuck out of him, that just lands you in a higher security area with less freedom, and doesn't really prove a point to anyone.
Jail time is boring, but easy.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-18 at 12:33 PM UTC in Why does every fucking drug have to have a come down?Benzos and opiates don't.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-18 at 3:54 AM UTC in Say something positive about the poster above youkill yourselfThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-18 at 3:41 AM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Click Here for AIDSHydro I want to see the vintage camera you took that pic withThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-17 at 11:53 PM UTC in hey so How long can a man live withoutI hope you don't break up 3 months after moving in with each other.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-17 at 6:35 PM UTC in Got muh Toyota Land Cruiser todayThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-17 at 1:30 PM UTC in i am the most evolved human
Originally posted by NARCassist https://niggasin.space/thread/15018
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irrelevant. i reported this post.
girls dont like people whop could destroy their intenstines with a 90 inch cockThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-17 at 10:40 AM UTC in Got muh Toyota Land Cruiser todaythat releases a very very minuscule amount of dopamine versus expenses and effort required, you get a FAR better deal smoking crackThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-17 at 10:13 AM UTC in my mind is really weird
the water is representing purity and god and also liserd human satan is standing behind the mask and they are experiencing the real world while enhancementing their decisions to either a positive or negative outcome based on destiny while their face itself means almost nothing. the birds are children running around in a state of innocence. they stand on the cliff watching the simulation that surrounds them from all sides and process the appropriate respondes that lead to the accomplishment of their goals. then in the video etcetcetcThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-17 at 6:39 AM UTC in Dearest Lanny, please help brandon get his account back
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2017-07-17 at 2:54 AM UTC in Which poster do you miss the most?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-16 at 11:18 PM UTC in The two most unintelligent posters on this site
Originally posted by Totse 2001 WHatever.. you're all crazy. Its a good thing that nightclubs are notorious for not having multiple angled security camera or that shit story would fall apart real fast!
This takes place at the girl's apartment. Also, they went to an illega rave which isn't a night club. Get a clue!!!!!!!!!The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-07-16 at 11:16 PM UTC in Which poster do you miss the most?That the guy was just called Michael Scott, he had a Prison Mike avatarThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-16 at 9:59 PM UTC in best way to hang yourself?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-07-16 at 9:09 PM UTC in God Bless the European peopleOK so I'm gathering that the OP isn't very versatile or adaptable. Anything else?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
