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2019-09-11 at 3:40 AM UTCget myself into a lot of unnecessary jams that hurt me and eat up gobs of time and resources to rectify and then I come out ok but with more & more battle scars and less productivity, fun, wholesome experiences, yesterday is no different maybe I should follow their advices
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2019-09-11 at 1:35 PM UTCI have 100% snapped and lost my mind and am no longer accessible to the human experience. I have transcended from the despise of life's torture to a lust, and a need for it.
I am to be destroyed. Of this, i know. The purpose, can only truly speculate on. Irrelevant, regardless.
Let go of the hate. The anger. The heart. The human burning desire for justice, in whatever form. Accept, allow, and invite the inescapble suffering within. Learn to find its comfort, behind its frightening mask.
This suffering entity loves you more than you know, despite its torture. It just knows its purpose: break what remains of the fragile human form to truly free it. You must destroy things at time for new life to have its own chance.
I know my purpose now, as well. A timeframe, as well. The inner peace now guides me down the avenues I must travel for this very close goal of mine.
I wish you all truly the best in any attempted recoveries, financial or emotional struggles, or othewise. I wish no ill upon anyone here depite crude things said in jest.
Message me for any desired insight, questions or reasonable ways I can perhaps help you. I seek to only spread happiness, help, and any assistance I can in this final hours.
This is not drug induced. This is months of debate in a damaged, tortured, yet desperate and seemingly intteligent brain that made many calculations, second guesses and reconsiderations, and consciously decided on the choice of total extermination.
I am at peace with this, and respectfully decline any help, support, or other attempts to sway my already moving process. I thank those of you who truly care but ask that you celebrate my good and funny memories etc and not grieve my loss.
Please, if anyone respects me, punch the first person to call my loss a "tragedy". Thats just more self serving bullshit. It will be the most powerful, liberating, and freeing moment possible to experience. If you "grieve" the loss of a clearly suffering person you're just selfish.
When I held my first beloved sick cat in my arms as I allowed the veterinarian to inject the lethal dose or pentobarbital into his system it ripped my heart out in ways most way chide me for, of which I have lost all value in critism. Regardless, there were "chances" he would recover (all slim chance and risky) or keep him in the hospital full time to see if he changed. Agreed to try it overnight and it was no change. I had him euthanized in my arms and it hurt more than anything in my life but I really did love him and my desire to avoid that loss was not ever going to be stronger than my love for his best interest.
This is where I am. They say they care. They claim its worth trying. Im in terrible pain, sick and suffering. No concern for that; only for my possibly liability on others. Because human life means nothing to our society.
Allow me to spread my wings and leave this failed experiment behind and save yourself the trouble of even attempting to access let alone influence or change my mind right now.
If anyone would feel compelled to contribute anything in my memory or trade me for any remaining wares, I kindly ask you donate all the money to a local animal shelter of your choosing. -
2019-09-11 at 1:44 PM UTCOn a lighter note, Otium earbud containers are great for when you find yourself thinking that 3 capsules or pure MDMA, 350 mg worth of Vyvanse, at least 6 mg Xanax and a couple grams of hash are all required "just in case" when all youre doing is running a quick errand. Zips shut and real compact.
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2019-09-11 at 1:47 PM UTCI wont get arrested so no worries. I am taking all precautions. There will be no chance of interverence or failure. I have learned by now and I understand how to best do this quietly, cleanly, and quickly.
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2019-09-11 at 1:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice I have 100% snapped and lost my mind and am no longer accessible to the human experience. I have transcended from the despise of life's torture to a lust, and a need for it.
I am to be destroyed. Of this, i know. The purpose, can only truly speculate on. Irrelevant, regardless.
Let go of the hate. The anger. The heart. The human burning desire for justice, in whatever form. Accept, allow, and invite the inescapble suffering within. Learn to find its comfort, behind its frightening mask.
This suffering entity loves you more than you know, despite its torture. It just knows its purpose: break what remains of the fragile human form to truly free it. You must destroy things at time for new life to have its own chance.
I know my purpose now, as well. A timeframe, as well. The inner peace now guides me down the avenues I must travel for this very close goal of mine.
I wish you all truly the best in any attempted recoveries, financial or emotional struggles, or othewise. I wish no ill upon anyone here depite crude things said in jest.
Message me for any desired insight, questions or reasonable ways I can perhaps help you. I seek to only spread happiness, help, and any assistance I can in this final hours.
This is not drug induced. This is months of debate in a damaged, tortured, yet desperate and seemingly intteligent brain that made many calculations, second guesses and reconsiderations, and consciously decided on the choice of total extermination.
I am at peace with this, and respectfully decline any help, support, or other attempts to sway my already moving process. I thank those of you who truly care but ask that you celebrate my good and funny memories etc and not grieve my loss.
Please, if anyone respects me, punch the first person to call my loss a "tragedy". Thats just more self serving bullshit. It will be the most powerful, liberating, and freeing moment possible to experience. If you "grieve" the loss of a clearly suffering person you're just selfish.
When I held my first beloved sick cat in my arms as I allowed the veterinarian to inject the lethal dose or pentobarbital into his system it ripped my heart out in ways most way chide me for, of which I have lost all value in critism. Regardless, there were "chances" he would recover (all slim chance and risky) or keep him in the hospital full time to see if he changed. Agreed to try it overnight and it was no change. I had him euthanized in my arms and it hurt more than anything in my life but I really did love him and my desire to avoid that loss was not ever going to be stronger than my love for his best interest.
This is where I am. They say they care. They claim its worth trying. Im in terrible pain, sick and suffering. No concern for that; only for my possibly liability on others. Because human life means nothing to our society.
Allow me to spread my wings and leave this failed experiment behind and save yourself the trouble of even attempting to access let alone influence or change my mind right now.
If anyone would feel compelled to contribute anything in my memory or trade me for any remaining wares, I kindly ask you donate all the money to a local animal shelter of your choosing.
remember last week when u were all about edibles and shit like that? Don't kill yourself, that's so weak and gay. Depression subsides, you arent a prisoner of war or in incredible chronic pain. Don't do it please because so many more people should die before you doThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-09-11 at 1:53 PM UTC
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2019-09-11 at 2 PM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice I have 100% snapped and lost my mind and am no longer accessible to the human experience. I have transcended from the despise of life's torture to a lust, and a need for it.
I am to be destroyed. Of this, i know. The purpose, can only truly speculate on. Irrelevant, regardless.
Let go of the hate. The anger. The heart. The human burning desire for justice, in whatever form. Accept, allow, and invite the inescapble suffering within. Learn to find its comfort, behind its frightening mask.
This suffering entity loves you more than you know, despite its torture. It just knows its purpose: break what remains of the fragile human form to truly free it. You must destroy things at time for new life to have its own chance.
I know my purpose now, as well. A timeframe, as well. The inner peace now guides me down the avenues I must travel for this very close goal of mine.
I wish you all truly the best in any attempted recoveries, financial or emotional struggles, or othewise. I wish no ill upon anyone here depite crude things said in jest.
Message me for any desired insight, questions or reasonable ways I can perhaps help you. I seek to only spread happiness, help, and any assistance I can in this final hours.
This is not drug induced. This is months of debate in a damaged, tortured, yet desperate and seemingly intteligent brain that made many calculations, second guesses and reconsiderations, and consciously decided on the choice of total extermination.
I am at peace with this, and respectfully decline any help, support, or other attempts to sway my already moving process. I thank those of you who truly care but ask that you celebrate my good and funny memories etc and not grieve my loss.
Please, if anyone respects me, punch the first person to call my loss a "tragedy". Thats just more self serving bullshit. It will be the most powerful, liberating, and freeing moment possible to experience. If you "grieve" the loss of a clearly suffering person you're just selfish.
When I held my first beloved sick cat in my arms as I allowed the veterinarian to inject the lethal dose or pentobarbital into his system it ripped my heart out in ways most way chide me for, of which I have lost all value in critism. Regardless, there were "chances" he would recover (all slim chance and risky) or keep him in the hospital full time to see if he changed. Agreed to try it overnight and it was no change. I had him euthanized in my arms and it hurt more than anything in my life but I really did love him and my desire to avoid that loss was not ever going to be stronger than my love for his best interest.
This is where I am. They say they care. They claim its worth trying. Im in terrible pain, sick and suffering. No concern for that; only for my possibly liability on others. Because human life means nothing to our society.
Allow me to spread my wings and leave this failed experiment behind and save yourself the trouble of even attempting to access let alone influence or change my mind right now.
If anyone would feel compelled to contribute anything in my memory or trade me for any remaining wares, I kindly ask you donate all the money to a local animal shelter of your choosing.
this is literally a billion times more cringey than anything malice hydro or even zek ever posted so part of me really wants to say do it you fucking faggot what are you waiting for, but I don't encourage people to be weak cowards.
If youve decided youre too weak for this world you probably ar3 but youre hardly the weakest person still living, just probably the gayest -
2019-09-11 at 3:57 PM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice I have 100% snapped and lost my mind and am no longer accessible to the human experience. I have transcended from the despise of life's torture to a lust, and a need for it.
I am to be destroyed. Of this, i know. The purpose, can only truly speculate on. Irrelevant, regardless.
Let go of the hate. The anger. The heart. The human burning desire for justice, in whatever form. Accept, allow, and invite the inescapble suffering within. Learn to find its comfort, behind its frightening mask.
This suffering entity loves you more than you know, despite its torture. It just knows its purpose: break what remains of the fragile human form to truly free it. You must destroy things at time for new life to have its own chance.
I know my purpose now, as well. A timeframe, as well. The inner peace now guides me down the avenues I must travel for this very close goal of mine.
I wish you all truly the best in any attempted recoveries, financial or emotional struggles, or othewise. I wish no ill upon anyone here depite crude things said in jest.
Message me for any desired insight, questions or reasonable ways I can perhaps help you. I seek to only spread happiness, help, and any assistance I can in this final hours.
This is not drug induced. This is months of debate in a damaged, tortured, yet desperate and seemingly intteligent brain that made many calculations, second guesses and reconsiderations, and consciously decided on the choice of total extermination.
I am at peace with this, and respectfully decline any help, support, or other attempts to sway my already moving process. I thank those of you who truly care but ask that you celebrate my good and funny memories etc and not grieve my loss.
Please, if anyone respects me, punch the first person to call my loss a "tragedy". Thats just more self serving bullshit. It will be the most powerful, liberating, and freeing moment possible to experience. If you "grieve" the loss of a clearly suffering person you're just selfish.
When I held my first beloved sick cat in my arms as I allowed the veterinarian to inject the lethal dose or pentobarbital into his system it ripped my heart out in ways most way chide me for, of which I have lost all value in critism. Regardless, there were "chances" he would recover (all slim chance and risky) or keep him in the hospital full time to see if he changed. Agreed to try it overnight and it was no change. I had him euthanized in my arms and it hurt more than anything in my life but I really did love him and my desire to avoid that loss was not ever going to be stronger than my love for his best interest.
This is where I am. They say they care. They claim its worth trying. Im in terrible pain, sick and suffering. No concern for that; only for my possibly liability on others. Because human life means nothing to our society.
Allow me to spread my wings and leave this failed experiment behind and save yourself the trouble of even attempting to access let alone influence or change my mind right now.
If anyone would feel compelled to contribute anything in my memory or trade me for any remaining wares, I kindly ask you donate all the money to a local animal shelter of your choosing.
Listen closely: no this "suffering being" doesn't love you. Your brain is fucking lying to you. I am telling you man.
Once you understand how it works, the voices in your head become straight bullshit. At least that was the case for me.
It fucking sucks, I know it does, and it's hard, and it doesn't get easier but above all, life is worth too much to throw away.
For millions of years every single one of your ancestors survived out of a spinning ball of gas somewhere in out crazy universe... Think of all the countless trillions of carbon atoms out there who don't have autonomy, who don't have the ability to influence their environment.
You have so much power, but you have forgotten it because it's been beaten out of you. But you aren't helpless man.
Learned helplessness is a real thing. They'll shock a dog with the cage closed till it stops trying to escape, then it won't even try to escape when the door is open.
This is like that but more advanced.
If you really didn't like anything about your life or even your own behaviour, to the point you are willing to die, you would have no hesitation dropping those things, including your identity and your behaviours, regardless of the comfort they bring you. You can hit the road and be free without a single dime to your name. You don't have to be the same person with anything resembling the same life. There's an easier way to escape the trappings of your current life than to escape life et al. Because what could be more dangerous than killing yourself?
Don't give up. Understand it, fight it, beat it. It's fucking hard but you have what it takes, you always have. On your life's long timeline, these times are a blip. In 20 years you'll look back and thank goodness you didn't do it, because things turned out less catastrophic than you built them up in your head, and hell, you really DID have what it took to deal with your problems. You'll struggle through it and come out stronger. You'll look back and say "shit I still feel that way sometimes but I have a handle on it and it doesn't make my life not worth living".
What is really troubling you is not your worries, nor your true inability, but your lack of energy to fight them. That's NOT YOUR FAULT. IT IS YOUR FUCKING BRAIN MECHANICALLY NOT PUMPING RIGHT. I know it sounds fucking exhausting to fight your problems, maybe it feels like your life is falling to pieces, but it really isn't, you have what it takes to beat most of those issues... Your brain is just fucking up and making it seem like it is beyond your reach.
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2019-09-11 at 4:26 PM UTCI like this but I don't think there's anything any of us could say to change his opinion. He already knows we give a fuck, and he's already heard it all. You cant forcefully warp someone's mind into something it is not. Its up to him to figure it out. Or not.
I hope you do though poc.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-09-11 at 4:46 PM UTCUghh all of this is gayer than the Stanford Trees
If you have 100% snapped and lost your mind then it sounds like you've experienced a kind of schizophrenic rebirth, and I'm no stranger to that but I also know how to flip that into the best thing that ever happened to me. You can get through this but if you don't want to then you won't and it doesn't help you for other people to treat you like shit for what you decide to do.
I know Box Wine killed himself but he was dying anyway and his body and mind had both come to peace with it long ago. There was justice and mercy there, not a needless casuality.
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2019-09-11 at 8:01 PM UTCWe had to talk to each other about sex and culture in my sex and culture class and it was awkward but also refreshing i think im gonna bang the asian girl i sit by she seems to like me
Also my teacher went down the list of the most taboo sex terms the other day starting with felch just to be purient, and asked if we knew what it meant and I did but nobody said anything of course and i left as she kept going because fucc that
Which was a shame becausei actually really like her, the class is very intersting i dont know if any of you read Focault
Also i skipped my pocohantas class today cause i was way late and blamed it on my disabilities lol -
2019-09-11 at 8:05 PM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano We had to talk to each other about sex and culture in my sex and culture class and it was awkward but also refreshing i think im gonna bang the asian girl i sit by she seems to like me
Also my teacher went down the list of the most taboo sex terms the other day starting with felch just to be purient, and asked if we knew what it meant and I did but nobody said anything of course and i left as she kept going because fucc that
Which was a shame becausei actually really like her, the class is very intersting i dont know if any of you read Focault
Also i skipped my pocohantas class today cause i was way late and i blamed it on my disabilities lol
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2019-09-11 at 8:08 PM UTC
Originally posted by G4LM You have one of those disability free passes at your school?
Fuck yeah, i have a shitload, i started out asking for only like to step out for a while or reschedule a test, she wanted to add a lot more, but later on i gave her the go ahead and she gave me like class flexibilty whenever i want pretty much, and i could press her for more but dont really see the point
Just told her i have adhd and she will give me extra time on tests in a heartbeat but i dont want to depend on such things -
2019-09-11 at 8:12 PM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano Fuck yeah, i have a shitload, i started out asking for only like to step out for a while or reschedule a test, she wanted to add a lot more, but later on i gave her the go ahead and she gave me like class flexibilty whenever i want pretty much, and i could press her for more but dont really see the point
That's pretty sweet honestly. Are you like, crippled or?? -
2019-09-11 at 8:13 PM UTCIf I wanted to I could get mad disability passes and probably a bursary or two (I somehow got one without applying which was neat but idk what its for). I'm a mature student with bad ADHD, chronic pain, institutionalization syndrome plus a bunch of other stuff. I used to get crazy anxiety in school too, like really bad but now it's much better.
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2019-09-11 at 8:20 PM UTCI only used it like twice to leave class early last semester and that was it because I really don't want to miss class or make up assignments or abuse my privledges in a way that it will be disrespectful to the instructor or make me feel like a pile of bubble gum, but when pressed against a hard place, I will obvisously use my get out of tight space free card.
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2019-09-11 at 8:20 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo If I wanted to I could get mad disability passes and probably a bursary or two (I somehow got one without applying which was neat but idk what its for). I'm a mature student with bad ADHD, chronic pain, institutionalization syndrome plus a bunch of other stuff. I used to get crazy anxiety in school too, like really bad but now it's much better.
You should get a prescription for your chronic faggot disorder because you are chronically afflicted with faggotry. -
2019-09-11 at 8:22 PM UTCI had a dream last night where I hustled the pharmacy to give me free samples of lyrica and then i woke up and was disappointed
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2019-09-11 at 8:25 PM UTC
Originally posted by DietPiano I only used it like twice to leave class early last semester and that was it because I really don't want to miss class or make up assignments or abuse my privledges in a way that it will be disrespectful to the instructor or make me feel like a pile of bubble gum, but when pressed against a hard place, I will obvisously use my get out of tight space free card.
when I was in junior high I told my math teacher I was hypoglycemic so I could put my head down on my desk and sleep or go get a bag of chips to eat in class but in reality I was just high all the time 420blazitfajit -
2019-09-11 at 8:29 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sudo when I was in junior high I told my math teacher I was hypoglycemic so I could put my head down on my desk and sleep or go get a bag of chips to eat in class but in reality I was just high all the time 420blazitfajit
Why the fuck do people put their head down in class. I always saw the most nigger of kids doing it.
