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2017-08-04 at 9:29 PM UTC
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2017-08-04 at 9:32 PM UTCthis sites been so fucking boring lately i'd actually read some of her rants.
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2017-08-04 at 9:32 PM UTC
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2017-08-04 at 9:36 PM UTCI'm fucking hungry as shit, but I don't feel like going up to Kroger and having to ride my bike back for 15 minutes with a bunch of groceries. I'll just get a ride up there tomorrow morning. Gotta survive off this can of macaroni and beef, some ice cream, cookies, and cereal and oatmeal until then. Damn it. Maybe I'll just buy some bullshit up at the gas station for a fuller meal for tonight, 'cause that shit ain't gonna cut it.
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2017-08-04 at 10:18 PM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery I'm fucking hungry as shit, but I don't feel like going up to Kroger and having to ride my bike back for 15 minutes with a bunch of groceries. I'll just get a ride up there tomorrow morning. Gotta survive off this can of macaroni and beef, some ice cream, cookies, and cereal and oatmeal until then. Damn it. Maybe I'll just buy some bullshit up at the gas station for a fuller meal for tonight, 'cause that shit ain't gonna cut it.
I'm eating a 16 inch pizza then I'm going to kill the other half of this bottle of Evan. Who knows how much gabapentin I've had today, I've been staggering 300 mg doses every half hour or so since this morning. Goes so well with alcohol, really gets the GABA party going. -
2017-08-04 at 10:24 PM UTC
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2017-08-04 at 11:02 PM UTC
Originally posted by Phoenix etiz and alcohol aint gonna do the trick, and if im perf honest, the o-desmthyltramadol probably wouldn't have either. I need straight up H, but fuck BTC. I'm too much of a reclusive slut (and broke af) o go buy some real real so I'm fucked for another…. just a guesstimation… 4-5 moths.
I miss U-47700. Shit was potennt enough to kill a nigga dead especially with other cns depressants. Vendor doesn't stock it anymore though. Fuck.
Oh and hey, I'd like to alk to you on skype or similar at some point. No homo. You seem cool as hell and my whole thing is listening to miserable people. If yu aren't down I get it but yeaah. I'd like to get to know you. We been round since totse days. Ancient times, really.
Post last edited by Phoenix at 2017-08-04T11:09:09.156697+00:00
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2017-08-04 at 11:02 PM UTC
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2017-08-04 at 11:54 PM UTC
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2017-08-05 at 12:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Cuntmorphine shouldblatch on to Malice and try to get on his dick, they'd be perfect together, we'll get epic longshit posts of monumental proportions.
Fuck no, nigger. I'm pretty damn sure she doesn't feel that way and I've made it clear I don't. Then again, we all know how women tend to be, the importance of a mate/partner for them, feeling secure, especially if they have children, and how insane they can became, how radically their mentality shifts. I wouldn't consider it for a second and would instantly go complete no-contact if there were able a single distinct sign of interest.
In fact, I literally am borderline asexual, aromantic, and asocial, particularly IRL.
I'm not exaggerating. As difficult as it may be to relate to, understand, and believe for the vast majority of males, I do not form crushes at all, find women to look completely unremarkable and unmemorable, it's entirely insubstantial, superficial, and doesn't mean anything to me, would never sustain a relationship and would become unnoteworthy rapidly, I don't even look at women's bodies IRL, I find the general archetype of women, their natural behavior and what they evolved to be, to be absolutely profoundly abhorrent and repulsive,completely uninteresting for a wide variety of reasons, possessing exceedingly poor intellectual qualities, incompatible for vast array of reasons etc.
Fortunately I'm completely unsuitable anyway! How the hell could I be a suitable partner for an older woman with a child? I'm literally autistic, on SSI, and for years could barely take care of myself. -
2017-08-05 at 12:20 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-05 at 12:35 AM UTCI'm actually changing substantially.
I can go outside daily just fine, without excessive anxiety, and I'm running 30 minutes every day at good intensity, a level of effort, with sublingual NSI-189 (massive effect when you do this).
I'm also consistently meeting responsibilities with preparing for school, and have been cleaning my apartment regularly. The floor (I just need a new powerful mop, an ultra mop, to really finish it off. Like, a huge one that also has strong large bristles or something so that it can also scrub the floor, maybe even motorized.). Taking out the trash regularly.
My sink is finally cleaned out after months. Heh, I just plugged the drain and added a ton of detergent, bleach, and max temp water, left it like that for hours. Laziest fucking way to prepare a ton of filthy hard to clean dishes, but by god if it ever works great.
Sink, shower, and toilet are all thoroughly scrubbed, disinfected, and spotless.
Eating well and consistently. General biological maintenance, bodily upkeep.
Guess I still need to work on getting to bed on time and not overdoing it because I'm reading/researching and writing excessively. Literally spend two days straight, ending just yesterday, doing this with barely a break, although my productivity dropped off a lot after 24 hours straight (I was on flmodafinil) and by midnight on the second day, when I still needed to eat and wrap up, I genuinely felt like I may accidentally pass out suddenly at some point. I just get so enthralled and obsessed by certain things, projects I'm working on. At times I just feel I have to continue the unbroken stream of consciousness and thought.
Well, at least I definitely don't have a problem reading and writing for absurd periods, maintaining my concentration, as long as I genuinely find it interesting, and I do find most things of interest, other than math and some bullshit in the arts and social sciences, at least what students are required to read and how it's presented.
I could probably beat damn near anyone, except some of those super-Asians at top universities. You can't compete with this aspie when it comes to extreme obsession/severe OCD, repetitiveness/preference for sameness, going into hyperfocus mode, generally just working non-stop on something all day long.
I highly recommend everyone try NSI-189 sublingually, ideally the freebase, before some intensive exercise. Simply an intermittent style of running/jogging, stopping and starting to keep your BPM in a certain range, the intensity/exertion high enough, for as little as 15 minutes, maybe even 10 (I prefer to do 30, although 20 would be optimal if you really ramp up the intensity near the max of what you can handle.). At least half the time you aren't even running/jogging, but simply walking or jogging at a slow pace until you recover enough energy, your heartbeat and breathing go down enough.
There's an undeniable and distinct boost in mood, energy levels, and cognition, your mental energy and what feels like the most distinct increase in general intelligence I have ever experienced, possibly the only true effect.
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2017-08-05 at 12:38 AM UTCfuck off malice, you're boring.
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2017-08-05 at 12:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I'm not exaggerating. As difficult as it may be to relate to, understand, and believe for the vast majority of males, I do not form crushes at all, find women to look completely unremarkable and unmemorable, it's entirely insubstantial, superficial, and doesn't mean anything to me, would never sustain a relationship and would become unnoteworthy rapidly, I don't even look at women's bodies IRL, I find the general archetype of women, their natural behavior and what they evolved to be, to be absolutely profoundly abhorrent and repulsive,completely uninteresting for a wide variety of reasons, possessing exceedingly poor intellectual qualities, incompatible for vast array of reasons etc.
Ever think the fact that you don't actually know any women might be a contributing factor there? -
2017-08-05 at 12:43 AM UTC
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2017-08-05 at 12:53 AM UTCI'd be willing to send Lanny a small amount to test it if he promises to only use it before exercise, pay close attention/focus his awareness on the after-effects, and write down his experience, because otherwise it would be a waste.
I would also offer PoC some, but he's bound to be incredibly fucked up and in a self-destructive state in a while where he doesn't want anyone to help him and acts like a brat/retard/jackass/asshole to them, as if I'm trying to get closer to him, be friends, even really help him or particularly care, that this means that much, or feel sorry for him.
And, of course, if you say this, he'll still have a strong overreaction, or at least a long lasting negative reaction, because of how absurdly over sensitive he is, how out of control his emotions are.
You can't fucking win with the guy!
I have to be perfectly honest, at this point I don't believe most of the people here that have serious problems, I have PoC and HTS/Phoenix in mind, hell, probably even Hydro, are ever going to get it together. I don't think they're ever going to change or listen, and will continue suffering and degrading until they die in some manner or commit suicide, which may not take long. Yeah, I said it, I genuinely think you're going to end up dead, unfortunately and it may be for the best.
No, actually, it's a fucking shame that Nardil, ECT, and TMS are so difficult to get. Ultimately I blame the psychiatric industry, and, above all, the abhorrent state and the power of political authority. Fuck statism! Statism kills people and leads to countless forms of suffering, an immeasurable level of it.
I'm done wasting time trying to give people advice based on the countless hours I've spent in reflection/thought and research, the insane amount of time and effort I put into it to the exclusion of all else, for people who can't even manage to read for 5-10 minutes, don't care, don't listen or understand, and are absolute lost causes who never truly put it to use, manage to stick with anything, who arey even genuinely try and are so apathetic.
I know I may not seem like one to talk, but I made it through hell, particularly the last 3 years of relentless hell and complete isolation, an insane amount of incredibly severe problems, but I fucking made it through and learned countless valuable lessons I fully grasped and ingrained.
I dedicated so much of my time to reading about various subjects, related to the most important facets of my life, the fundamentals of life, humanity, their society/world they created, the world/existence in general, and it finally truly bore fruit! I'm in a position where I can finally fully utilize it and move forward, put it to actual good use. I know what my passions are and what I want to do, devote as much as 8 years straight of immense continuous effort to trying to achieve.
I literally drove myself to the brink of insanity, beggining to genuinely succumb to it, masturbated, abandoned everything in life, to reach this state, this level of development. I lived! and I want to experience what I value in life to the fullest.
My ideal would be to eventually, ideally soon, leave this place and never look back. It is an absurd, useless time sink, and I've long known and accepted I've been relying, dependent on it, as a substitute for IRL social relations, because it's been the only community I've ever known. I've already beem reading far less of it, spending much less time here (My writing could have been posted anywhere.). There are far betetr communities with people who are more learned and intelligent elsewhere, far more stimulating and satisfying.
If I do leave, I will only return in two years as an update on my life, the key aspects of how it's going, and whether I'm achieving my goals. -
2017-08-05 at 12:55 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist fuck off malice, you're boring.
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You're a mentally retarded commoner. Go watch TV, fixate on sports, porn, facebook, whatever it is you low quality people do.
Originally posted by Lanny Ever think the fact that you don't actually know any women might be a contributing factor there?
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2017-08-05 at 1:05 AM UTC
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2017-08-05 at 1:25 AM UTCNow Westworld.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-05 at 1:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Fuck no, nigger. I'm pretty damn sure she doesn't feel that way and I've made it clear I don't. Then again, we all know how women tend to be, the importance of a mate/partner for them, feeling secure, especially if they have children, and how insane they can became, how radically their mentality shifts. I wouldn't consider it for a second and would instantly go complete no-contact if there were able a single distinct sign of interest.
In fact, I literally am borderline asexual, aromantic, and asocial, particularly IRL.
I'm not exaggerating. As difficult as it may be to relate to, understand, and believe for the vast majority of males, I do not form crushes at all, find women to look completely unremarkable and unmemorable, it's entirely insubstantial, superficial, and doesn't mean anything to me, would never sustain a relationship and would become unnoteworthy rapidly, I don't even look at women's bodies IRL, I find the general archetype of women, their natural behavior and what they evolved to be, to be absolutely profoundly abhorrent and repulsive,completely uninteresting for a wide variety of reasons, possessing exceedingly poor intellectual qualities, incompatible for vast array of reasons etc.
Fortunately I'm completely unsuitable anyway! How the hell could I be a suitable partner for an older woman with a child? I'm literally autistic, on SSI, and for years could barely take care of myself.
Originally posted by Malice I'm actually changing substantially.
I can go outside daily just fine, without excessive anxiety, and I'm running 30 minutes every day at good intensity, a level of effort, with sublingual NSI-189 (massive effect when you do this).
I'm also consistently meeting responsibilities with preparing for school, and have been cleaning my apartment regularly. The floor (I just need a new powerful mop, an ultra mop, to really finish it off. Like, a huge one that also has strong large bristles or something so that it can also scrub the floor, maybe even motorized.). Taking out the trash regularly.
My sink is finally cleaned out after months. Heh, I just plugged the drain and added a ton of detergent, bleach, and max temp water, left it like that for hours. Laziest fucking way to prepare a ton of filthy hard to clean dishes, but by god if it ever works great.
Sink, shower, and toilet are all thoroughly scrubbed, disinfected, and spotless.
Eating well and consistently. General biological maintenance, bodily upkeep.
Guess I still need to work on getting to bed on time and not overdoing it because I'm reading/researching and writing excessively. Literally spend two days straight, ending just yesterday, doing this with barely a break, although my productivity dropped off a lot after 24 hours straight (I was on flmodafinil) and by midnight on the second day, when I still needed to eat and wrap up, I genuinely felt like I may accidentally pass out suddenly at some point. I just get so enthralled and obsessed by certain things, projects I'm working on. At times I just feel I have to continue the unbroken stream of consciousness and thought.
Well, at least I definitely don't have a problem reading and writing for absurd periods, maintaining my concentration, as long as I genuinely find it interesting, and I do find most things of interest, other than math and some bullshit in the arts and social sciences, at least what students are required to read and how it's presented.
I could probably beat damn near anyone, except some of those super-Asians at top universities. You can't compete with this aspie when it comes to extreme obsession/severe OCD, repetitiveness/preference for sameness, going into hyperfocus mode, generally just working non-stop on something all day long.
I highly recommend everyone try NSI-189 sublingually, ideally the freebase, before some intensive exercise. Simply an intermittent style of running/jogging, stopping and starting to keep your BPM in a certain range, the intensity/exertion high enough, for as little as 15 minutes, maybe even 10 (I prefer to do 30, although 20 would be optimal if you really ramp up the intensity near the max of what you can handle.). At least half the time you aren't even running/jogging, but simply walking or jogging at a slow pace until you recover enough energy, your heartbeat and breathing go down enough.
There's an undeniable and distinct boost in mood, energy levels, and cognition, your mental energy and what feels like the most distinct increase in general intelligence I have ever experienced, possibly the only true effect.
I won't write too much about the details because then you won't read it.
Didn't read
