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this whole shitheap of a site is full of MKULTRA zombies
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2019-09-19 at 6:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal Youre probably nuerotypical and only ended up in your situation because you're a loser
I suffer from legit mental illness and substance abuse
You can't compare your situation to mine
Only ended up in my situation because I'm a loser?
I was kind of made a loser, but I wouldn't call myself that now. I pulled myself out of that hole.
I'm far from nuerotypical as well. I could easily be diagnosed by doctors with many things but I don't see the need in being prescribed medications or attending therapies that I do not need.
I probably can't compare my situation to yours, I never used drugs/alcohol as a coping mechanism for the shit hand I was dealt. -
2019-09-19 at 6:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal Skulltag I'm pissed off at you because you're belittling the struggle I went through because it doesn't meet your personal criteria of what "true isolation" is.
You're a bullshitter.
I have been through hell and back and I'm not about to have what I went through dismissed just because I didn't have it meet your own definition of what it means to be isolated.
I have lived in isolation my entire life, I have never had a single person in my life there for me, I have always been alone.
You said something about me taking about something everywhere, well guess what I post on a shit ton of forums because I am online 24/7 and it is the only way I ever get to interact with people.
So you are bound to run into one of my posts.
You aren't deep, you aren't making any impression on me, you're just a nuisance.
You think you're leaving some impression on me, slapping me into reality and telling me that I'm just a sucker who needs to get on his own two feet and change things.
Sucker, you don't even fucking know what I have been through, who I am or how I got here.
You have no fucking clue what it means to grow up as an isolated person and you never will, you can't compare prison isolation or living alone as an adult to being somebody who grew up to adulthood sheltered and isolated.
You are a goddamn IDIOT and have no fucking clue what you're talking about and to someone in my situation it is a damn insult.
You have no business talking about something like this.
I'm not belittling it. I'm telling you to stand the fuck up and do something about it. I'm telling you that no matter how bad you've had it, someone has had it worse. I'm telling you that the human mind and body, including yours is extremely resilient. There are people with cases worse than yours who still struggle and occasionally win against their demons.
That doesn't discount your experiences. You get defensive, but you don't realize that you're not being attacked. In fact, you're the one doing the attacks. You speak without knowing. As said, not only I know enough about you because you make that information public, but I have seen all of it myself.
I'm willing to sit down and talk to you. Get to know you. Understand you better. Meanwhile you're simultaneously complaining about not having a single friend, but rejecting everyone who's attempting to give you a hand. You can pretend all you want. But just because you want to believe that you're the only one who's ever been isolated won't make it true.
I'm willing to take my time with you. But you just bullshit your way through hatred. You destroy yourself and blame me for it. I go with what you tell me about yourself and base my understanding of you on that. And it's hitting home pretty hard, from the looks of it. You, meanwhile, base your knowledge of me off your fantasies of being a kuu-dere protagonist who has it worse than everybody else.
News break. You're not the only person who's ever got isolated. You're not a sacrificial lamb who took all the wrongs of the world. But you won't get off your high horse. You won't have a talk. You won't accept help. And then you blame me for your own shortcomings. I don't have a problem being your boogeyman if it helps you feel better for a day. But I'd rather you fix yourself so you can feel better for the rest of your life.
EDIT: Removed sarcasm to avoid aggravating you any further. Of course, since you had it worse than everybody else, I don't want to agitate you even further, now do I?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-09-19 at 6:16 AM UTCI have never seen either two of you here on this forum in the three years I have been here
how am I supposed to believe you aren't alts or CIA shills that decided to come out of the blue to glow in the dark -
2019-09-19 at 6:17 AM UTCCutie pi 🐞
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2019-09-19 at 6:20 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I have never seen either two of you here on this forum in the three years I have been here
how am I supposed to believe you aren't alts or CIA shills that decided to come out of the blue to glow in the dark
I've been lurking on other sites instead. And tell me, why in the fuck would a CIA agent bother with you? ...
"Oh yeah, let's get a socially disabled hikkikomori! We can get him to become the new Bin Laden! He'll lead our next efforts to replace haji government! Just give him enough weapons, get him to grow a beard and send him to Assfuckistan! Yeah, this Japan-Is-Eternal guy has all the right life experiences to help us conquer Bumfuckistan!"
Come on man ... You're smarter than that. -
2019-09-19 at 6:21 AM UTCI just have no desire or energy to go on living in this dimensional plane
I want to die
I pray for death everyday
I want to be in Spira with my friends, Tidus, Yuna, Vaan, Heather and others .... ( who I won't name here)
I want to be with my real family.
and ye sI know this is irnoic posting this in a thread titled ".... MKULTRA" it has nothing to do with that garbage
I want to be with my family
I just don't know how to unite myself with them yet
I don't have the means to get a shotgun and blow my brains out and my mom definitely won't be me one
SHe keeps telling me "meditate ... .meditate!""" can I meditate myself into another dimensional plane so I can be with my tomodachis? -
2019-09-19 at 6:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by Skulltag I've been lurking on other sites instead. And tell me, why in the fuck would a CIA agent bother with you? …
"Oh yeah, let's get a socially disabled hikkikomori! We can get him to become the new Bin Laden! He'll lead our next efforts to replace haji government! Just give him enough weapons, get him to grow a beard and send him to Assfuckistan! Yeah, this Japan-Is-Eternal guy has all the right life experiences to help us conquer Bumfuckistan!"
Come on man … You're smarter than that.
The CIA is high on brainwashing people like me into becoming mass shooters.
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2019-09-19 at 6:30 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal The CIA is high on brainwashing people like me into becoming mass shooters.
Haven't you even been paying attention to ongoing events?
Except most mass shooters are politically motivated, if you have paid attention. The two latest shooters, both either right-wing or left-wing activists. The CIA isn't interested into spending resources into an asset which they can't control. They're interested into a tangible, submissive agent, who can be politically active and have an impact on the population at large.
You went from attacking me and venting on me to a conspiracy theory now. All of it just because I took interest in you and tried to extend a helping hand. Don't you think that it might be the reason you can't get close to people? And even if I was a fed, which for some fucking reason waste resources on you, what then? You're probably (I pray so) not dumb enough to go shooting people if someone tells you to.
But ... Enough man. Enough. You don't want help, it's fine. I offer you to sit down, have a talk, understand you and get to listen to your story while maybe putting things in perspective while telling you parts of mine. But if you've already passed judgement, I'm wasting my breath. I've lost people. I know I can't help everyone. Especially if they don't want to be helped. But don't blame me for you refusing the help. -
2019-09-19 at 8:01 AM UTCI've been talking about going on a mass shooting for years
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2019-09-19 at 8:16 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal Wrong, wrong and wrong.
I have been a hikikomori since 2002, and have stopped interacting with the outside world once I realized just how much more interesting cyberspace is from the fleshnet.
Through the internet I explored every realm and crevice of human expression and consciousness.
I'm not afraid of your reality, I simply have absolutely no interest in it because it is so bland and uninteresting.
You aren't the first person to question my sanity, it's always been this way since goddamn first grade and you know what, fuck you I am happy (somewhat).
I live my reality my own way, I don't plan on ever subscribing to your definition of what it means to be human and I won't in this lifetime or the next or ever.
Go on and try to analyze my posts and figure me out, you can't, because you are still stuck in the predefined notion of what it means to be human that has been laid out for you for the past million years.
Yes I know I sound pretentious, but I am being 100% serious and I will follow my lifestyle to the death.
Wrong you said you lived at a church while partially living out of your car just a year ago playing Pokemon
