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2017-06-11 at 4:24 AM UTCAlso I just boofed 200mg of morphine. That might have been a bad idea. Earlier today I boofed 40mg and snorted 45mg of oxycodone. lol, ded.
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2017-06-11 at 4:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice You can't fixate on single acts. Let's say you could somehow create a scale and accurate measurements for the cumulative negative utility you've caused. The average junkie has caused far more lasting harm than that if you're able to set aside your emotions and view it from a purely rational, detached, viewpoint.
His suffering was about to come to an end. Junkies generally pray on the living and can cause so much damage to people's lives that it can last for the rest of their victims lives.
Well I have also done all the other things you mentioned besides stealing from charities. Stealing from kids was fun. I would get capsules of adderall XR, take the beads out and fill it with orange sprinkles. Also temazepam capsules filled with melatonin powder. -
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2017-06-11 at 4:31 AM UTC
Originally posted by 1337 Well I have also done all the other things you mentioned besides stealing from charities. Stealing from kids was fun. I would get capsules of adderall XR, take the beads out and fill it with orange sprinkles. Also temazepam capsules filled with melatonin powder.
I knew a dude in high school who caught his older brother emptying his Dexedrine capsules and filling them with table salt, orange sprinkles is pretty creative.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
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2017-06-11 at 4:32 AM UTC
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2017-06-11 at 4:38 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-06-11 at 4:40 AM UTCHydro told me not to drink too much and I accidentally almost half the liter
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2017-06-11 at 4:52 AM UTCI can convince any of you to kill yourselves.
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2017-06-11 at 4:52 AM UTCNiggssindotspace, more like jonestownindotspace
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2017-06-11 at 4:53 AM UTCYeah, she has that mom instinct. Protip: don't call her shitfaced drunk and fucked up from slamming taineptine because your wife left you.
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2017-06-11 at 4:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack Hydro told me not to drink too much and I accidentally almost half the liter
Amateur.
BTW, I didn't take 10mg of etiz because I had developed a habit, it was because I had been passively suicidal for at least a few months and had been drinking insane amounts of alcohol every day. I was literally drinking a 5 liter box of wine per day at one point, and then I moved on to mixing it with cheap brandy because it was too much fluid to drink.
I wasn't even stumbling around incoherent drunk, that was genuinely the level I needed to have the anxiolytic and antidepressant effect I wanted, to just feel numb.
I didn't expect to live very long, I knew there was no way in hell I was going to make it decades, to old age, so greatly shortening my lifespan was fine as long as it made life bearable. I was planning on eventually committing suicide due to a multitude of reasons. I stopped supplementing, taking vitamins and some substances that greatly reduce the harm alcohol causes, and I didn't care about the damage I was doing.
Eventually instead of going to the store to buy more I checked myself into the ER and came clean about being severely depressed and having thoughts of suicide. They decided I didn't need to be sent to the psych ward because I was being reasonable and honest, so I was just in there for about a day. I was literally on the verge of a seizure just from not having had a drink since the night before, so they shot me up with phenobarbital, ativan, and a ton of fluid from IV bags. Also gave me a script for ativan.
I actually did have a mild epileptic seizure once about 5 days later, first time in my life, at least AFAIK (they can happen in your sleep). I met up with Lanny and he gave me some etiz to tide me over because I had been worried about the risk of seizures, and I was right to worry.
I'm literally autis*tic and there's a deficit in the GABAergic pathway, along with some significant differences in glutamate levels and NMDA irregularity, so alcohol and benzos, anything that affects the GABAergic, literally doesn't effect me normally. Right from the start, even without tolerance, I always needed a high dose of benzos. A standard amount of alcohol would have the paradoxical effect of making me significantly more anxious, I needed to flood my receptors with an absurd amount to have the standard effect. It didn't even take long to work up to the amount I was drinking.
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2017-06-11 at 4:58 AM UTCI'm gonna snort another 30mg of oxycodone. Morphine is bullshit unless you slam it.
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2017-06-11 at 5 AM UTCReminded me of this post I made about my alcoholic routine: https://niggasin.space/post/97933
>wake up in a panic completely soaked in a cold sweat after bout of extensive insomnia
>reach over to grab bucket and dry heave
>do some some dabs for the antiemetic effect and other benefits in order to keep anything down, dry heave from the smoke/vapor
>scramble for a drink and anti-depressants
At one point the nausea and damage to my GI tract, or possibly rebound anxiety, was so bad I was cyclically dry heaving for 3 days straight, unable to keep down even water most of the time. I just had to fast the entire time, but fortunately I already had extensive experience with fasting and could go without food pretty easily. -
2017-06-11 at 5:01 AM UTCYou doing better now? I was told a bit about you going to the ER which surprised me since that's so out of character for you but I didn't press for details because I try to respect people's privacy on those matters.
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2017-06-11 at 5:02 AM UTC
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2017-06-11 at 5:03 AM UTCI am quitting everything to gangstock a guy that stole from me before the crack shack days.
He's the reason I am binging on meth about to be homeless and lost my job. All my hard work got stolen by the rats and I spent the past 5 years planning on how to torture them all.
Now its my turn to play.
I want him strapped to a chair naked and let him scream until his voicebox breaks. I'm gonna inject his ballsack with parasites and acid.
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2017-06-11 at 5:08 AM UTCThank god you're probably going either end up in prison where you can't hurt others or in a psych ward where you may finally get the help you need.
At the very least, and this is really the only thing that matters to me, we won't have to deal with you anymore.
BTW, PoC, Lanny has a wordenhancement in place for our amusement and it changes certain words automatically. Recently he added autis*m, which converts to AIDS, and auti*sim spectrum and aut*istic turn to AIDS patientic. I don't have AIDS, fortunately.
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2017-06-11 at 5:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack Shitty day or something?
Yeah man, a guy at work is dying and his doctor is a dick who won't order the drugs he needs to die peacefully. I've gotten really close to him and his family. I wish I could pull a Nurse Jackie and help him out. HM might have mentioned it. -
2017-06-11 at 5:12 AM UTCScron, you actually look kind of cool in that pic. I like the light-punk attire, and you have nice eyes. Hmm, yes, everything works quite well.
Show that pic to HTS and he may actually agree to let you move in and fuck him, he's a fucking slut.