2016-07-04 at 4:05 PM UTC
I certainly wouldn't commit suicide solely for what you said to me, Malice. I dont, nor ever expected friendship from you- it may be what I need, but I've not ever deluded myself that you would provide that. I've dealt with a lot of people similar to you (probably not as smart, but same condition), and I know how it goes, people like you are incapable of any real friendship. I have extended an olive branch, but that's the kind of person I am, I know you could not ever reciprocate the gesture, not in any meaningful way, but again, I have always appreciated your perspective and advice, even now. I have no hard feelings. Days before I made an attempt, which obviously failed. I tried to reply to your email, but the phone I am using is an even bigger piece of shit than my old one, which was lost during the move. Situation has changed a wee bit, and now I am pretending to be a rich yuppie, at a beach house, literally a block from the beach. I'll be here a week, so when I get some wifi, I'll give a more detailed reply, right now I just don't have the time.
2016-07-04 at 6:51 PM UTC
Is there anyone here who hasn't tried killing themselves, or are we all a bunch of failures?
2016-07-04 at 8:19 PM UTC
I've never tried killing myself but I'm pretty sure that doesn't get me out of the failure category
2016-07-05 at 12:08 AM UTC
Jesus Christ, the overheard conversations of people with too much money and not enough sense. Its like they are a whole different species of human beings that engage with other people wIth fear and distrust when another person walking by simply says "hello, how are you all doing today?" while continuing on. Everyone is cold and distrustful here- that is one thing I've noticed from most people, though at least people who aren't wealthy enough for a beach house to vacation tend toatleast pretend to be friendly. The mentality and way one engages with others in Florida is much different compared to here.
Asfor pushing me over the edge- I was already there, no pushing needed. I don't know tthat I wont, just floating for now in this pretty interesting situation now.
2016-07-05 at 12:30 AM UTC
Oh, and being back in the north east, the quality of food is like a million times better than Florida. When I first moved, it was like all the food sucked, everywhere, save for a few select places, but back here there is actually good food everywhere again. I haven't been eating much, like I've gone days without eating for the past few months, but Atleast when I do grab something to eat, it's actually worth my time to be eating. The weather is supposed to me nice tomorrow so I guess the baby and I are going to the beach and on a ferryboat ride across to another state to this state park that supposed to be interesting. Then some kinda dinner outting with rich old people.
2016-07-05 at 12:40 AM UTC
Also, §m£ÂgØL, in case you check here, I can't receive nor send texts for some reason- the baby grabbed the phone and went on a calling spree and you were a victim last night if it went through, he ended up calling other people too. Service sucks here and it's hit or mis if a call goes through or text.
2016-07-05 at 4:11 AM UTC
§m£ÂgØL, since none of my texts are going through, could you please email me Jason's phone number if you happen to get this (also, its be nice if you could call if you got time tonight- either number is fine to call, I'll be up and have both to myself). It was in the phone I lost and I never gave it to her so she doesn't know he's got phone service- I haven't spoke to him since I left during all the shit going on when hell broke loose and I was in the hotel two nights and then came here. Im trying to talk him into coming to the beach and staying at this kickass beach house with the baby and me for at least a night- if you talk to him you might mention he should come, it is really nice here and a lot to do. Anyway, thanks. (also, please tell him I do not have a warrant on me, I've checked, and called, all that shit was bullshit and it's over now- without a court order otherwise I have every right to be with and care for my son- you paranoid motherfuckers are hard to deal with sometimes when y'all convince yourself shit is worse than it really is, then it makes me all paranoid too).
2016-07-05 at 11:22 AM UTC
Stella? Get some Polish beer, far superior.
2016-07-05 at 12:23 PM UTC
every asian guy I know drinks stella
2016-07-05 at 1:07 PM UTC
I didn't like Zywiec very much. I don't like Heineken, Beck's, Molson, Bud or anything like that. Chimay and Hoegaarden are pretty good but wifebeater is pretty cheap in the cans. $3 per 500ml can.
2016-07-05 at 2:10 PM UTC
Hoegaarden is nice. Try and find Tyskie, it's like Stella just better. They've reduced the strength of it tho. Okocim's are nice and 7%, but Karpackies are the best at 9%, it's like drinking two beers at once and get you wrecked fast.
2016-07-06 at 10:33 AM UTC
Got some really seedy weed yesterday (for free, they said they couldn't charge me for it, tbf it was terrible), when I walked to the shop I was chucking them in patches around a primary school. I hope in a years time there's a news story about a random crop of weed plants growing in a school grounds.
2016-07-06 at 9:57 PM UTC
Nah I'm guna be out of this place soon so I'd never get to see them grow and bud if they even did, I've kept 5 in reserve tho. I might chuck these 5 in the patches of flowers and whatnot outside a police station.
if you can't make it don't take it
