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2022-05-10 at 1:47 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?No, ffs, well maybe.
i don't care
gofundme? meh.
i'd say, not necessary.
it won't solve anything, seems debasing and more about the donors wanting to feel like they did "a good deed" (really they just gave away money) than actually helping much, and of course would be like taking a crowbar and opening up that wound so it could swallow up the tears and tolls extracted of a thousand mundanes, till i am actually thinking about it, talking about it and dwelling on it all the time. why....
calling attention to me too. nah. no thanks.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-05-10 at 12:37 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by Sophie Your positive attitude is impressive. If i lost my fingers i'd be pretty fucking depressed.
Basically I wouldn't say it's me having a positive attitude, it's more that My Reality, right now as it is, I have some really fucking mangled hands. But I simply don't sit and constantly compare my sitch as it is to some idealized version of reality, better framed as phantasy or basically a Grass is Greener and i wanna be there approach.
I'm usually aloof and such but it's never dwelling on problems, just floating in space, headspace. See to me, right now thinking "if only my hands wah wah wah blah blah blah" is the same as "if only i had 2 million dollars a mansion and bitches" but this isn't something i do. Or if i do thiink in such a way, i always add my personal pessimism to the scenario. "i'd be in a mansion, hollow but for the soulless whores who cling to me but offer no conversation, wondering if legal issues from the last shifty deal i made will come back on me and 2 million on paper but over leveraged (don't tell the whores)"
Can things be better? yeah, also could be worse, a lot worse. ultimately, it is what it is. Go with the flow because dwelling in the past or on irrealities isn't healthy, smart or worthwhile in any way.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-05-08 at 4:40 PM UTC in Military Genius Zelensky wants Ukrainians to throw molotovs at Russian tanks
Originally posted by Donald Trump Meanwhile Russians have been forced to do without their favorite fonts due to the crippling sanctions.
https://tass.ru/ekonomika/14377529
im imagining everything in comic sans nowThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-05-07 at 4:55 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by Speedy Parker What a waste of a life
How so? it sucks but for the most part in modern day society it's not a huge draw back. like i wouldnt recommend losing your fingers in a drunken/methed up state but really unless ones in a very menial position(like you i imagine), most jobs are at a desk, on a phone or using a computer. which i can do i would just rather take government $$(it spends just the same) than work at all because everything seems like bullshit to me and i'd rather read, enjoy the nice days when they come and live in leisure. as well as spend my time pursuing occult knowledge and getting high.
anyway my life isn't over yet, and honestly if you had to put up with the shit i do you would probably be in a mental institution or a broken husk of a man, being literally enslaved by dark powers.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-05-08 at 4:58 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?eh, most people feel worse about it than i do, but im pretty dead inside i guess. just my new reality and although some things are more difficult or take longer, i dunno it's not world ending, i spend most of my time observing, reading and thinking. I'm not gonna lie and say it's all ok and i get along with my destroyed hands just fine but for the most part.... im fine.
and i'm not getting my hopes of for prostetics, stem cell regrowth or transplants. it happened to hold out forlorn hopes of being healed? seems sadder to me. -
2022-03-10 at 5:35 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?h8 u guys.....
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2022-05-07 at 5:26 PM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
Originally posted by aldra like what?
Honestly, Gematria, Demonology, Astrology, Tarot/card divination/cardomancy, look into different traditions, read up on religious texts. read up on different symbolic systems, color associations. Perhaps speak with a medicine man of my own tribe.
Think about magic as well, from say basic to more complex forms, not so much dealing with it from a supernatural stance but exploring it's relation to perception and "reality". in this sense to me teling a lie would be a form of magic, also creating an economic system like marx would fit as well in a higher order.
these days tho, i would really like to dig deeper into to veiled aspects of reality, taking in information from many traditions to get a better grasp of this shit, cuz i do believe there are higher power(s) playing games in this realm.
Basically i want to become a Spooky Magi, and actually believe it's possible, as i've had odd experiences convince me there's much to learn and gain by pursuing this path I'm going to do that. I think ill focus on trying to manifest beneficial effects than divination, and trying to see if i can discover the means by which these other (much better trained i guess?) Magi drive people insane/ruin there lives.
I guess i could uuhhh look to heal and cast off such things but meh.
I've had some great and informative chats with religious people but once you start talking about trying to connect with daemons, divination and such they not only stop the discussion almost get hostile. like i feel like this is some shit i gotta keep to myself, or i dunno the fucking inquisition will come out of the blue.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-05-07 at 3:56 AM UTC in Where the fuck is Nil/Nile?
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2022-03-09 at 7:31 PM UTC in wut did u dream about last nightdreams about planets and fish swimming between the void.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-04-07 at 2:33 AM UTC in End de-facto ban on stl1this thread has me feeling confused, on the one hand i hate st1l, but on the other lannies childish actions driving people away is a form of cancer.
im torn.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-07 at 2:17 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Kafka Do you have any mental illnesses? Wym a dark force hovering over you?
I got hospitalized 1 time, released after 2 weeks.
had one psychiatrist tell me im "too sane and i don't think things will go well for you" im serious.
in fact even you asking if im mentally ill just shows the extent of my problem. I'm not insane, i have a great memory and when i relate the experiences i have i get "u should see a doctor" from many people who ive come to understand will never understand.
It's like having veils removed, but with each lifted the further from the masses you get. other aspects of reality that while not as clearly visible are just as present are revealeed. It's interesting too, I get to interact in a direct way with the powers that shape this world, literally enlightened while being run down and hounded by demonic forces.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-04 at 11:38 PM UTC in They're liquidating Ukranian citizens as they withdraw
Originally posted by Sudo Idk what maskirovna means and I have to imagine that's what the narrative is back in Russia.
Idk how they're going to frame it in the future. It's undoubtedly making Russia weaker and is going to open them up to attacks. The fact they're not even getting much out of it just makes it worse
the thing about russia that you should think about is that they're kinda like a slave state, 4/5 people were serfs before the revolution, the they toppled the monarchy only for the revolution to yet further consolidate under a command economy.
"hurt there economy" I think their calculus with regards to power are way different than ours.
Oldschool in a sense, Grain, Iron, Energy. You say we have problem? what problem?
The weapons they develop in house, when they want to are equivalent or better, but as they compete in one sphere they dial back in others. so far there tactic has worked. they may "fail" in ukraine depending on what they were seeking to accomplish, and quick too, but it seems like "gloves on" conventional warfare with out popular support in the state you're attacking is a no-go in this age.
fuck, nato failed in Afghanistan after 20 years and i doubt the us will maintain a hold on any territory in a "annexed" texas type way either.
It's like make a deal, fund powerful indigenous proxies(which isn't ideal for power hungry assholes) or step up to mass destruction with NBC arms and see what that Genie says after he won't go back in the bottle.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-04 at 11:01 PM UTC in You people are shitty assholesdid op ever return?
i love t2k1, he's a fucking legend
A LEGENDThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-05 at 12:29 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by Kafka I can’t tell if this is satire
it's not.
the example i used was just a recent thing so it's the first that comes to mind. but basically things like that happen. like dude, finding shit tickets in the woods when thats exactly what i needed that day is weird.
the demonic? people repeat things to me that are relevant to my thoughts at that moment, or just say odd things in general. not crazy homeless people mind you, people in new cars, well attired. I've been called king, warrior, lucifer by strangers. one guy at some random frozen lake in ontario walked up and said "the first new moon" just odd shit. took video of them on my phone? deleted. I'm sitting by the water in toronto and get mobbed.
or when i decided to name whatever dark force thats hovering around me, I chose Kaskitiwow Moskwa, thats black bear in Cree, i pass black bear lake 3 minutes later, in english yes but thats a spooky synchronicity. No map, didn't know that area. somewhere in ontario.
a man made a one eye gesture at me, putting one hand over his eye and looking at me right after i went crazy and then was getting the shit kicked out of me by heroin dealers who i uhhh tried to convince to make good after ripping me off, i over reacted tbh and kinda deserved the beating, i really went over board lol, junkie lives matter too.
and the number 33 keeps popping up for me, in a frequency too much to be random, in dice throws, in card draws. when i look at clocks.
basically things like that constantly happen to me.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-04 at 10:24 PM UTC in What are you thinking about....
Originally posted by WellHung you got drunk and passed out outside and got frostbite and lost your hands lolololol
actually i didn't pass out. i was awake, which is worse somehow.
and i still have hands, just very much reduced dexterity, like it's a whole operation to tie a knot or light a bic but i can manage. my hand being all fucked up is oddly enough a small thing in my life compared to the weirdo demonic sorcerer assholes i deal with, i wish i wasn't serious but i am.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-04 at 11:16 PM UTC in They're liquidating Ukranian citizens as they withdrawThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2022-04-04 at 10:43 PM UTC in They're liquidating Ukranian citizens as they withdrawi dunno dawg, creating "frozen conflicts" seems kinda like the classic ruski move, look at nagorno-karabak, transdnistria, georgia. instead of outright invading they just do that. then meddle.
they must be getting worried about the west for what theyre doing in the borderland, even fucking Henry Kissinger said the current US establishment was playing with fire by the advances made toward ukraine.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-03 at 8:42 PM UTC in Military Genius Zelensky wants Ukrainians to throw molotovs at Russian tanks
Originally posted by aldra https://southfront.org/breaking-russian-large-landing-ship-exploded-in-ukrainian-port-of-berdyansk-videos/
Russia took the port at Berdyansk, looks like there wasn't much fighting judging by the lack of damage.
Ukraine fired a TOCHKA-U at it soon after. According to Russian reports the missile was intercepted, but given the size of it it was still able to start fires around the dock and on one military transport. Some of the munitions on deck cooked off, and they had to scuttle/submerge it to prevent a larger explosion. no idea whether or to what extent it'll be recoverable. I think this has been the Ukrainian military's most successful TBM strike (the ones they dropped on unruly Volunteer Battalion facilities notwithstanding) since the start of the operation
missile strikes are cool to me, last good one that comes to mind is yemenis hitting a saudi outpost
damn, houthis doing work
"On 4 September 2015 Houthi forces fired a Tochka missile at Safir base in Marib killing over 100 Saudi-led coalition personnel.[16][17][18]
On 14 December 2015, Houthi forces fired another Tochka missile at Bab Al Mandab base killing over 150 Saudi-led coalition personnel stationed there.[19][20][21]
On 16 January 2016, Houthi forces fired a Tochka at Al Bairaq base in Marib killing dozens of Saudi-led coalition personnel [22][23]
On 31 January 2016, Houthi forces fired a Tochka at Al Anad base in Lahj killing and wounding over 200 Saudi-led coalition personnel[24][25][26]"The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2022-04-01 at 6:56 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionokay, i have my rent, set to meet this guy at 2, hopefully all goes well and no odd twists of fate befall me and i can achieve non-homeless status.
if things continue in such a dare i say upward trajectory, i'll be getting a hand out straight from the pope himself.
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2022-03-25 at 8:15 PM UTC in The TRT Thread: Its the end of the world as we know it so GET WHOLESOME editionwoot, 99% sure i got this room im going to see monday.
4 bills a month, with a hot plate, mini fridge, sink and wifi. near downtown.
looks like a real shithole tbh, its perfect!
wats fucked up is buddy where im sleeping is getting mad cuz im leaving??? he wanted the same price to stay here on his couch but without a lease i wont recieve any housing benefits and would literally be stuck here. now he's bitching and might tell me to gtfo when im so close to just being alright. like wtf. i swear money is the worst shit ever introduce a bit and everyone turns into a cunt.
fuck it if im outside or somewhere else anything is worth a spot i can have to myself, fuck people. like it would change nothing for this guy to kick me out, just hurt me... cuz im leaving and not paying half his rent? fuck sakes
like the plan was always to leave, not have my hands get fucked and the get out of the hospital and have nowhere to go... especially when i just figured out a place to live.
fuck my hands nigga, peace and quiet? no others? sign me up.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!