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2019-09-19 at 4:42 AM UTCwhichever one you feel most interested in
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2019-09-19 at 4:46 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal Oh?
I doubt you even know what solitude is.
I've been living through it since I was 11 years old, basically my entire human life.
It's not bad, I just wish I had a single close friend who understand me and would play video games with me.
You're lieing. I'm too lazy to search up your shitposting, but you basically admitted it yourself. Since 2002, you have been on the computer every single day, of every single month, of every single year. You've always been in contact with the human race. Reading, shitposting and pretending to stand alone while following the rest of us lost sheep.
You're trying to play the solitary edgelord, but you can't live a single day without the internet. You can't live a single day facing nothing but yourself. I know more about pain and solitude than you'll ever want to know. But that's not a story you need to know.
You have never been left to rot in a 2x2 hole for months on end. Without anyone to talk to. Without any sort of tech to keep you company. Without even a bed or anything to scrawl and draw on. Without your mail ordered food, forced to get scraps of whatever your torturer gives you. Knowing that nobody will come for you, ever.
You try to call people out on being posers because you yourself have no experience with the real world, and so, you play pretend and don't want to be called out on it. Call others what you are so that it looks less incriminating when you get called out on it.
Again. I'm not here to judge you. But how do you expect to get a friend if you lie to everybody, including yourself? You can't solve your problems if you don't want to admit them. -
2019-09-19 at 4:49 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra whichever one you feel most interested in
I'm actually in the process of working on a post-Indstrial/electro-Industrial album inspired by Skinny Puppy and TG mixed with elemetns of pedosexuality and 20th century nihilism
if you have the time please do listen to my EP (it's only 30 minutes so fuck you) for an idea of what I'm going with
The album I'm working on next with be more electro oriented and might feature more vocals. -
2019-09-19 at 4:50 AM UTC
Originally posted by Skulltag You're lieing. I'm too lazy to search up your shitposting, but you basically admitted it yourself. Since 2002, you have been on the computer every single day, of every single month, of every single year. You've always been in contact with the human race. Reading, shitposting and pretending to stand alone while following the rest of us lost sheep.
You're trying to play the solitary edgelord, but you can't live a single day without the internet. You can't live a single day facing nothing but yourself. I know more about pain and solitude than you'll ever want to know. But that's not a story you need to know.
You have never been left to rot in a 2x2 hole for months on end. Without anyone to talk to. Without any sort of tech to keep you company. Without even a bed or anything to scrawl and draw on. Without your mail ordered food, forced to get scraps of whatever your torturer gives you. Knowing that nobody will come for you, ever.
You try to call people out on being posers because you yourself have no experience with the real world, and so, you play pretend and don't want to be called out on it. Call others what you are so that it looks less incriminating when you get called out on it.
Again. I'm not here to judge you. But how do you expect to get a friend if you lie to everybody, including yourself? You can't solve your problems if you don't want to admit them.
I didn't even read your shitpost and I just want you to know that you cannot compare staring at text on a screen to actual physical human interaction.
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2019-09-19 at 4:53 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I didn't even read your shitpost and I just want you to know that you cannot compare staring at text on a screen to actual physical human interaction.
Fuck you.
That was exactly my point. And since it has troubled you so much, I seem to have hit the nail on the head. My job here is done. Thanks for having taken a moment of introspection. I believe you've just made the first step towards recovery. -
2019-09-19 at 4:55 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I'm actually in the process of working on a post-Indstrial/electro-Industrial album inspired by Skinny Puppy and TG mixed with elemetns of pedosexuality and 20th century nihilism
if you have the time please do listen to my EP (it's only 30 minutes so fuck you) for an idea of what I'm going with
The album I'm working on next with be more electro oriented and might feature more vocals.
do you have flacs?
if I listen to it I'll probably make a review thread that you might not like, ie. https://niggasin.space/thread/7144 -
2019-09-19 at 4:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Skulltag That was exactly my point. And since it has troubled you so much, I seem to have hit the nail on the head. My job here is done. Thanks for having taken a moment of introspection. I believe you've just made the first step towards recovery.
No you're some dumbass normie that thinks isolation exclusively means absolute zero interaction with another living being and you're wrong.
I'm not trying to wave my dick around like you, I am extremely lonely and sheltered and miserable because of it.
I long for human interaction, it kills me inside that I grew up the way I did.
You will never understand what I went through, the fact that you had to go through some extreme example that you yourself never even experienced says it all.
You know absolutely NOTHING about what it is like to live your entire life isolated and without human interaction.
All I can do is take your beating and listen to idiots like you put me down and say "well you at least talked to people over the internet so what do you have to complain for?"
FUCK YOU YOU STUPID FUCK
You have lived your whole life with contact with other humans, I have spent my entire goddamn life where the only physical human interaction I have had is with my mom and other than that it's text on screen with idiots like yourself.
I'm not bragging, I am CRYING, I am FUCKING MISERABLE and this life FUCKING SUCKS and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but somehow through circumstance this is what I ended up in.
If I could turn things around and go back to 2002 and have real human relationships I would, but I didn't.
What you're saying is no different from saying somebody had a social life through reading books, it's bullshit.
Fuck you and your ignorant privileged life, you stupid scumbag.
I hate every single one of you and the only reason I am even here is because I am profoundly lonely. -
2019-09-19 at 5:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by Skulltag That was exactly my point. And since it has troubled you so much, I seem to have hit the nail on the head. My job here is done. Thanks for having taken a moment of introspection. I believe you've just made the first step towards recovery.
The only thing you achieved was pissing me off by your stupidity
You claim I have spent my entire life socializing yet the only human interaction I have had is through an abstraction, the computer monitor and font on my screen.
Meanwhile you get to go outside and breathe in the pheromones and read the body language of the people you interact with on a daily basis.
I have never had that experience.
You don't know anything about loneliness or isolation, so to see an idiot like you yap their mouth after everything I have gone through is an INSULT.
You assume that I am a poser because I come to places like this to socialize, that just goes to show your absolute ignorance on what it means to be lonely in the first place.
Not everyone in my situation wants to be away from people, we are just put in certain situations where it isn't possible for us.
Fuck you.
I want nothing more than to have friends and a social life, but I don't know how and I never have since goddamn 1st grade.
You are an ignorant douchebag and you have no business talking about something like this. -
2019-09-19 at 5:08 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal the only human interaction I have had is through an abstraction, the computer monitor and font on my screen.
You've never attended school? Or you've only attended home school?
Or did your parents never talk to you?
Those formative years are where you're (supposed) to develop core, basic, socialization functions. If that wasn't the case for you, you have my genuine sympathy. -
2019-09-19 at 5:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra do you have flacs?
if I listen to it I'll probably make a review thread that you might not like, ie. https://niggasin.space/thread/7144
I'll send you the flacs after I recover from this inevitable hangover -
2019-09-19 at 5:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal No you're some dumbass normie that thinks isolation exclusively means absolute zero interaction with another living being and you're wrong.
I'm not trying to wave my dick around like you, I am extremely lonely and sheltered and miserable because of it.
I long for human interaction, it kills me inside that I grew up the way I did.
You will never understand what I went through, the fact that you had to go through some extreme example that you yourself never even experienced says it all.
You know absolutely NOTHING about what it is like to live your entire life isolated and without human interaction.
All I can do is take your beating and listen to idiots like you put me down and say "well you at least talked to people over the internet so what do you have to complain for?"
FUCK YOU YOU STUPID FUCK
You have lived your whole life with contact with other humans, I have spent my entire goddamn life where the only physical human interaction I have had is with my mom and other than that it's text on screen with idiots like yourself.
I'm not bragging, I am CRYING, I am FUCKING MISERABLE and this life FUCKING SUCKS and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but somehow through circumstance this is what I ended up in.
If I could turn things around and go back to 2002 and have real human relationships I would, but I didn't.
What you're saying is no different from saying somebody had a social life through reading books, it's bullshit.
Fuck you and your ignorant privileged life, you stupid scumbag.
I hate every single one of you and the only reason I am even here is because I am profoundly lonely.
You know why you're so worked up and so angry? Because the lies you're telling yourself are slowly coming apart. And you don't want them to. You've been too comfortable, being a primadonna and pretending to have it worse than the rest of the world.
You know that YOU are responsible for your actions. Nobody else. You find refuge in attempting to judge me, but I am not the topic of this discussion. You are. I've seen more solitude than most'll ever see. I've come to terms with it. I've left it behind to some degree.
You misunderstand me when you think I'm beating on you. Again, I'm not here to judge you. I've seen a lot, but there are people who have seen more than me. I'm nobody to judge you. I merely tell you from experience that you are your own enemy. Not me. Not this site. Yourself.
You can be mad at me all you want. You can hate me all you want. I don't hate you. Hatred is weakness. I've seen too much of it. You claim that life sucks, but you have never experienced it truly. It's much worse than what you can imagine. While you're busy venting on the screen, there are people being held in solitary cells. There are people who are POWs, slowly dieing in jihadi "prisons".
You even proven my point.
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I hate every single one of you and the only reason I am even here is because I am profoundly lonely.
That's exactly what I said. And that's why it hurt you. Because I hit the nail right on the head. And I'll do it again. Not because I'm "beating you down" or making fun of you. But because you still can get out of it. If, and only if, you accept the hand being extended to you. If, and only if, you face the lies head on.
You hate me without even knowing me. Which is amusing. But the truth is, I don't hate you back. Why would I waste my time poking around your psyche and trying to give you the tools to see your problems and walk out of them, then? Consider this extended hand an offer of companionship.
Will you finally defeat your isolationism, or will you push everyone away but end up chasing after them again, I wonder?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-09-19 at 5:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by cob You've never attended school? Or you've only attended home school?
Or did your parents never talk to you?
Those formative years are where you're (supposed) to develop core, basic, socialization functions. If that wasn't the case for you, you have my genuine sympathy.
I went to public school through kindergarten to the 5th grade.
The entire time I was there was extremely miserable and my mom (god bless her) took me out at 5th grade.
I had to repeat the second and third grade twice, Idk if I have legit mental illness or if it was a lack of interest of both but it did not work out for me.
And before that one idiot in this thread tries to chime in and voice his dumbass opinion, I wasn't able to socialize when I was in school either.
I have legit been isolated and alone my entire life, I have never once had an actual real friend aside for a few kids I would talk to during lunch time or at passively at my apartment complex when I was a young kid.
My mom was an alcoholic and my dad already had a family before he knocked her up so I had a pretty dysfunctional upbringing.
Before 2002 I didn't have the net so all I had was playstation 1 and television, the tv was the only way I could interact with the outside world.
Skip to 2003 and I finally convinced my mom to take me out of school since I was so goddamn miserable and never went anywhere with it in the fist place.
During that time I discovered 4chan and TOTSE and those would be my only forms of socializing and have been ever since, but I know very damn well that isn't actual human interaction.
When I was 17 I tried going to a charter high school and I was there for three or four days before I left, though I didn't meet this autistic girl who understood what I was going through and tried to befriend me but I was deep into alcohol and too autistic to be her friend so that never went anywhere.
Basically I have lived a very isolated and miserable life and if it weren't for that do you really think I would be on such a stupid goddamn website at 1:23am in the year 2019?
I am so lonely I have died inside.
I daydream everyday about having a social life. -
2019-09-19 at 5:27 AM UTCDo as you see fit. The offer still stands, should you take me upon it. If you want to continue pretending, I'm not going to force you. If you want to solve your problems by facing them head on, I'm here. Take care. Peace.
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2019-09-19 at 5:30 AM UTC
Originally posted by Skulltag Do as you see fit. The offer still stands, should you take me upon it. If you want to continue pretending, I'm not going to force you. If you want to solve your problems by facing them head on, I'm here. Take care. Peace.
Yep, I have been pretending since I was 6 years old in grade school ... ehhmhh I'm just a pretender ... a prima donna ... some wigger on a random forum knows more about my personal experience than me ... uh huh the past 20 years doesn't mean anything because some degenerate loser who was put into jail thinks he had it harder. -
2019-09-19 at 5:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal Yep, I have been pretending since I was 6 years old in grade school … ehhmhh I'm just a pretender … a prima donna … some wigger on a random forum knows more about my personal experience than me … uh huh the past 20 years doesn't mean anything because some degenerate loser who was put into jail thinks he had it harder.
I know about you because you keep complaining about it everywhere. Or are you saying you lied when you said you've been on the PC since 2002? More importantly, you can hate me and attack me if it makes you feel better. But the fact of the matter is, you don't even know me. None of that hits home.
But you're pissed at me because what I tell you does hit home. Hell, you even admit so yourself. If I was wrong, why would you paraphrase my point, mhmm? And you're missing the point again. I'm not judging you. I'm just telling you that you can get out of it.
You hate me without even knowing me. (Here's a hint, no, I'm not a wigger since I'd have to be white for that. And no, I wasn't put in a jail or prison. At least not in a traditional sense of that word.) You shoot and miss every time. While I stand tall in the middle of it and offer you to pick you up.
But yes, you're not the end-all-be-all of suffering. Does isolation hurt? Sure. Does that mean that you need to wallow in it? No. I've met and spoken to people who had half their body blown off and now live on the streets, all alone, because the country they gave their lives body and soul for left them behind. And they keep struggling.
I've personally seen enough hatred, pain and solitude yet I keep moving forward, even if I shouldn't be. I've seen Hell in others, and I've been there myself. I keep moving. I want to help you stand up and move forward as well. But I'm not going to drag you.
So once more. You can either keep bitching, lieing to yourself and pretending like you can't do anything about your predicament, while rejecting any help. Or you can actually make me accountable for my words and take me upon the offer of help.
Whichever floats your boat. You can hate me. I won't hate you.
Anyhow. I'm going to let you sober up right now. Maybe I shouldn't expect a drunk person to make sense so that's on me. My job here is done. I've done all that I could. Ball is in your court. -
2019-09-19 at 5:50 AM UTCBALLS ARE ON YOUR CHIN
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2019-09-19 at 5:53 AM UTCSkulltag I'm pissed off at you because you're belittling the struggle I went through because it doesn't meet your personal criteria of what "true isolation" is.
You're a bullshitter.
I have been through hell and back and I'm not about to have what I went through dismissed just because I didn't have it meet your own definition of what it means to be isolated.
I have lived in isolation my entire life, I have never had a single person in my life there for me, I have always been alone.
You said something about me taking about something everywhere, well guess what I post on a shit ton of forums because I am online 24/7 and it is the only way I ever get to interact with people.
So you are bound to run into one of my posts.
You aren't deep, you aren't making any impression on me, you're just a nuisance.
You think you're leaving some impression on me, slapping me into reality and telling me that I'm just a sucker who needs to get on his own two feet and change things.
Sucker, you don't even fucking know what I have been through, who I am or how I got here.
You have no fucking clue what it means to grow up as an isolated person and you never will, you can't compare prison isolation or living alone as an adult to being somebody who grew up to adulthood sheltered and isolated.
You are a goddamn IDIOT and have no fucking clue what you're talking about and to someone in my situation it is a damn insult.
You have no business talking about something like this. -
2019-09-19 at 5:56 AM UTCanyways yeah I fucking hate my situation and do everything I can to interact with others which is why I come here
I thought of people like Sophie and Aldra (who is kind of proving himself to be just another douchebag) as my friends and because of them I keep coming online.
If it weren't for you two guys I wouldn't have a single soul to talk to anymore.
Idk what any of you idiots think because I"m soon to cancel my internet service anyways and return to my pure hikikomori existence playing Final Fantasy all day while cuddling with Yuna and Tidus. -
2019-09-19 at 6:02 AM UTC
Originally posted by Japan-Is-Eternal I went to public school through kindergarten to the 5th grade.
The entire time I was there was extremely miserable and my mom (god bless her) took me out at 5th grade.
I went to school through kindergarten to 3rd grade then was taken out by a parent who wanted to "homeschool" me but taught me nothing. Truly my only form of socialization was the Internet for most of my life until I eventually reported what was going on to Social Services later on in my adolescence. I learned most of my grammar by reading 4chan, actually. So, what I get out of your post is that it was a blessing for you to be taken out of school? It was a blessing for you to be taken out of the place where you're supposed to socialize. Also, your drinking and drug habits are your own fault, and the responsibility for those things rests on you.
Despite my childhood or lack thereof I was able to recover perfectly fine and move on with my life. I was only able to do so because of the experiences I had online (which you call "fake"). I had no official or formal therapy. I literally went to HS late like everyone else. Didn't attend middle school or anything as a child.
Stop making excuses and move on with your life. I've been isolated as well and I was able to cope, move on, and handle society.
If you hated school, you hated socialization. Don't give me any nonsense about bullies and other such nonsense. Man the fuck up. -
2019-09-19 at 6:04 AM UTC
Originally posted by cob I went to school through kindergarten to 3rd grade then was taken out by a parent who wanted to "homeschool" me but taught me nothing. Truly my only form of socialization was the Internet for most of my life until I eventually reported what was going on to Social Services later on in my adolescence. I learned most of my grammar by reading 4chan, actually. So, what I get out of your post is that it was a blessing for you to be taken out of school? It was a blessing for you to be taken out of the place where you're supposed to socialize. Also, your drinking and drug habits are your own fault, and the responsibility for those things rests on you.
Despite that I was able to recover perfectly fine and move on with my life. I was only able to do so because of the experiences I had online (which you call "fake")
Stop making excuses and move on with your life. I've been isolated as well and I was able to cope, move on, and handle society.
If you hated school, you hated socialization. Don't give me any nonsense about bullies and other such nonsense. Man the fuck up.
Youre probably nuerotypical and only ended up in your situation because you're a loser
I suffer from legit mental illness and substance abuse
You can't compare your situation to mine
