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The retarded thread: Fuck, §m£ÂgØL made one first edition
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2016-06-19 at 9:15 PM UTC
Don't worry, there is no karmic system.
Yea, there is. It's done me both good and bad. Karma is about the only thing I believe in, because I have to. I have to believe people who have done me wrong will get screwed over. I have to believe that, eventually, I will be rewarded for being a mostly good person.
I saw my ex today and wanted to punch her in her fucking stupid face. Karma HAS to screw her over at some point. -
2016-06-19 at 9:27 PM UTCWhat do you do if some chick really wants the D but you're not attracted to her whatsoever? Fuck her anyway?
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2016-06-19 at 11:03 PM UTCSerious question - you know the paypal/credit cards you can buy on betabay/the dark web, are they legit or scams?
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2016-06-19 at 11:13 PM UTC
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2016-06-19 at 11:22 PM UTC
Don't worry, there is no karmic system.
There is also no such thing as "Good" or "Bad" "Luck". I like to think of karma as a universal flow of energy rather than a point based system.
Good things happening does also not mean bad things have to happen for it to "balance out". I dont think Karma can be attributed to Good or Bad things happening to you.
I think it makes more sense looking at how your energy interacts with the world around you and shapes your reality.
I don't like sitting around waiting for positive and negative energy to flow to me, I like putting out energy and doing things that will either help or hurt me. You are always in control of your own destiny.
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2016-06-20 at 12:52 AM UTCMan can do what he wants but he cannot want what he wants.
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2016-06-20 at 1:03 AM UTC“Hello babies. Welcome to Earth. It's hot in the summer and cold in the winter. It's round and wet and crowded. On the outside, babies, you've got a hundred years here. There's only one rule that I know of, babies-God damn it, you've got to be kind.â€
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2016-06-20 at 1:54 AM UTChttp://link.springer.com/article/10.1007%2Fs13524-015-0413-2
Parental Well-being Surrounding First Birth as a Determinant of Further Parity Progression
And this wasn't simply during hte infant stage, which, many may not know due to immense taboo, seems to be universally reviled, and for good reason; it persisted 1-2 years, which, unfortunately, is when the study ended (they were also polled regularly 3 years beforehand).
Suffer for your sins. Women, the most vile of animals. Professional men only spend an average of 1 hour per day interactign with their children. Via the opportunity cost you could demonstrate how astoundingly immoral it is. Then there's the anti-natalism argument, and I've found a solution to every criticism I've come across, some should have known better (Bryan Caplan, although he does have children and even those at the extreme of low emotion and high systemizing/adherence to reason can become succeptible to massive biological bias).
An absolute fool's errand.
I'd like to see research for data on mother's with PHD's (proxy for IQ and conscientiousness), or strictly IQ, and how the experience varies for them. Still not something I'd want to do, although if the Chinese project headed by the Beijing Genomic's Institute (may have changed their name, I don't know what their current status is.) It would be a pretty cool expereince to raise one of those children if they had already been created regardless, although I imagine adoption standards could be quite strict. Parental "irrelevance" ala Caplan suggests this would be misguided, depending on the number produced. Of course, given my ethics, I wouldn't be against kidnapping/theft, fraud, or bribery, if possible. Justifiable even if they were condemned to institutions where they would be raised in the manner and for the purpose the state seemed fit. Even if you quickly found yourslef to be intellectually inadequate for your child, with the monetary means you could still ensure they found their peers by sending them to a school for the (highly) gifted, live in a neighborhood such as where the UC Berkeley professors live (north of campus tends to be common, I beleive).
Anyway, I think I've cracked some of the (perceived) inconsistencies in the data and it's now, or at least is close enough, to making perfect sense.
I felt I'd like to write a paper on this, along with one I may title "Autism: The Diease of Suffering" about those on the "high" functioning end seem to haave the highest capacity of nearly all disorders (On this, given my reading into happiness research and the etiology of autism, it makes perfect sense.) before I may die, but people have wasted their lives due to the lack of understabding of the intractability of human nature, and the overwhelming majority of papers, even if free, as barely read by anyone. I suppose it would have to be for my my own personal satisfaction. -
2016-06-20 at 2:43 AM UTCWrite it down, faggot. Write it all down. I'll be your, less jedi, Max Brod.
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2016-06-20 at 3:23 AM UTCMalice, I think the worst part of a child is eithet having them 24/7 and trying to hold shit together or having to work so much you hardly see them. I love and genuinely enjoy taking my baby places and swimming and such, its just the constant work and household shit doing it all alone thats been so tough. Soon, I wont have all these burdens, and can actually go out into the world on an adventure with him and my friends and just get to enjoy a lot of good things with him. i am really excited for this, but aso scared due to a lot of unknown factors, suddenly moving with my animals and packing... but once its done and we are there it shouldnt be too bad- then in a few weeks its off on a road trip for a while... who knows how long.
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2016-06-20 at 6:30 AM UTC
Soon, I wont have all these burdens, and can actually go out into the world on an adventure with him and my friends and just get to enjoy a lot of good things with him. i am really excited for this
This will be a very small window of time. By the time he reaches 11 or 12, he won't want to hang out with his mother at all. Unless he's socially abnormal, has autism, etc. -
2016-06-20 at 6:35 AM UTCRisiR, did you receive my PM? When I tried to send it to you it gave my a message that I could only have 50 posts in folders max. Nearly all Thanks notifications.
If you aren't receiving any:
First in the inbox folder the "select all" option is invisible in my page, although you can still click it if you hover it. It's next to "Select:" beneath "Mark as read".
They will be sent to the "Trash" folder, and from there tou must select all again and delete permanently.
You know how I am, robotically meticulous, not assuming or condescending. I also remember you telling me that you don't have a PC, and this would be easier to miss on phones. Actually, I've very rarely used the site on mobile, so I don't know what glitches may be specific to it.
Or do you want to give me your cell phone number? I have a Google Voice Account that can forward calls to me cell. You could message me any time about anything, oddly I have an odd mixture of psychopatic/sadistic traits along with genuinely enjoying helping people while expecting nothing in return, usually with the vast and widespread knowledge I've attained. Fortunately the former have largely disappeared since my depression began, increasing with time.Write it down, faggot. Write it all down. I'll be your, less jedi, Max Brod.
The German people are melancholic enough. On the aubject od children, they've amazingly managed to attain a lower birth rate than Japam. If there's any country that could use this, it's the US. It's a shame, or of all the European it should be the damn French driving themselves to exctinction. Did you know that they were rated as the worst tourists? They even rated themselves as the worst! They're also among the unhappiest by many measures, and even immigrants, people with very different culture, or at least second generations onward, show this decline as well. There's a fascinating paper titled "The French Unahppiness Puzzle".
Some country to look up to.
You're bound to have people who idolize and emulate American culture while in actuality knowing nothing about it (There is no American culture, the country is so vast, with so many ethnic groups, religions, even massive cultural divides between people who would label themselves "conservative" or "liberal" (leftist). France is one of the countries, and the others are the Nordic countries, which are far worst in this reard, usually be the kind of people who supposrt Bernie Sanders.
Possibly residual afinil and euregoic (wakefulness enhancer, plus lossibly some DRI effects.) But the summary is Fuck France, fuck their hisotry, nation, and politics. -
2016-06-20 at 6:41 AM UTC
Malice, I think the worst part of a child is eithet having them 24/7 and trying to hold shit together or having to work so much you hardly see them. I love and genuinely enjoy taking my baby places and swimming and such, its just the constant work and household shit doing it all alone thats been so tough. Soon, I wont have all these burdens, and can actually go out into the world on an adventure with him and my friends and just get to enjoy a lot of good things with him. i am really excited for this, but aso scared due to a lot of unknown factors, suddenly moving with my animals and packing… but once its done and we are there it shouldnt be too bad- then in a few weeks its off on a road trip for a while… who knows how long.
If I ever recover and live the point where I have a significant other and we have that need I'd use something like the boy scouts or a Big Brother type program to fill the urge. Or babysit for friends, ideally in an upper class educated neighborhoof where certain types I may have an affinity for congregate (tech sector, academia), their superior genes being inherieted by their children. -
2016-06-20 at 7:10 AM UTCI'm sick of spending the majority of my time on the computer. What the fuck do I even do though? I go to the gym for two hours max, and then I go home and........... and what? WHAT? I don't even wanna go home. What the fuck do I do? Nerds on teh fucking internet say "join a club a derp" but what the fuck does that even mean? What the fuck is a club? DO THEY EVEN EXIST? WHAT? NOBODY JOINS CLUBS. FUCK YOU. ILL FUCKING KILL YOU.
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2016-06-20 at 7:11 AM UTCCalm blue ocean calm blue ocean.
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2016-06-20 at 7:16 AM UTCI told myself I'd stop masturbating but I'm bored as fuck and my dick is like, right there.
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2016-06-20 at 7:25 AM UTCAnother note, of all the foreign languages I've come across, German by far seem the easiest to pronounce, to have the most affinity for my vocal style. In middle and high school my voice was known for being extremely deep, even remarked upon by a teacher, a girl described it as bear like when I had to answer a question in a lecture hall.
Not sure if it actually is, my throat was so extremely tensed from anxiety and extreme aversion/dislike for speaking, and I don't think I naturally sound like that anymore. Could be due to never having developed my "man voice", being completely socially undeveloped (It is what it is).
I hate languages though, and adhere strongly to rational ignorance. I just don't see the benefit being worth the opportunity cost. Imagine teaming, walking up to girls that deserved it (believe me, you needn't look far here) and souting phrases that sounded incredibly menacing, but were in realit either completely absurd or irrelevant.
Fear is a type of power. -
2016-06-20 at 12:30 PM UTC
I told myself I'd stop masturbating but I'm bored as fuck and my dick is like, right there.
You have a porn addiction. -
2016-06-20 at 1:21 PM UTCEnter- Well, when I was 11-12... fuck, even in my teens and later, I would choose to hang out with my dad over friends my age a lot. Sure, Im not normal, but Im certainly not autistic. I was homeschooled (by choice) from middle school to graduating. i was the kid who went and spent time at an old folks home with this one old lady who had dementia. Id sometimes 'kidnap' her and take her to stores and if she needed/wanted anything, Id buy it for her- it sometimes would become an ordeal because she wouldnt ever wanna go back, but I always made it her choice to go back, say for dinner or would make excuses shed agree we needed to return for. It was sad looking back, since she had no one ever visit her save for very rarely. I met her when my grandmother sent me in to drop off flowers for this lady who used to go to her church, on my way out I was grabbed by this lady in a wheelchair who begged me to take her back to her room, bit she didnt know where her room was, so I helped her out, got her in bed like she wanted, bitched at the nurse who wanted to be a cunt and say she couldnt be in bed and I shouldnt of helped her, and so I just... came back... 3-5 days a week sometimes more and started being very random when I came. I for some reasonnfelt an obligation to make sure she was being taken care of and had someone looking out for her. i started bring stuffed animals for her, ballons, candy... shit youd bring when visiting someone in a old folks home, to the point you could tell she had regular visitors. Once I came the nurse came up to me laughing saying her family had finally visited and brought all her stuffed animals, ballons and shit out saying to her she must have stolen them from other residents and the nurse had to explain about this 13 year old kid who just showed up by herself all times of day and the better part of the week. Finally, they noved her down to a south floirda facility and U had to beg the lady who rannthe old folks home to tell me where she was transfered. I went and visited her there a few times too, first time I walk in, her family is all there, about a dozen of them she looks up 'HYDRO! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN AND WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE?!' she couldnt remember next to nothing but she remembered my name as soon as I walked in and it was awkward trying to explain to her innfront of these people that these were her family... they didnt so much as speak a word to me. Well, point of all that is, if my son is anything like his mother, he too will probably find friendships outside the norm of most teenagers. Part of why my dad and I were so close was because he treated me as an equal, gave me loads of freedom and we could talk and get along well... when I was a teen I didnt really get on with other girls talking about makeup, their hair, the latest boy bands and shit... I had a few nerdy friends my agr, but they too wanted to hang out with my dad and I too.. my dad always had good ideas of shit to do and places to go. He was a good listener and wasnt judgemental which made me feel safer ti talk about important shit with him. I hope I can be like that with my son and again.. if hes a weirdo, like his mother, he probably will.
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2016-06-20 at 1:35 PM UTCMalice- I agree thats a better route to fill the desires of a child. My exhusband was the one who wanted a baby, not me. Im just making the most of what I have, and wanted to suggest other things that might make those numbers the way they are just from my personal experience. Also, I wonder, since they are taking this from birth to what.. 2 years? I wonder if post partum depression was considered in this too. during pregnancy and after the hormones get all fucked up big time... I definely had suffered and probably at times still suffer from post partum depression since hes been born. I feel bad for how at times Ive felt for when hes been born and things Ive said, but nobody ever even considers that its possible I was dealing with post partum depression. §m£ÂgØL has even said shit that I said back then and has held it over mewith no consideration of that before... I was very depressed, especially with the shit from my Exhusband. Ive always taken care of him to the best of my ability, never endangered him, and while at times Ive felt so low, and that maybe I didnt love him, had severe regrets he was here (mainly because of my exhusnand), Ive never been one of those fucked up people who thought about killing him or some shit like that. The worst Ive ever been has been contemplating leaving him with a friend or dcf and commiting suicide. Things have been better though... Ive always been a depressed person and have ideas that involve dying sometimes, but my priority is him being safe and happy always. Hopefully I can make some really good memories with my son growing up and while it wont be a normal life, not by a long shot, hopefully he will appreciate all the cool shit he gets to do with his mom. All I can do is make the best of a fucked up situation.
