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2019-06-28 at 3:16 AM UTC
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2019-06-28 at 4:59 AM UTCNo
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2019-07-01 at 11:19 AM UTCTHEY SHIPPED IT!!! Looks like it could've been an honest mistake. They might've express shipped it because it got to my city post office in two days
Bought one of those time locking safes that only lets you unlock it after the amount of time has passed so I don't go full retard on it, and gonna try it therapeutically
If that doesn't work though I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. The last few times it hasn't worked but my usage habits were..uh..unhealthy
I know I'm gonna get called a fag for this, but I'm also only listening to uplifting gospel music and going to church and so on again. I see endless reports online about how much it helped people, so we'll see. So far it makes me more depressed yet seems to make it more bearable
I also just poured out a gallon of vodka and I'm already having second thoughts about it
Tl;dr: I'm giving this one more honest shotThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-01 at 1 PM UTCI also made an order a couple days ago via priority mail to see whether they cut open my package or not. If they don't I'll accept it as though my box isn't compromised. That was half the reason I orderedd it. I got a first class package earlier, but I heard they need a search warrant to open that.
Jb, I remember you posted one time about something like they can't go after you or something for trying to recieve prescription, yet not controlled substance? Idk, you said something (reassuring) about they can't do ... for getting sent such a thing. -
2019-07-01 at 1:02 PM UTC
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2019-07-02 at 11:11 AM UTCI took 250mg FA thinking, "this is so I can sleep and not have to deal with the side effects of kratоm just before bed (waking up to piss, dry mouth) until the alcohol withdrawal goes away, then I can taper it"
I then locked the rest in the safe.
It took roughly five seconds for me to realize how retarded that idea was.
So we're off to a great start already
Honestly though if I could get to where I was ok just using T-PAIN, even in moderate doses, without drinking on it, I'd get to a place where I could at least formulate a plan for moving forward, even with the high cost. Seems multiple people here say that long term use of kratоm can cause depression, anhedonia, and lack of motivation, so maybe it's not as benign as I once thought.
Maybe I've just been taking it so long that this is what I perceive as normal, but it's not -
2019-07-02 at 11:34 AM UTCAlso, this is now the official thread for me whining about my mental problems
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2019-07-02 at 11:40 AM UTCAll right Juicy, bring it!🤬
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2019-07-02 at 12:52 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox I took 250mg FA thinking, "this is so I can sleep and not have to deal with the side effects of kratоm just before bed (waking up to piss, dry mouth) until the alcohol withdrawal goes away, then I can taper it"
I then locked the rest in the safe.
It took roughly five seconds for me to realize how retarded that idea was.
So we're off to a great start already
Honestly though if I could get to where I was ok just using T-PAIN, even in moderate doses, without drinking on it, I'd get to a place where I could at least formulate a plan for moving forward, even with the high cost. Seems multiple people here say that long term use of kratоm can cause depression, anhedonia, and lack of motivation, so maybe it's not as benign as I once thought.
Maybe I've just been taking it so long that this is what I perceive as normal, but it's not
What is FA? I'm glad I quit Crouton (and can't use it anymore because my manager said he's not cool with me using it anymore after it showing up for months on my drug tests) because or how dumb and out there it makes me feel.
I did buy more tia to confirm that my mail isn't being watched and because I like it sometimes. -
2019-07-02 at 12:54 PM UTC
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2019-07-02 at 12:56 PM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano What is FA? I'm glad I quit Crouton (and can't use it anymore because my manager said he's not cool with me using it anymore after it showing up for months on my drug tests) because or how dumb and out there it makes me feel.
I did buy more tia to confirm that my mail isn't being watched and because I like it sometimes.
Did you realise that taking drugs was optional before he mentioned it to you? -
2019-07-03 at 3:04 AM UTCWell, it turns out I don't enjoy high dose T-PAIN anymore. Don't know what changed.
It appears that I get the same psychosis and feeling of unease from opioids that I get from stimulants now. Yay.
But at least that means I won't be tempted as much.
For now I'm going to take 25mg T-PAIN in the day and at night. Kratоm will be tapered down 1/4 teaspoon per dose per week.
Might see about adding memantine in as well if I think it will help.
Feeling better today, but that could be because today is my Friday. We shall see. -
2019-07-03 at 3:09 AM UTCWhat were those RCs yall used to talk about al the time some of you did them? Malice recommended one to me once. The 4fa or 3fa or some shit ? Stims . Whatever.
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2019-07-03 at 3:28 AM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano What is FA? I'm glad I quit Crouton (and can't use it anymore because my manager said he's not cool with me using it anymore after it showing up for months on my drug tests) because or how dumb and out there it makes me feel.
I did buy more tia to confirm that my mail isn't being watched and because I like it sometimes.
Tianeptinе free acid -
2019-07-03 at 3:35 AM UTCI see Lanny changed tianeptine to T-PAIN.
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2019-07-03 at 11:04 AM UTCFive days, lol
Better than none I guess
In any case if I do start drinking again at least I can just throw my wallet and keys into that lock box and not be able to get any more -
2019-07-03 at 12:32 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox Five days, lol
Better than none I guess
In any case if I do start drinking again at least I can just throw my wallet and keys into that lock box and not be able to get any more
See, that time lock safe is paying for itself
I would've went and bought alcohol and took more T-PAIN by now for sure -
2019-07-03 at 9:28 PM UTC
Originally posted by Jυicebox THEY SHIPPED IT!!! Looks like it could've been an honest mistake. They might've express shipped it because it got to my city post office in two days
Bought one of those time locking safes that only lets you unlock it after the amount of time has passed so I don't go full retard on it, and gonna try it therapeutically
If that doesn't work though I honestly don't know what I'm going to do. The last few times it hasn't worked but my usage habits were..uh..unhealthy
I know I'm gonna get called a fag for this, but I'm also only listening to uplifting gospel music and going to church and so on again. I see endless reports online about how much it helped people, so we'll see. So far it makes me more depressed yet seems to make it more bearable
I also just poured out a gallon of vodka and I'm already having second thoughts about it
Tl;dr: I'm giving this one more honest shot
Dude that's a hell of a good idea about that time -locking safe! That's a good way for addicts like me to dispense drugs to myself in a rational, reasonsble time span. -
2019-07-03 at 10:44 PM UTC
Originally posted by WellHung Dude that's a hell of a good idea about that time -locking safe! That's a good way for addicts like me to dispense drugs to myself in a rational, reasonsble time span.
This is the one I got
https://www.amazon.com/Kitchen-Safe-Mini-Locking-Container/dp/B01N3VVMAB
Also works great for locking keys/wallets up if you're going to be drinking -
2019-07-03 at 11:12 PM UTCMany of those mini-safes malfunction within about a year, due to buggy software. The readout will start flickering random numbers and fading off and on. The manufacturer then replaces it. If that happens when your stuff is inside, you'd have to destroy the safe to get it out, or send it to the manufacturer with the safe.
