2015-06-29 at 10:33 AM UTC
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Does anybody here have HPPD?
I have it pretty strong. It's not unbearable static like some people get it, but I can see patterns appearing in my vision, especially with my eyes closed, almost all of the time, and I can consciously manipulate my hallucinations so that I feel like I'm tripping even when I''m sober i.e. the psuedohallucinations are interactive and controlled. I'll give an example of the visual phenomena I am experiencing at the moment. Looking around, everything is in a very, very mild multicolored static which is only noticeable when you purposely try to look at it. When I look into the distance I can make the fuzz take on somewhat geometric forms. I can auto-kick the derealization of bundy into gear, and I can move things in my field of vision slightly by staring at them. With closed eyes, I'm getting a vague image of an ovary or a penis in blue static in front of the black behind the eyelids. Do meditative techniques increase visual hallucinations? In fact, I'm really curious in general neurotransmitter manipulation by conscious though. Like, would it be possible to achieve significantly altered states of consciousness with only endogenous neurochemicals? If there's a free acid trip burrowed in my brain somewhere hell yeah I'd take it. I wonder if HPPD is a form of receptor rebound.. Like, the 5ht2c receptors get antagonized leading to a particular secondary messenger pathway when psychedelics are ingested, and then this antagonism distorts perception and feedback inhibition in optic nerves, leading to an exaggeration of certain elements, an inconsistent recurrence of specific optic networks resulting in visual pattern hallucinations. NMDA antagonists instead of working on feedback inhibition, which is the reduction of neural activity after a specific metric of signals have been sent...work by inducing sensory shutdown, with NMDA receptors turning off less essential neural networks and leaving a more basic brain which in turn has to use its energy to "fill in the blanks" induced by the shut down neural circuits, so the more essential neural circuits induce hallucinations so that your brain isn't processing absolutely nothing. Anticholinergics I'm not so sure about, I know choline converts to acetylcholine and this is an important neurotransmitter for muscle contractions as well as learning...so I guess a lack of choline causes a sensory shutdown which isn't a true deactivation of neural networks, but all the neural networks you typically have become weak and aperceptive, just like your muscles become weak. Then coupled with the dysphoria, when your brain tries to fill in the blanks, you get spiders. Not sure about cannabinoid 1 receptors either but I think the psychedelic qualities might have to do with the induction of neurogenesis. The only other receptors I can think of which may be implicated in hallucinations and schizophrenia is the kappa opiod receptors. I've never gotten high on salvia before so I can't really make any assumptions on what it's general properties or mechanism of action for hallucinations is. Guided meditation alongside foods that increase specific neurotransmitter levels or act as weak versions of these drugs (especially certain herbal teas) might have some promise for those dedicated to a spiritual experience. I consider the little temple I see in the back of my eyelids when I close my eyes to be the home of my consciousness, looked at from an alternate entity's perspective. I call it the Temple Of The Sickness, because Candiria (which is a shitty hardcore band) made an album called that and the album cover is quite similar to the hallucination. I also masturbate without any porn half the time because I just visualize the sex.
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2015-06-29 at 5:10 AM UTC
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Will Taggert
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2015-06-28 at 5:16 PM UTC
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ATTN: Niggas in Space.
Horror films, good TV shows, creepypasta, good music.
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What's up blah? crazy mike here, it's been a while.
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2015-06-28 at 7:07 AM UTC
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ATTN: Niggas in Space.
Nothing. This world is bleak, empty, shallow, repetitive, and unfulfilling.
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get an assortment of allen wrenches
I suck at fixing stuff, so that is the extent of my advice to you.
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I get that this is the Gearheads forum, wasn't sure if this would be a better fit in DIY or here, but what the hell.
Anyway, neither my ten-speed or my BMX are ridable at the moment and I've realized that I've got very little clue how to fix either one. So I want to learn how to fix my bikes.
I'll obviously need some tools, and while I've got a some wrenches and sockets in both metric and standard sizes, I'm sure there are certain specialty tools that make working on bikes a lot easier.
Also, any good recommendations of learning resources? Repair guides or other books, YouTube channels, websites, etc?
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I don't attend cowardly circlejerk backroom forums for closet queers. I keep everything up front and out in the open.
Don't lie to me.
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Is smoking crack a nootropic?
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In RedFags early development Idio made a hidden board called 'Expierment' to discuss the future of the site with a select few users. As far as I remember it was Idioitsyncrusty, Cocklin, fagenlkai, Sigimmick aka Chris Hansen aka Haha new alt look at me masta troll aka tremendous faggot, aldra, mizled and myself.
As you can expect it was nothing short of a cum biscuit contest and just general paragraphs of boredom. I screencapped every thread made in there just in case I felt like being a cunt and/or I thought there was something substantially stupid that I had to show everyone, but the board didn't last long and in the end I just forgot about it because I didn't give a fuck.
But as RadFeg is gone, they're needlessly just sitting on my HDD with no purpose. Don't get too excited though, you won't read anything particularly interesting, but it's a good little insight into the minds of the totse2niggas and the extent of their faggotry. In the TRT2HB thread, you'll see the underlying zoklet vs totse2 thing they really like to latch onto.
http://www.yogile.com/dtopnez8#41m(Download each image to see it full res. Not sure if the DL album button does them in full res)
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the fuck is wrong with you
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2015-06-25 at 3:35 AM UTC
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y u use vBulletin 5?
A better question is why haven't you killed yourself yet?
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Well... I'm Here
Yeeee we all here, OGBloodcomptonnigga shit. We in da hood nigga, lan lan one real ass trill ass homie.
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2015-06-24 at 8:06 PM UTC
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Rocklin is on suicide watch
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2015-06-24 at 5:32 PM UTC
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Update on my dick piercing
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[my p.a. supernal goa]
So you may recall that I posted a thread about my apadravya on RDFRN - it was seven months ago and I thought I'd fill you in on my experience since. Anyway, it's healed up quite nicely for a transurethral piercing. My new girl thinks it's really cool. I wouldn't way it makes sex so much better on its own, but it does seem to hit the right spot with its placement. I've shortened it down to more snug fit.
Now for the really good part: a couple days ago I was at the gym when the barbell came undone in my shorts. I didn't notice until I got home and hopped in the shower, and by that time it had closed up. I thought about calling my piercer and explaining what had happened, but I knew that re-piercing scar tissue is an ill advised procedure. I refused to accept it. My cock had endured too much for me to throw it all away now. I went and got another barbell, a longer barbell, clenched my teeth and got down to the dirty work of shoving that rod through my closed up dick hole.
The pain was horrible, as the 8 gauge hole had almost entirely sealed. I had to break a layer of skin just to get the metal back in, and then I was tasked with forcing it through the needle-thin pathway left behind after my jedielry had come out. Finally I had gotten it maybe a millimeter through my shaft when my vision grew spotty, my head lightened and I fainted. When I woke up I was still hurting badly, so I staggered to the bathroom sink and took a few handfuls of water into my mouth, grabbed a protein bar in lieu of missing glucose tablets and got back to work. Eventually I worked it through the shaft forcing it top-down, but the exit hole had closed up too much and I knew I'd have to tear some flesh getting it all the way through. Imagine shoving a pencil - just a little too large - through one of the ring holes on a piece of college ruled notebook paper. It was a lot like that.
So I finished the job and made it to work a 1/2 hour late. TL;DR: dick piercing came out, I forced it the fuck back through. It's still pretty sore but the healing process goes on.
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