2016-01-01 at 2:54 AM UTC
Maybe ISIS put a bomb in the New Years crystal ball and when it hits the bottom of the pole at the end of the countdown it will explode and kill a bunch of people
2016-01-01 at 5:13 AM UTC
Happy New Year. It sounds like war outside. These cheap rednecks decided to buy ammo instead of fireworks this year also many are playing with their christmas presents. I contributed to the ambience of war and fired off a shot for my dad. Any year we didnt buy fireworks, he would always go out and fire atleast one shot off. The first time I fired a firearm, was my .22 rifle whenI was 7. It was in a densely populated suburb with 2 warehouses on eitherside of our dead end 8 house street. Itechoed like a motherfucker.
2016-01-01 at 5:44 AM UTC
Hmm, it's a new year...shit, I hope there isn't some major difference this will make, something I forgot, something to do, that I should/want to do, that will be coming out or changing this year. I'm so detached from life, ordinary reality, and constantly distracted by the data stream, it's possible. No, I doubt it. I mean, there's VR and new pharmaceuticals coming out this year, other stuff as usual, but I didn't forget about that. Nah, I'm pretty sure there was nothing last year either.
Listening to the FIDLAR album after playing that song sploo posted.
2016-01-01 at 7:55 AM UTC
I heard 3 full autos tonight. People were bringing out the big boys tonight. There is a state trooper anout. 1500-2000 ft up the road. I know he hears this shit too. Nobody calls the cops ever around here. Gunfire, even full auto gunfire from time to time is so common around here nobody ever things to call. Fuck, just a couple weeks ago, I pulled a gun on a mexican who tried to get in my house. I went out back after he ran off and discharged it to spook him off further. We used to euthanize animals that way too and we would do it day or night- whenever it needed doing. Youd have no problem shooting your AR-10 in my neck of the woods, even during the day on a non holiday and not have the cops called.
2016-01-01 at 10:51 PM UTC
New year, new me. but for real 7 months sober daresay I feel great. Its nice to be able to leave the house without a bottle of etizolam and to be able to form memories and shit. Anyone out there thats fucked on benzos I promise you it is possible to get clean. Last night I got drunk by myself and read through some old journal entries/poetry I wrote while I was in the thick of it all. God damn that was sad but a good reminder to how absolute fucking shit it was coming clean I'm glad I wrote it down.
Got a new job starting Monday where I'll be making more money in less hours than I was at my other shit part time job and its set schedule of M-F so maybe I'll be able to like make plans and have fun and stuff starting this new year.
2016-01-03 at 5:50 AM UTC
Im in a rather positive emotional mood right now and I just wanted to say (yes, I know Im being a faggot right now, especially to you less than happy people here) but I appreciate a lot of you in this land of misfits. I dont have a family (besides my baby and the dogs), and very few friends irl (the only one I can honestly say is a irl friend I met here and is the whole reason I have a baby). Thank you, Lanny for allowing us to continue for this community (what is left) to continue. Thank you, countBlah, POC, HSA, crazy mike, even Midnight Sun (though hes not been here to post) for your support, kindness, and help in the past- I havent forgotten it, and it ment a lot to me. Thank you, Malice, for your words of wisdom, advice and suggestions, I could be suffering with chronic pain all through this shit if not for your suggestion of T-PAIN and besides that there are many things youve helped me with, and made life better not just for me, but for my dad before he passed and advice for my baby (hes still on the royal jelly and doing great). things may be tough but having a place here has truely made a big difference with people who can not only relate, but have a similar view on the world.
2016-01-03 at 6:47 AM UTC
It's 3 days into 2016 and I don't even remember 2015 or 2014.
2016-01-03 at 7:27 AM UTC
"The person in whom its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t’ and ‘Hang On!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling." - David Foster Wallace
2016-01-03 at 6:24 PM UTC
Let's take count here how many of you woke up with a boner this morning? Show of hands?
*raises hand*
2016-01-03 at 6:43 PM UTC
Please, please type up that story.
2016-01-03 at 8:27 PM UTC
Yes but only for 3/5ths of a dong.
2016-01-04 at 5:59 AM UTC
Had the coolest shit happen today. After placing an order for tobacco my balance wasnt right and instead of having 4$ and some change, ther was a 1$ and change. So I call my AMEX prepaid card to see whats up. This Indian call center worker answers, goes through my balance with me.. I explain, Ive got an interview tomorrow and was counting on that 4$ for gas, and how sorry I was to be pestering them over a few $$. He says to me 'look, youre obviously having a hard time.. this is what Im gonna do, Im gonna put 15$ in your account to help you out' I am like holy fuck. 'I thank him and say how he has literally saved my ass, jow my husband had left me a few months back, stole all my money and how I just got this job interview tomorrow and how I was going to have to go pawn stuff tomorrow for a baby sitter and hoe much this 15$ really ment to me. He said 'you know what.. fuck it (yes exact words), Im going to put in 25$. I hope it helps, dont worry about gas money, worry about getting this job, I wish you the best of luck with and I will be praying for you. Dont worry, we will meet again, and just focus on this job.' The last part was kinda creepy but lol I was so fucking blown away. This really is gonna help me. Ive got some indian dude at a call center in india whos done me better than these awful faggots around here and fuck, hes even gonna pray to his elephant headed God for me! And mind you, this is just a fucking prepaid AMEX debit card lol. Im fucking so grateful to this guy. I hope he doesnt get in trouble.
