2022-05-03 at 1:36 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Originally posted by Kafka
You’re gonna be okay.
This is what I tell ppl when they tell me their problems and I'm not really listening. Just agree I'm a bitch
who's liable to spiral
Doin lines off the Bible
Food ammo and survival
Killing the rodents like fivel
American tale? More like Canadian jail
In hades with a Mercedes on omw down to hell
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2022-05-03 at 1:40 AM UTC
frala
Avant garde shartist
Originally posted by Sudo
Matt Damon 😭 I really went good will hunting
It's hard when I kinda don't trust myself sometimes because when I get a slice of happy it seems so fleeting and so far from how I usually feel, it's hard to reconcile it as a normal feeling. I need to work on "grounding" because I think that's how you build a foundation of happy.
Fuck I'm glad we're writing this stuff down
Lol trust me I know. For a long time, and still sometimes now, if something good happens to me I will imagine and plan for every possible disaster bc that’s how my life was. It’s really hard to accept that I’ve gotten to where I am now and I still deal with those feelings of impending doom but I also push really hard to let/make good things happen bc I was incredibly unhappy for a long time and got sick of that shit.
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2022-05-03 at 1:55 AM UTC
frala
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Yeah it’s scary but it’s worth it bc being scared is better than being miserable and on that note I’m gonna shut up bc I’m starting to sound a little too self help lol
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2022-05-03 at 2:14 AM UTC
frala
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So taaaaaaake these broken wings and learn to fly again, learn to live so freeeee
Ok I’m done fr
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2022-05-03 at 11:54 AM UTC
Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster just in time
I need a drink, cause in a while
Worthless answers from friends of mine…
2022-05-03 at 6:43 PM UTC
I will actually donate some of my time to teach you how not to be such a whiny feminine bitch if youd like
You make women dry
2022-05-03 at 9:02 PM UTC
frala
Avant garde shartist
Originally posted by General Butt.Naked
Dude thats me. Every girl i ever meet that i feel anything for, immediately picture in my head the last fight well have. How angry or sad her face will look. The things shell scream at me. Maybe she’ll throw something at me or call the cops. I told my gf that and it made her really sad but thats kinda just how my brain works and it feels reallyunnerving for things to be going well bc it feels like im just at the precipice of something sudden and painful.
Yeah I think most people who grew up in chaos and/or really unstable situations deal with this.
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2022-05-03 at 9:53 PM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
My plan is gonna kinda tie all those things together
1. Kick out baby mom, help her find a decent place for the kids. Make any support contingent on skills workshops and therapy. Kinda manipulative I know but that way I can sleep a little better.
2. Find another relationship with someone who is only medium crazy
3. Deal with my opiate addiction/mental health issues and focus on things I need to be a better person/build on shit. Step 2 and 3 should probably be reversed
4. Slowly reintegrate myself into my daughter's life.
5. Get my lawyers to setup some co parenting agreements that ar3 in the objective interest of the children
6. Try to live more mindfully, peacefully and spiritually, ideally with a creative aspect
Anyone else have any wild unrealistic fantasies? No, shut up, me, I'm gonna manifest this ass over life's face and never look back. I'm 6 months out the system today first time since I was a hawt awkward teen, I can fucking do this
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2022-05-03 at 9:59 PM UTC
Perhaps you should keep the relating to 4 walls and a ceiling?
