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2019-06-29 at 11:17 PM UTC
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2019-06-30 at 8:48 AM UTC
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2019-07-01 at 4:04 AM UTCI'm amazed with how little I want alcohol. I have some beers I could be drinking and I legitimately do not want them. Last night I opened one just cause and I let it sit for about a half hour just getting warm.
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2019-07-01 at 4:07 AM UTCDay 4 or 5 now and symotoms are almost gone. I was super weak yesterday due to almost no sleep or food. Sweating down significantly. Numb skin going away. No more hot/cold flashes.
I hate that fucking weed does this to me now. Going to stop distracting myself tomorrow.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-01 at 6:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by GGG I think all the hangovers have reconditioned my brain or someshit.
Like reverse opiates.
Also, i think i heard someone on NiS or some other Totse spinoff mention this about drugs in general but i feel it applies to opiates especially. They said something along the lines of: One is too many and a thousand is not enough.
Very true. I'm not trying to quit or anything, for one i have way too easy access to opiates. This is by my own design so i really fucked up with that one, but other than that going through low intensity use cycles. Like 2 days on 5 days off, has made me sort of accustomed to mild withdrawal. Sure it's a bit uncomfortable, but nothing i can't handle.
I think it helps that there was a period where i kicked opiates for a good long while. It makes you more resilient to the withdrawal to have went through the worst of it at one point in time. Feel like it's a bit of a double edged sword. However, i get my opiates pharm grade, so it's the best of an arguably 'meh' situation.
Anyway, i feel like when we were young we were lied to so much about drugs that once you venture into the realm of psychotropics, you're like: WTF Was all that fuzz about? And you'll deal just perfectly fine, until opiate addiction crawls up on you. And then you're fucked. Because honestly, i tried just about everything under the sun and the only shit that has ever caused me discomfort after discontinuing use are opiates. And i guess Nicotine, because nicotine is of the devil, but i've been smoking for half my life, SO GUESS I WILL DIE OF LUNG CANCER. No use quitting now. Throw some rigs, cigs and Whiskey in my coffin when i go, alright guys?
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2019-07-01 at 6:52 AM UTCChronic pain.
If not for that I would never touch opioids again.
It's a bitch, but I refuse to live a half life unable to function. I respect you all though who've gotten clean and all. I admire you guys, especially you, casper. -
2019-07-01 at 7:33 AM UTC
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2019-07-01 at 12:05 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Chronic pain.
If not for that I would never touch opioids again.
It's a bitch, but I refuse to live a half life unable to function. I respect you all though who've gotten clean and all. I admire you guys, especially you, casper.
maybe the pain is like all in your head man -
2019-07-01 at 5:08 PM UTC
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2019-07-01 at 5:24 PM UTCWhy can't more heroin users be responsible, like narc.
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2019-07-01 at 6:34 PM UTCI just threw my coffee stir stick at a hobo in perfect throwing knife style, it hit his hat lol.
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2019-07-01 at 6:50 PM UTCCigarettes and alcohol are the worst for me. I've kind of accepted I'm going to have opiates and marijuana in my life for rest of it, hopefully in small doses only as needed. I smoked some cigs a week ago and it kicked my immune systems ass to the point where I had a horrible cold the last few days. I crave alcohol everyday and recently, crack and powder cocaine (powder cocaine is omnipresent but crack is new, I held a bunch of crack in my hand the other day and started sweating and now I can't get it out of my head). I've been feeling pretty depressed lately for no good reason, just basically wanting more than is available to me right now. I have a pretty dope gf thing and some friends who are alright I kinda distance myself from. When I feel bad I take shit out on people too. I think everything in my life is going to fall apart and I feel like a fraud. I dunno, I need a change of some sort.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-07-01 at 7:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo Cigarettes and alcohol are the worst for me. I've kind of accepted I'm going to have opiates and marijuana in my life for rest of it, hopefully in small doses only as needed. I smoked some cigs a week ago and it kicked my immune systems ass to the point where I had a horrible cold the last few days. I crave alcohol everyday and recently, crack and powder cocaine (powder cocaine is omnipresent but crack is new, I held a bunch of crack in my hand the other day and started sweating and now I can't get it out of my head). I've been feeling pretty depressed lately for no good reason, just basically wanting more than is available to me right now. I have a pretty dope gf thing and some friends who are alright I kinda distance myself from. When I feel bad I take shit out on people too. I think everything in my life is going to fall apart and I feel like a fraud. I dunno, I need a change of some sort.
Have you tried kava? When I wanted to cut back on drinking I would just drink kava. It is hardly recreational but it'll take the edge off and stop you from craving alcohol so much. Fits that GABA desire. I like the micronized powders.
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2019-07-01 at 7:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG Have you tried kava? When I wanted to cut back on drinking I would just drink kava. It is hardly recreational but it'll take the edge off and stop you from craving alcohol so much. Fits that GABA desire. I like the micronized powders.
I don't drink at all, haven't for a month almost and before that almost another month, I'm just an alcoholic who uses it to cope.
What do you crave about crack? I've never done it and don't plan to. Is there anything safer you can substitute it with?
What do I crave about crack? Oh I dunno maybe THE FACT THAT IT'S CRACK
I need to get my dopamine from somewhere, when it's lacking I fall back onto substances and I'm in a very precarious situation rn. I have some DMT I'm going to smoke tomorrow when I go get a crack stem and hopefully that will scratch my itchThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-07-01 at 7:33 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG Have you tried kava? When I wanted to cut back on drinking I would just drink kava. It is hardly recreational but it'll take the edge off and stop you from craving alcohol so much. Fits that GABA desire. I like the micronized powders.
What do you crave about crack? I've never done it and don't plan to. Is there anything safer you can substitute it with?
Not really. Crack is it's own thing.. I don't crave cocaine ever, but I do crave crack. It's scary though, it makes my (and everybody I talk to) heart feel like it's gonna explode, but that's part of what makes it naughty.
I'm glad I don't crave/like alcohol. It seems that doing so just causes this continous (perhaps lifelong) battle all the time. I don't have that luxury with opiates though. -
2019-07-01 at 7:38 PM UTCI dunno, basically my whole family has had issues with alcohol except my mom and an uncle on either side. A lot of my cousins turned out half decent too and have problems with things other than drugs and alcohol. I've had points in my life where alcohol wasn't something I thought about everyday but it will always be a monkey on my back. Fucking lower class scottish/german/english ancestryThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-07-01 at 10:44 PM UTC
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2019-07-02 at 12:34 AM UTCI engaged in an act of petty cruelty towards an unfortunate person to make myself feel better.
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2019-07-02 at 12:34 AM UTCBecause I was high.
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2019-07-02 at 12:36 AM UTCI really do wanna quit man. Or regulate. I rolled up 3 juicy ass kif loaded blunts that will make your heart stop. I don't slit my blunts, I extract and pack. I throw in ribbons of raw kif. It's beautiful and draws so smooth you wouldn't believe.
But I'm like bro, it's Monday. I haven't been sober for like 3 weeks. I just smoked one and I'm toasted. And I know I'm gonna go back out there and smoke more. And I have 2 for tomorrow if I don't. I feel kinda shitty actually. I feel like a bitch. A weed bitch.
