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I am bitch

  1. 2022-05-02 at 11:40 PM UTC
    #1
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Hi, it's me and my faggot life again, basically my dawtas mom just unblocked me so I can figure out a way to access my daughter now. Seeing pictures is crazy because I haven't seen her in a year but I can tell she has a similar spirit as I had sometimes as a kid. I'm afraid of opening myself up to her, my baby mom, the whole situation and something going wrong and sending me spiraling.

    I am also afraid to be in a healthy relationship because that requires being vulnerable. Both these scenarios would be better off with me being off brainkillahs and that's kinda frightening too and requires dedication of time and shit rn too

    I'm also a bit scared of finalizing my baby moms exit from ma maison, I know it's the right thing but it's still difficult for a Lotta reasons

    These are really the most terrifying things to me right now. I don't really have any apprehension about physical confrontations, in fact I usually threaten a man a week and can't find any takers.

    How do I be less of a scaredy cat? Why am I comfortable being vulnerable here? What's the story wish bone?
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  2. 2022-05-02 at 11:54 PM UTC
    #2
    Kafka sweaty
    Stop caring about it all and watch anime
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  3. 2022-05-02 at 11:55 PM UTC
    #3
    WellHung Black Hole (banned)
    "SafeLite Repair, SafeLite Replace".
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  4. 2022-05-02 at 11:56 PM UTC
    #4
    Kafka sweaty
    Welcome to the n.h.k is good
  5. 2022-05-02 at 11:58 PM UTC
    #5
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Originally posted by Kafka Stop caring about it all and watch anime

    I just started watching anime for the first time in my life and my attention span can handle probly 27% of the time these days
  6. 2022-05-02 at 11:59 PM UTC
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    vindicktive vinny Black Hole
    do not use the phrase ''access my daughter'' because it could potentially trigger all the wrong thoughts on certain people.

    most people actually.
  7. 2022-05-03 at 12:10 AM UTC
    #7
    Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Sudo I just started watching anime for the first time in my life and my attention span can handle probly 27% of the time these days

    What time? First one I watched was Inuyasha
  8. 2022-05-03 at 12:25 AM UTC
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    frala Avant garde shartist
    Do you feel like you don’t deserve to be happy?
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  9. 2022-05-03 at 12:31 AM UTC
    #9
    Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by frala Do you feel like you don’t deserve to be happy?

    I was thinking of that today, my mum, that I wasn’t allowed to be happy because then she’d be harsh on me, but maybe be easy on me if she thought I was already upset. I was wondering if I want to change my outlook, I could hypnotise myself but am not ready yet.
  10. 2022-05-03 at 12:40 AM UTC
    #10
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Originally posted by frala Do you feel like you don’t deserve to be happy?

    Probably. I'm not sure I know the recipe
  11. 2022-05-03 at 12:52 AM UTC
    #11
    Rape Monster Naturally Camouflaged
    crush up a few dillys and it'll sort itself out after that. let u see more clearly
  12. 2022-05-03 at 12:52 AM UTC
    #12
    Rape Monster Naturally Camouflaged
    the recipe for happiness is drugs and no responsibility
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  13. 2022-05-03 at 12:53 AM UTC
    #13
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Originally posted by Rape Monster crush up a few dillys and it'll sort itself out after that. let u see more clearly

    Dude it's like I've known you my whole life. Can I pay to talk to you?
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  14. 2022-05-03 at 12:59 AM UTC
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    Technologist victim of incest
    I definitely don’t feel like I deserve good things. So when a good thing comes my way, I sabotage it.😏
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  15. 2022-05-03 at 1 AM UTC
    #15
    Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Sudo Probably. I'm not sure I know the recipe

    Basic emotional human needs:

    1. The need to take care of the mind/body - appearance, exercise, healthy food.
    2. Meaning, purpose and goals.
    3. To be a part of something greater than yourself, such as a cause.
    4. Challenge and mental stimulation.
    5. The need for attention.
    6. The need for intimacy.
    7. The need for status.
    8. Safety and security.
    9. The need for a sense of control over your life.
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  16. 2022-05-03 at 1:04 AM UTC
    #16
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Originally posted by Kafka Basic emotional human needs:

    1. The need to take care of the mind/body - appearance, exercise, healthy food.
    2. Meaning, purpose and goals.
    3. To be a part of something greater than yourself, such as a cause.
    4. Challenge and mental stimulation.
    5. The need for attention.
    6. The need for intimacy.
    7. The need for status.
    8. Safety and security.
    9. The need for a sense of control over your life.

    I've got all of these to an extent but the hunger in me belly always wants more. Your list actually made me feel a little more grateful.

    I'm kinda manic and unstable sometimes, I really just need to learn patience and to try to think these through instead of reacting and fighting. I'm doing alot better tho
  17. 2022-05-03 at 1:09 AM UTC
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    frala Avant garde shartist
    Originally posted by Sudo Probably. I'm not sure I know the recipe

    You do. Happiness feels strange to a person who has never been fully happy and so does being vulnerable. If you can put yourself out there though, you can be happy, and you do deserve it.
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  18. 2022-05-03 at 1:19 AM UTC
    #18
    Sudo Black Hole [my hereto riemannian peach]
    Originally posted by frala You do. Happiness feels strange to a person who has never been fully happy and so does being vulnerable. If you can put yourself out there though, you can be happy, and you do deserve it.

    Matt Damon 😭 I really went good will hunting

    It's hard when I kinda don't trust myself sometimes because when I get a slice of happy it seems so fleeting and so far from how I usually feel, it's hard to reconcile it as a normal feeling. I need to work on "grounding" because I think that's how you build a foundation of happy.

    Fuck I'm glad we're writing this stuff down
  19. 2022-05-03 at 1:22 AM UTC
    #19
    Rape Monster Naturally Camouflaged
    Originally posted by Sudo Dude it's like I've known you my whole life. Can I pay to talk to you?

    absolutely not, my advice is free
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  20. 2022-05-03 at 1:23 AM UTC
    #20
    Kafka sweaty
    Originally posted by Sudo Matt Damon 😭 I really went good will hunting

    It's hard when I kinda don't trust myself sometimes because when I get a slice of happy it seems so fleeting and so far from how I usually feel, it's hard to reconcile it as a normal feeling. I need to work on "grounding" because I think that's how you build a foundation of happy.

    Fuck I'm glad we're writing this stuff down

    You’re gonna be okay.
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